Jackie E-mails 28

This set of e-mails was exchanged between Chris and Jackie from 3 June to 16 June 2011. Chris shares more of his adventures as a tomgirl, including public harassment, online socialization, and body hair removal. He is already imagining himself as a lesbian, three years before he would publicly come out as one. He is far more engrossed in ideas about makeup and navel piercings than getting a job or his father's declining health. Chris continually reminds Jackie that he wants to meet her. Finally she relents and they begin to make plans to get together in Charlottesville for the Fourth of July.

June 3, 2011 10:35pm

Hey Chris!

Sorry I haven't written back sooner, hectic couple of days.

I really like the purse! You have such an eclectic design milieux, I love seeing the stuff that you make. Don't worry about being cautious with this picture - I understand you being a bit wary, what with my email account being hacked and whatnot in the past. I saved a copy of the picture so I could keep it but deleted the email right after. Your cool designs are safe with me. ;)

Anyway, thanks for your kind words regarding my mother's bad past. She has had a hard life, many trials and hardships have awaited her. She has a happy life now but it still pains her if these sore subjects are brought up so my family likes to just focus on the good times.

Thanks for asking about Blueberry! Would you believe it, he flew over to my friend's house when he left? Right through her window! My friend had a hell of a time getting Blueberry into a corner where she could capture him and keep him safe, but eventually she did and called me, and I was able to go retrieve him. (My friend lives right down the street but still, I think it's damn lucky he wound up there.) Anyway, he's safe and sound, and I'm glad to have him back.

So what else is going on with you? How are your parents? Are they still giving you any guff over your lifestyle? I feel like I'm aching to hear about what's been going on with you because I haven't been able to talk to you in a couple days.

Jackie@undefined

June 5, 2011 8:38pm

Hey Chris!

You're welcome about the purse! It's always nice to see you make use of your creative talents because you have such a deep well of ideas. And it's also practical to make sure that you don't let any of it become damaged or worn more than necessary. You should keep it up!

I have taken quite a look at the tomgirl forum. It looks really cool! It looks like you've found some pretty intelligent and friendly folks there to make friends with. But I notice, you only have about 7 posts, and you haven't been back there in a few days. Are you losing interest? I don't think you should, these are people who share a lot in common with you and you should try to participate more and become friends with them. Especially because it looks like they do regular meet-ups, so you can hang out with some new friends in real life. I found a thread about it here: http://tomboytomgirls.44.forumer.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=27&sid=94131f2d5ebcf6bee8c1caf474493af3 So you should try to get to know these people some more, I think you'll be glad you did.

Anyway, I look forward to seeing your cow drawings, please show me as soon as you feel comfortable. I'll talk to you more later!

Jackie@undefined

June 6, 2011 6:40pm

Oh. Well if you don't want to do anything with them why did you want me to take a look at the forum?

It looks legit to me but if you'd rather not make any friends, that's your choice. But Chris, you have to consider that I am not a tomgirl. I can be sympathetic and all, but I don't know what it's like to be a tomgirl, and I just can't give you all the support you need. But these people at this forum are just like you - they can offer the advice, emotional support, and strategies you need to make yourself the best tomgirl you can be. Don't be scared of what you can accomplish, Chris. I believe in you!

Jackie@undefined

June 8, 2011 4:15pm

What are you talking about? I am not a tomboy or a tomgirl. I know you wish I was and I wish I was too so that I could better empathize with you, but I don't have that feeling of gender confusion. That's just the way life works out sometimes - I'm a girl through and through. Being a girl is not the same thing as being a tomgirl any more than being a boy is the same as being a tomboy.

Well, I probably won't take a look at the forum again; it's your place of sanctuary and support, and I don't want to intrude on it. But definitely keep me up to date on any new friends you make there and activities you get into with them!

Jackie@undefined

June 8, 2011 11:19pm

Well, I think you're being a bit hasty. You say "possible" pretender, so you don't know that she is one. And these people have regular meetups, don't they? So they probably know each other. And being tomboys and tomgirls, I'm sure they've dealt with persecution the same as you have, so the people who run that forum are probably wise to it and know how to sniff it out. Go back and read that person's replies, see what she says. I bet they are all good people. Let me know, though.

Well anyway, if you're coming up short on ideas, you could tell me how the hunt for a new place to live is going. I'm feeling kind of tired right now too, so I'll write more later. Let me know how things on the forum go!!

Jackie@undefined

June 10, 2011 2:11am

Are you referring to the person named "William"? Not only are her posts still there, but she responded directly to your accusation. Where are you looking that you thought her posts were gone? It's clearly right here: http://tomboytomgirls.44.forumer.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=26&p=311

Well, I'm really tired, I had a long day at work. I'll write more later tomorrow.

Jackie@undefined

June 12, 2011 12:04pm

Hey Chris!

I'm sorry I didn't write today, I've had a suuuper stressful day and had no time. But I just wanted to write before I go to bed to say that your makeup and fashion idea is awesome!! I'll write more tomorrow with some cool and cute ideas. Thanks for the fun suggestion! :)

Jackie@undefined

June 15, 2011 5:48pm

Hey Chris!

I might be able to do 4th of July fireworks with you. Me and some friends are meeting somewhere but I don't know where yet; it'd be cool to introduce you to some of them! I'll let you know what the plan is as it develops.

Now, as for your hawai'i make-up ideas that we can talk about. Since you mention waxing, I think you should wax your eyebrows. And then draw them back in with eyebrow pencils! And as for make-up, some lip liner for your luscious lips. And some heavy eye shadow! Specifically, light purple would look really good on you. Then you can be my little Kaka Cholita! I can't wait to see the new you!!

Oh, I had some other questions I keep forgetting to ask you but now I remember so I'll ask. How is your being a tomgirl going to affect the future of the Sonichu series? Like, is Sonichu himself going to be a tomgirl, or will Chris-Chan Sonichu have a tomgirl form? You should make me a drawing of Chris-Chan Tomchu, Chris!

Jackie@undefined