BlueSpike PSN Chat 1

BlueSpike PSN Chat 1 was the first PlayStation Network chat between "Julie" (BlueSpike) and Chris, held on 16 February 2009.

While this is the first of their PSN chats, they had been in communication for more than six weeks at this point, and chatted many times via Mumble and other methods.

Summary
This chat takes place just before the death of Chris's Aunt Corrina, and his odd grasp of empathy is very much on display. He easily transitions from the death of his aunt to talking about the possibility of a three-way with Julie, but later talks about crying with his mother over her sister's illness. He says it sometimes takes some time for bad news to sink in before he reacts. (Corrina died 15 days after this chat took place, on 21 February.) In regards the threesome, Julie points out the hypocrisy of Chris's refusal to bring another man into the relationship, since he'd be happy to bring in another woman. When pressed, Chris says he'd be fine with sharing Julie with another man, although whether he actually meant it is an open question.

Other aspects of Chris and Julie's conversation cover more mundane topics. We get a glimpse of an ordinary day in Chris's life - breakfast from Burger King, dinner from IHOP, feeding the family cats, a meeting with his counselor Rocky Shoemaker, coloring comic pages, and playing video games in between. He is, as usual, slacking off on the comics he has promised to produce.

At one point, BlueSpike tries to get Chris's mother Barbara online, and while Chris is away he goes into a gleeful fit about "waking the Snorlax." However, it turns out that Barbara is too tired (and overweight and immobile) to come up and talk.

Towards the end of the chat, Chris talks a bit about his employment prospects. His father, apparently, has informed him that his autism would make it hard to hold down a regular job. Chris claims that he plans to look for volunteer work instead, but he seems confused as to the basic definition of "volunteer" - he thinks he can do volunteer work and still get paid. When Julie points this out, he suddenly becomes afraid that Julie might leave him, and presses her on her plans to come visit him soon. She puts him off by promising more details in her upcoming letter, and the trolls mock Chris as he returns to work on his comics.

