Vivitheg's AIM chat

Vivitheg's AIM chat was held on one day in late 2008. Our fellow Vivian was fed up with Chris's bullshit and thought it was time to talk some damn sense into him, and after rummaging around the internet for a while, she finally found Chris's AOL account. She then proceeded to have a chat with Chris, trying to address his many personal and psychological issues, from the Megan Schroeder saga, to his Attraction Sign and his arrest by jerkops, to the first trollings from 2008.

Chris proved to be so stubborn, self-centered and unable to take responsibility for his actions, that any attempt to reason with him failed. Any time Vivian made him think about his actions, the answer she received from Chris was always one of his stock phrases. Never did she managed to get him to think about his actions, thus cementing the theory that Chris is egotistical and always thinks he's right. After 3 long, excruciating hours, during which Chris presumably slipped on cat dung and knocked the Internet gateway, Vivian declared defeat, and it was after this chat that she converted from being a white knight to a full-on troll.

Fortunately for her and the PVCC forums, the resulting chat log was of the first insights on Chris's mind, and the psychological information obtained from its analysis proved to be decisive for the coordinated trollings in 2009.

The following section has a series of highlights from the chat. The major ones are italicized.

Highlights of the chat

 * Line 25: Even though Megan made it more than clear there's nothing more going on between her and Chris, he's still waiting for her.
 * Line 35: He thinks all his documents posted on Encyclopedia Dramatica were twisted and mangled, when they're in fact present intact and raw.
 * Line 56: Even after being trolled, he still believed the girls were lining up at his feet over the phone and the Internet.
 * Line 127: Aside from total devotion to him, Chris doesn't have much of a clear idea of what he wants in a woman. His desires are mostly generic: "a nice, honest personality, ability to care about me genuinely, able to love me for me".
 * Lines 100, 134, 192, 236, 239, 269, 294, 395, 401, 436, 446, 592, 672: Chris seems to be incapable of introspecting and solving problems. Quite often, when asked to think about something personal for him or when asked to do something, he just BAWWWWWs and blurts out one of his stock phrases: "I feel stupid", "I am only Human, and a Virgin", "How am I supposed to know better [...] if I have not had EVEN MY FIRST DATE?", "but I AM STILL SOCIALLY SHY!", "with my friggin' autism mental block, it's easier said than done", "I lack self-confidence", "I'M JUST TOO DAMN SHY AND NOT SELF-FRIGGIN-CONFIDENT!", "I'm in pain, stress, heart-confused", "I am DUMB on the Relationship, Dating and all those subjects",
 * Line 161: Chris goes out to clean some cat feces at his kitchen, but he slipped and "made a mess".
 * Line 170: Chris admits he failed to achieve any kind of progress during his Love Quest ever since 2003.
 * Line 192: Chris still thinks he can't grasp the basics of dating without a first date, regardless of how much people in the world already know the basics while on their way to their first date.
 * Line 212: He still thinks Encyclopedia Dramatica has the fault for the drama between Chris, Megan, and the Rule 34 drawing.
 * Line 258: Every now and then, he blurts out some non-sequitur about his life or his sexual desires. Instead of controlling them, he justifies them by saying it's his half of the discussion, and he can say anything that pops up in his "Random Access Memory" (not the same as a computer RAM).
 * Line 309: Singles bars are strictly verboten for Chris, as he irrationally views these places as too dark and "smokey, drinkey"; basically, the whole purpose of a singles bar.
 * Line 317: He still hangs out at the library looking for girls. Only difference is, instead of doing it at PVCC, he does it at the University of Virginia...
 * Line 332: ... and he still thinks the library is a place where people go to hang out and find a Sweetheart...
 * Lines 352-367: ... probably because he thinks people who just happened to find their friends at the library and give each other a hug are people who just found their Sweetheart.
 * Line 402: He still thinks his "educational porn" is a good idea to learn about sex.
 * Line 403: He still thinks "Dating Education" should be a curricular subject on all schools...
 * Line 407: ... and he fervently defends this.
 * Line 411: He thinks reaching your third date with a girl automatically entitles you to the right of having sex with her.