Transcript
Chris: How ya doing? Julie: Chris, you don't s-you don't seem too broken up about the fact that your aunt died. Chris: Yeah, like I said, I'm still recovering. I mean, I'm hurtin' inside. Julie: Yeah, all right. Chris: Yeah, so, uh, ya got, so, so ya got the answer to my question that I asked you? Julie: What question? Chris: In the message I sent ya earlier. Julie: Oh, that. Could you tell me it again? I forget. Chris: Oh. Yeah, I basically asked, uh, how you feel about a threesome. Julie: Oh, well, uh... Chris: After we’ve done, like our- Julie: Well that is something I want to talk about. Chris, you said you don’t want it with two men, 'cause it would be gay, but if I do it with two women, then it's the same thing with me. It's kinda hypocritical. Chris: Well, hmm, uh, let me put it—let me put it to you this way... Julie: [interrupts] What? I'm sorry but I'm really offended you would, uh, say that. I-I-I'm sorry but I'm somewhat offended. Chris: I'm so—I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I didn't mean to offend you. Julie: Uh—That-that is okay, but, but, but that is just kind of offending. I-I just thought I would let you know that it’s quite offending to me. Because you-you know how when I say— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [interrupting, indistinct] <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: ‘Cause, Chris- <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yes. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: -if you're willing to do that, then I would like a threesome with two men. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Ehh... You know what? Uh... That's fine, that's fine. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Really? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: ...Yeah. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: You know, after we do it a few times, uh... Yeah, you know, if you want, if you really want to do it with two guys, I’ll let’ch—I’ll—I’ll—I will respect you for that. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Thank you. I appreciate that. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Okay. That's cool. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: So is there anything else you want to talk about? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yes. Hmm... Yeah, like I—like I, yeah, I was sa—I was sad that Au—that my Aunt Corina died. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I thought you said she was dying. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [overlapping] Yeah. Yeah, still dying, yeah. I’m sorry, I’m—I’m, I go—I said the wrong word; that was my mistake. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: That's okay. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, but she i—she is dying. She, uh, she smoked. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, cancer? Chris? Chriiis? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Sorry about that. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: [interrupting, indistinct] <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I pressed a, pressed the button on my headset. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, can I ask you a quick question? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Sure. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Since you can use your computer now, uh, when are you going to upload the fighting video and, um, what else? The video of our date. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh, the video of our date. Yeah, there's a whole line [unintelligible] My voice didn't get recorded on that while your voice did. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Huh, that's weird. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, so I'm just gonna ha—so I’m—so I’m—I’m gonna… So soon enough I will figure out how I can add my voice to it and I will, uh, pretty much wing it in adding my voice around your voice. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. And what about the, uh, fighting video? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, I wi-I will do that soon. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. All right, and another thing— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [interrupting] Julie— <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: -that I'd like to tell you about—You should really, I'm serious- you should really, really, really, fix your biological clock. Please. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, well, I tell ya-I tell ya what, I fell asleep last night about 6:30 and I woke up this morning about 6. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: So I'll probably be falling asleep earlier tonight. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Because I really want you to be able to answer me as soon as you get there. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I understand... Uh, as soon as she—as soon as—as soon as I get there? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No, no, I mean, I-I want you to be answering as soon as I send a message. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Hmm, I'm try—I’m sorry; say that again? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I want you to be able to reply like, five minutes after I send a message. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh, I understand. It's just that, you know, I'm not on my PS3 or my PC all the time, and- <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: [interrupting] Neither am I. But I’m still able to make time. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: -go out. Yeah. Okay. That's cool; I understand. But yes, anyway, let me get back to what I was talking about. Yeah, uh, when I—yeah, my mom pi-I uh, talked, my mom picked me at the, uh, mall while I was out earlier today, and my father dropped me off there while I was at IHOP, so my father could get, like, a senior discount on the food there and then he could bring, uh, my sh-, bring me my sandwich home. Yeah, but anyway, the poi—anyway, the point is, my mom—when my mom got there, she picked me up. She-she broke the news to me there, and we—we basically cried on each other's shoulders. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Aww. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, I mean, when I hear bad news the first time, sometimes, I mean, like, you know, sometimes, the hearing hits me, but, you know, but then, like, eh, it takes like a few minutes for me, for it to, uh, get in there and hit me worse, y’know? So it took like—it took like a few minutes before I start crying and I did cry. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Aw, I'm sorry for your loss. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah. I appreciate that. So anyway, I think I was there for my mother to help comfort and, uh, she comforted me back. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Anyways, she's gonna le—gonna let me go to the funeral. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: My mom. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh! <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I mean, she wouldn't let me go with her this weekend to visit. [Chris gets phone call] Excuse me. [Hello!] I’m okay; how are you? <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: Oh, God! [laughing, even more high-pitched] Oh, my God! <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [still on the phone] Yeah. <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: [to Mumble, laughing, unintelligible sounds] Let me turn my headset off, but WHAT THE FUCK? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [on phone] All right, Mom— <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: Mom? [indistinct incredulous sounds] <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I'll come down soon and get my, uh, sandwich. <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: [stifling a laugh] <font color="#0033FF">Chris: All right, love you too. Bye-bye, Mommy. [to Julie] Yeah, just, that was my mom telling me to, uh, come down, to come downstairs to get the sandwich my dad brought home for me. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: What was that? I didn’t hear you. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: W-What was that? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I didn't hear you. Can you repeat that? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh, certainly. I said that my-that my mother would call me, tell me to go downstairs and, uh, get the sandwich my dad brought home for me from IHOP. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: [stifled chuckle] Oh, okay. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Excuse me. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: What was that? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Eh, just a small, just a small burp. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, all right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Hmm. Um, yeah, well, you know, thing... Oh, what wa—what was I talking about? Oh, yeah, my, uh, mom was to go visit Aunt Corina this weekend but she didn’t—she did not invite me along because somebody-she figured somebody had, because my, I needed to stay home, help, uh, you know, be there for my father in case something happens to him and I got, and I had to take care of the cats. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah. Hey, Chris? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Someday I actually want to talk to your mother. Do you think I could have her phone number? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Uh, uh, I, let's see. I believe you have my cell phone number. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: All right, look, all right, well, it's a confidential thing here, so, uh, uh, I'll give you the home phone number. My father will answer it... Uh, I'm afraid I haven't told him about you, yet— <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Aw. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: But you know I did tell my mom about it. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Huh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: So most likely he will answer it or possibly she will answer. But- <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Okay. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: -Y’know, just, uh, y’know… You could tell him that, uh, you just want to talk to "Barbara." That's her name, "Barbara." <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. So what's the number? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, I mean... All right, so it's area 434. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: So 434. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: 990. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: 990. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: 0198. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: 0... <font color="#0033FF">Chris: 198. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: 01...0198? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. 'Cause, just— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: That’s okay. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: -I want to talk to your mother. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I understand. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: ‘Cause I think I should get to know her better. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I hear you. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: What about your father? Does he have a phone? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, we—we—we’re all-we all live in the same house. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah, but just in case he's out. [Chris overlapping, indistinct] Because I want to be able to talk to your father about me. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Hmm. Well, like I said, he’ll pro—he’ll—he’ll be more likely pick up the, uh, home phone than my mother will. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yes, Chris but I'll feel better if I got his, like, cell phone in case it’s an emergency and you're not...able to pick up. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Um, hmm, wait. Uh, uh, wait. Could you repeat that? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. Like, if it's, an emergency and you're not there or something. Like if you're not able to pick up, I'd really feel it would be better if I had your father's number so I could be able contact anyone in your family. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, the phone number I just gave you is also my father's phone number. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Like, do you—is that his, like-that's his cell phone? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: No, that's the home phone. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No, I mean like... Does-he doesn’t have a cell phone? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: He does not have a cell phone. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. What about your mother? Is that... hers... or is that the home phone, too? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Uh, no. That’s the ho-I gave you the home phone number. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, all right. What about your mother; does she have a cell phone? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Uh... No, she does not have a cell phone. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, all right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, we're thinking about getting her one. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah. If so, I really need the number, just in case. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, I'd letcha talk to my mother and maybe, uh, she'll give it to you. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. Oh, can I talk to your mother right now? You think? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Uh, I don't know, I mean, I got you in my ear piece. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Do you think I can talk to your mother? ‘Cause that’d be great; I could get to know her really quickly. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, you could try calling the home phone now, and, uh, she could get ‘er. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: But I would feel better... I would feel better if I could just talk to her on the PSN, ‘cause I would like to see her. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Mm. All right, well, I don’t know if I could get her up here, but, uh, hang on. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: [laughs] <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I’ll see. Be right back. <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: Ohh… We just summoned the Snorlax! [giggling]

[long pause, Family Guy heard in the background]

<font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: Oh, my God, guys, we woke the Snorlax! Oh sh-! We woke the Snorlax! Help! It’s gonna sit on me! Help! You’re right. You’re right. Oh, God. [hyperventilating sounds] All right. Let’s do this. [claps hands] Come on! [another pause] I wish Chris would stop listening to Family Guy. Come on, Snorlax. Come on, Snorlax! [laughs, starts singing] Let’s go, Ghostbusters! Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go! Let’s go, Ghostbusters, let’s go... [dissolves in giggles] I’m waiting ‘til he gets here. You’ll see! [pause] I don’t think Barbara has g-is coming up the stairs. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Gonna wait ‘til my mom, gets, uh... She’s feeling exhausted. ‘Cause, like I told ya, she just got home from her trip to, uh, to Richmond, uh, you know. Meanwhile, she and Uncle Tom've been going down to see Aunt Corina in the hospital she’s been. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh... Okay. You think I could talk to her tomorrow? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, probably, if you call on the home phone. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No, I mean on the PSN. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, it depends on if I can get her up here at the time we have our chat on the w—on the PSN here. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah, ‘cause I’m not able to get a phone, remember? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Wha—Wait. [says something that is interrupted by BlueSpike] <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: That’s why I didn’t get—that’s—that-that’s why I didn’t get-that’s why I didn’t give you a phone number before, because I don’t have a phone. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Bu—I-It’s gonna have to be on the PSN. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, wait a minute. You don’t ha—you don’t have a phone. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No, I don’t. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Hm. So... If you wanted to call my home phone number, what would you be calling on? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I don’t know. A friend’s cell phone? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh. I see. All right. Well, next time, uh, we have a PSN chat, I will, uh, see if my mom will be able to come upstairs. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. Thank you. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: So, how was your day, then? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, it was good. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: That’s good. Anything of, uh, importance? Or anything exciting? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No, nothing. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Okay, still making you’re g-okay and all. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, but anyway, you know, I talked to [sounds like Rye] about, uh [???] work, and also, uh, my father gave talk to me about the occupation today, uh... Yeah, he revealed to me that, uh, because of my autism that if some—the, uh, workers are-would be afra—probably would likely be afraid to hire me. So it’s not like I’m not trying but I am trying. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Chris, didn’t you say a while ago that you weren’t autistic? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: No, I said I was high-functioning autistic. It’s-it’s [???] that, uh, [BlueSpike overlapping], that-that revealed that information to me that it was listed on Wikipedia that said that is not classified as a disability. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Yeah, so— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Or, like a—or like a handicap. Somethin’ like that. But—y-but y—but I am classif—but that is, I am classified as disabled under my Social Security. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: But I am looking for the volunteer work. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Chris, I don’t think you can get volunteer n-work that is—I think, uh, uh, it won’t. I don’t think it’s going to work anymore with you working at that pace. I-I-It’s-It’s not— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Julie— <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: -gonna work. It ju—it just won’t. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Julie, please. Please, Julie, I—I’m—I am gonna find volunteer work that pays. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I-I-I doubt it. I’m sorry, Chris; I love you, but I doubt it. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: [heavy sigh] Julie, you’re not breaking up with me now, are you? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: No. I am not. I am not breaking up with you. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: All right, just, like, you know, if you cou-I’d appreciate if you’d at least just give me the chance. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I-I, I’m giving you—I’m giving you a great chance. I-I-I am. And, uh, but Chris. The-the word "volunteer"... I-i-it wou-means you’re doing it without pay. Volunteer work that pays... That’s contradicting volunteer work. I’m not breaking up with you; I’m tr— <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, but— <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: —I’m trying—I’m trying to help you. I’m trying to help you and me. I’m trying to help our relationship... I’m trying to help our relationship soar, okay, Chris? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I-I appreciate your help. And I’m attempting your help. Oh, some AT failed B-b—uh, but trust me. It’ll work out in the end. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: [exasperated sigh] I doubt that, Chris. I’m not breaking up with you, but, I-I-I do have my doubts. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Mm. Your doubts are reasonable. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Thank you. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: And I—and I wi—and I—and I—and I am shooting for your, uh, for your ability to think and such. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Thank you. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Uh, but you still—you still—you still coming to, uh, vi—visit here, visit with me, right? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I discussed that in my letter. I discussed that in my letter. I, uh, I’d rather not talk about it, ‘cause, uh, I discussed it in my letter. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: That’s fine. I understand. I’ll wait for your letter. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Anyway, before, uh, before I go—before I got the news about my aunt, uh, my day’s been okay. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: That’s nice. What did you do? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Hm. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Did you go outside today? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah, I went out. I went to go meet with Rocky today. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, yeah, that. Anything else? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Well, let’s see... Because I woke up at 6:00, uh, I went to feed my cat, and then I, uh, then I did some, then I did some work on the, pl—on the pl—well, I played some—I played some Sonic for a little while, then I went out with my father to Burger King, went out to breakfast. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. Oh cool. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: And, uh, I came back home, and, I, uh, did some more colorful work. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh. Oh! Did you work on any comic pages today, ‘cause, ‘cause, you know... What’s today? Yeah, today’s Monday, remember? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yes, [unintelligible] <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: What you said? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah? <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: You would upload comics by the week’s end, and I believe this is the week’s end. Where are the comic pages? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh! Actually, I’ll, uh, I’ll, uh ge-I’ll get ‘em uploaded after we-after we finish up here. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, all right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: But I ha-the thing is, but they won’t be colored in. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Oh, all right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: But I’ll get ‘em uploaded and I... You’ll-and you’ll see at least the first three pages tonight. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: ‘Cause you could always color ‘em later, right? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right, tha-that’s nice. Sorry, I hiccuped. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Oh. I didn’t hear it. [laughs] <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Huh. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: I love you, Julie. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: I love you, too Chris. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: All right, I-I’ll go, I’ll go get ready to upload the comics. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: Can we talk after? <font color="#0033FF">Chris: ...Pages. Uh, yeah, sure, if you stay on your PSN account, and, uh, I’ll come back and open up a new chat window. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right, and just send me the invite. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: Yeah. Okay. I’ll talk to you later. <font color="#CC00FF">Julie: All right. <font color="#0033FF">Chris: All right. Bye-bye. <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: [coughs] Thank. Fucking. God! [unintelligible] [laughter] <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: [unintelligible] Buh-bye. So, yeah, I’m gonna, yeah. Don’t worry. [more laughter] <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: I think I’m actually—I’m making some kind of progress with Chris at least. <font color="#4DBD33">Clyde: No, you’re not. You’re [unintelligible, interrupted by more voices] <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: [unintelligible] [voices overlapping] Troll: Jesus Christ! <font color="#4DBD33">Clyde: Volunteer work! With pay! [silence] Troll: Whatever. Troll: Oh, good. Troll: Who cares? That wasn— <font color="#D44942">BlueSpike: Guys-

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