 * Line 446: Chris is obviously unaware of the impression he's causing by calling himself an unconfident, high-functional autistic virgin.
 * Line 496: Chris sucks so much at talking to girls, he freezes up even when rehearsing at home with his Lego figures.
 * Lines 501-510: He thinks we care about his Electric-Hedgehogs Sonichu and Rosechu.
 * Line 536: He usually doesn't think Sonic the Hedgehog is a kiddie video game when it obviously is.
 * Line 545: And if he does thinks it's childish, he thinks drawing his electric-hedgehogs having sex automatically makes him very mature.
 * Line 556: He sees nothing wrong with doing it, to boot.
 * Line 572: Chris does not believe in maturity.
 * Line 603: He still insists on whitewashing his misbehavior at the mall and blaming Scotpalazzo and the Jerkops for it.
 * Line 620: After being banned by mall security, he was also partially banned from the mall: he can only go with his parents...
 * Lines 625-658: ... and yet, he still thinks his ban was unjustified and thinks being emotionally hurt gives him permission to loudly BAWWWWW in the middle of the mall.
 * Line 718: He thinks therapists are useless, that everything can be fixed "with a close gal-pal".
 * Line 731: He would rather eat a cube of shit than sell his stuff...
 * Line 759: ... excuses him claiming he needs no money because he can find counsel with his church...
 * Line 763: ... and thinks like a Scientologist who claims his church is better than any psychiatrist.
 * Lines 770-800: He can't have a view on Christianity other than a fundamentalist one, because he has a literal interpretation of what the Bible says.
 * Line 817: Lastly, religious tolerance is beyond Chris's understanding, as he can only believe that God and Jesus are true, instead of knowing and acknowledging the existence and beliefs of people professing other religions. Case in point: Vivitheg is Daoist, but the sole fact that she doesn't believe in GodJesus makes him uncomfortable.

The Chat
CWCSonichu: Hey, Vivian. How are you? CWCSonichu returned at 11:23:03 AM. VIVItheG: I want to make sure however, this is the actual Chris. CWCSonichu: I've been working on the deviantART page. VIVItheG: There have been so many fakes recently. VIVItheG: That I've tried to get into contact with VIVItheG: only to be trolled CWCSonichu: if you have a question to ask me that can confirm me to you; fire away. VIVItheG: well I don't know anything the real chris would know CWCSonichu: Also, I know that I did send you a few e-mails about the deviantART page, and asking you if I can add yours, as long as I quote you, from my ChrisChanSonichu@aol.com account. VIVItheG: oh okay VIVItheG: that works. CWCSonichu: good. CWCSonichu: did you read the e-mails? VIVItheG: yes CWCSonichu: good. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you believe panda is a troll now? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm on the CWCSonichu AIM only, to wait for Megan to reveal her real self to me. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: not yet. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what, real self? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: you see, an impostor likely has hacked into her old yahoo e-mail account, and has been sending me e-mails; I can tell in the messages of those e-mails that they were coming from the impostor. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I know that Megan may still have her AIM account name, so I'm waiting to talk to her through there, so I can update her on the recent events for real, if possible. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Chris...I...I don't know what to say <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it's alright. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Didn't megan make herself clear that she wanted to stop talking to you? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I'm only going by what those e-mails said <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but i have no idea what happened in real life <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so other things could have happened <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I've actually talked to her through the AIM a few weeks ago; it's all okay between her and me as just friends now. :-) <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: damn those bullies to twist things in the e-mails out of proportion. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Well, they weren't really twisted <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: They were just the raw e-mails posted <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Left to our interpretation <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they did no twisting, chris <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's not important to me right now. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: back to Panda; do you have any concrete evidence to prove her to be a troll? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: okay, then. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but i do have evidence that she is going to break up the relationship with you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: what is your source? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: http://pandahalo.deviantart.com/ <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: That is the revelations of last night <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: let me look. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: my response: Holy Crap. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: :-( <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I have no proof that she is a troll, I'll admit that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: But it seems too damn likely that girls are just lining up at your feet <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: could you elaborate further in that statement? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: How many girls have wanted to start a relationship with you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: let's say as of one month ago <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: In Person, NO WOMEN HAVE "Lined Up at my Feet". On the internet and in recent phone calls, I guess so. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: so, I can't fully agree with your statement. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: exactly chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no woman IN PERSON <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it's so easy to manipulate people over the internet <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: ... <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you can't start an honest relationship on the internet <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it's nearly impossible chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: there are so many trolls out there right now <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: damn it. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: this really grinds my gears. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what does <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: this whole thing right now. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: what I'm hearing from you, what I've just read on Panda's entry; it grinds my gears. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the truth is hard to face chris <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *sigh* <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: And so, the world continues to play the world's favorite game of "Kick the Autistic". I'm gonna need all the luck I can get. *Game Over* <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You have to realize something <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Sometimes we even forget you are autistic <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: It is your person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is turning people away from you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: not your autism <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: my person? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: look <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I read the things you said with kawaiikitsune <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: She was a geniunely nice person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: she wasn't trying to troll you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes she was. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: she was trying to help you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: no she wasn't <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what do you mean no she wasn't <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: explain that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a troll <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: oh okay <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: right <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: She was trying to help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the only reason she wanted to forge any relationship with you was to help you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Well, I feel stupid. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you can't just write that off as "i feel stupid" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you really have to look at what you said to her <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: well, I do right now feel stupid. stupid and blind of obvious things. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What do YOU think turned her away from you? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I want to know what YOU think <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: this is the only way I can help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: If I tell you what I think, that won't help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because we can have completely different answers <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: let me read the words. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: http://kawaiikitsune123.deviantart.com/ <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's what I'm looking at. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: alright. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: after reading the messages from me, I'm not sure what to think. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: or feel <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you sent them! you should know! <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I just don't know; those were much earlier messages, and I've been under a lot of stress, moments of happiness, and whatnot. the new bunches of informations pushed a lot of thoughts from then out of my head. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *sigh* <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You have to watch what you say <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I mean no guy talks like that to a woman <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Ever <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I mean, you shouldn't even be on the topic of physical contact <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What do you want in a woman? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Besides looks. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a nice, honest personality, ability to care about me genuinely, able to love me for me. I can't say other internal details off the top of my head. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: That's acceptable I guess <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I mean who wants a person that's not nice <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I mean those are fairly generic <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Everyone should look for someone who cares about them <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I mean that's given in a relationship <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I am only Human, and a Virgin; I'M GOING TO MAKE A LOT OF TRIALS AND ERRORS that may sound unsound. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: How many years has it been chris <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: since when? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Since you started your so called "love quest" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it shouldn't even be called a love quest <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: my Sweetheart Search started the Summer of 2003; after I turned 21 <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay about 5 years <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: How much progress do YOU think you've made and tell me why <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: greater than 5 years. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: let me think... <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it started with the realization of the infinitely-high boyfriend factor, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: then I thought of using signs for attraction, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: then trying to put the word as inexpensively as possible in newsletters, or whatever <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: , <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Met Megan, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Lost Megan, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Mary Lee Walsh and the Jerkops thwarted my Sweetheart Search numerous times, making it obvious that Virgina is for Virgins; NOT LOVERS, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Sonichu fanbase rose greatly; chatted with female fans, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: built up a bit of confidence between Blanca, Sarah J and Panda, with wandering, learning heart, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: CHAOS from the Trolls, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: desperate for True, Honest Relationship, <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: is that it? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that doesn't answer <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how much progress do YOU THINK YOU'VE MADE <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I WAS NOT FINISHED; I HAD TO CLEAN UP SOME CAT CRAP, AND SLIPPED AND MADE A MESS IN MY KITCHEN! <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: GOD! <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: alright sorry <font color="#BDBDBD">CWCSonichu signed off at 12:10:13 PM. CWCSonichu signed on at 12:13:33 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: continuing, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: felt somewhat desperate, and socially flushed, to have my first intercourse, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: LEARNED A LOT, <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I guess NO FREAKIN' PROGRESS! DAMN IT! <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: exactly chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no progress <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What do YOU think you've been doing wrong. <font color="#BDBDBD">cwcsonichu signed off at 12:17:18 PM. cwcsonichu signed on at 12:20:16 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: are you there? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what's happening? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: your internet unstable what? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: banged my head on the dresser; had my cable modem and wi-fi router on the top of it; toppled over, causing connection chaos. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: anyway <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *sigh* <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: last thing i said was <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: righto <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: did you get what I typed? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What do you think you're doing wrong <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes i did <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and i've heard it before <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so it's nothing really new <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: So I just want to know what you think you're doing wrong <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I don't know; I'M A VIRGIN! <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW BETTER, RELATIONSHIP-WISE? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: if I have not had EVEN MY FIRST DATE. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: A lot of people have first dates <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you think they know everything then? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: maybe not, but the majority of them had their First Dates in their EARLY TEENAGE YEARS. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *sigh* <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and still <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: some people don't <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: still in pain from cleaning up that crap. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so there are still people who are nervous about their first date <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and slipping on the floor, banging my head. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: sorry about that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is a lot of accidents in a short amount of time... <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's not your fault. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: anyway. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What do you think went wrong with Megan <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: call me possibly clumsy. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and I'll tell you what I think went wrong <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: In PROTEST against that ED page, right after I found it last November, I drew my FIRST Sexual Drawings, including that one between me and Megan; friggin' bastards twisted it to their evil, instead of leaving it alone for my PROTEST. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: she saw it, and that was that; "I need my space." <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I wish I had never found that friggin' page. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: IN the first place. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Chris, sadly that's not the answer i wanted to hear <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but first i'll address this <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You drew that picture <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: It was your fault <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Not ED. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You have to accept that. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I DID, LONG AGO. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I had to be a Protestor. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well you seem to imply you blame ED in that answer above <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: HAD TO <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: everytime <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you do something <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the page gets bigger <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you know why <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: they basically monitor EVERY MOVE I MAKE. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: on the internet <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so do you know what you must do <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: get more social, but I AM STILL SOCIALLY SHY! <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: get over it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: just get over it. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: with my friggin' autism mental block, it's easier said than done. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You are better off than most people with autism <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You're very lucky <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I know people with autism, they can hardly talk. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: you don't think I already knew that? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Think about what they go through <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I've seen Rain Man <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: exactly. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: So get over it. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: about megan <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the response I wanted to hear <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: was that she explicitly said <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that she wanted to JUST BE FRIENDS <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and that should have been the end of it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: once a woman tells a man no, they have to respect that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if the man keeps pressing on, then the woman will be irritated and then probably lose that friendship <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have my dreams that God gave to me, and I have to see my Crystal Weston Chandler be Born. But I need my Sweetheart first. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what does that have to do <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: with anything i just said <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I DON'T KNOW; it's my half of the discussion; I can say anything that randomly pops up in my Random Access Memory. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it's too random in my opinion. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: can you stop from doing that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well you acknowledge that it is <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so maybe you can stop yourself <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I lack self-confidence. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what does that have to do with stopping yourself from saying something you already know is "too random" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and then this doesn't even have to do with megan <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and the fact that she just wanted to be friends <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: god we are off on so many subjects now i can hardly keep track <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Forget about Megan. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: That is some good advice i hope YOU will take <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I can hardly keep track myself. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to forget about megan. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I meant for you to stop talking about her. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I want you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to acknowledge <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that all you will be with her <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: is just friends <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You need to find another person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Go out into the world <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and look <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have acknowledged that a long time ago. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Good. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: That is good. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have been looking <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: where <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I"M JUST TOO DAMN SHY AND NOT SELF_FRIGGIN"_CONFIDENT <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: BE MORE CONFIDENT <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: IN Charlottesville. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well where exactly <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what places <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's easier said than done; i've said that before. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: single's bar <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: UVA <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: NO <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: ! <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why not there <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that seems <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: like a very good place <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in my opinion to start looking <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you know <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: smokey, drunk; turn-offs!! <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: too dark too. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: go during the day. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: there are bound to be other people like you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: who are looking <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you can't just write off a place <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because it "stereotypically" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: has those kinds of people <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I GO TO THE UVA"S ALDERMANLIBRARY: VERY POPULATED OFTEN <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you don't know that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what's uva <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: University Of Virginia. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm just saying <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: typically <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: at a university <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that age range <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: 18-23 ish <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm guessing <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: maybe too young? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: RIGHT IN MY ALLEY. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: NO <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm looking for 18-26 <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and how do you look for women...in a library <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: there is a lounge. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: in the library <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and a coffee shop <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: you tell me <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: at my college <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in the library <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it is a very popular place. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: people like to study <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's what I do <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i don't go to a library <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: thinking about getting a boyfriend <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a lot of people go to the library looking for their sweetheart. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it's just a matter of being there at the right time. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and not being fucking autistic and shy! <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm sorry. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm on edge right now. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why are you apologizing? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm trying to think of someway to explain this to you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how many people have you seen <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: well, I just cursed for one thing, in a loud way. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a lot. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: "hook up" in the library <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: on a completely stranger basis <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a lot <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a lot <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they haven't had previous classes together before <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how many is a lot <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: How many haver YOU SEEN <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: in the years I've witnessed there, over 100 times <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and you can confirm <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that those were all on complete basis <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: of them not knowing each other previously <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have a headache <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and then the relationship works out <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: for them <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: brb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I don't believe that at all, I can't believe that. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: This is a library on a university <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it's not a place for people to just hook up <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i don't understand why you would go there <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you must feel out of place? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: don't you? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: why can't you just say "okay" after I type in brb, so I can get an asprin, take a deep breath or something, which is the acronym for "be right back"? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *sigh* <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *belch* <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *from stress* <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: *and pain* <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because you will be back <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and you will read those <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is why <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well i dont' know what you were gonna do okay <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I was inklingly being sarcastic. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that was terrible. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I feel terrible; phyically and mentally. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: maybe i'm doing this wrong <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why do you feel terrible <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm in pain, stress, heart-confused; how can I be more clear than that? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: plus my headache. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i think you are putting too much attachment <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: to what? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to relationships <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that definitely won't work out <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: well, like I said, I don't know better, I am DUMB on the Relationship, Dating and all those subjects, except for the amount of educational porn I have watched, then I feel smarter about how I'd like my first time to go. But I desperately need a Dating Education Class, and High Schools don't even think of that in addition to their Sexual Education. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: dating education class <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: does not exist <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: IT SHOULD. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because it is different for every person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you can't tailor it to a general group <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it's individual experiences <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Sex Ed is good for date 3 or beyond, but what is it that has to be done before then? <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's why Dating Education IS REQUIRED DESPERIATELY. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: ... <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: first off <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: date 3 does not mean sex <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: also <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in a relationship <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: sex should be one of the last things <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: first <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you got to know each other <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how are you lives going to be with each other <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I already knew that. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you don't seem to know that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it's not like in 2 dates <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you will know everything about that person <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: you are not telepathic <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: let's have sex. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i know i'm not <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm just basing it off things you say <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's all i've got to work with <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: shit my quotes. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: ...yes. what you say <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: reflects who you are <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: well, I am a DUMB Frustrated Virgin, and I've never had a First Date, I'm 26, I lack self-confidence, the Boyfriend-Factor is infinitely-high, I fear rejection, I'm STRAIGHT, I'm High-Functionally Autistic; I should know A LOT BETTER, BUT I DON'T KNOW A THING on the Emotional Basics that is REQUIRED BEFOREHAND! <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: don't call yourself dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if you can't even believe in yourself <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: then why bother with life <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: secondly <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: don't call yourself a virgin <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: people don't need to know that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: On the subjects, I don't know better, so I am DUMB ON THOSE SUBJECTS. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well don't say that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: god <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what will people think <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if you call yourself dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: think about it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what will they think about you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that you are dumb <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm not telepathic myself. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and not worth their time <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if I said I was dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what would you think <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that i was dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: exactly come on <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: my head is blank. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: right now. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: so I can't come up with a sound answer. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I am an idiot. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: no, you're not. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay i'll do this a different way <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: I like ponies. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: What does that say about me. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's fine, so do I. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay uhm <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: This isn't going to work <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if we have prior knowledge of each other <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Whatever you say to a person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that you've just met <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is what they're going to think <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they have no prior knowledge of anything else <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: mostly, I do not claim to know what other people are going to think about me and what I say, so I just let them be. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if you talk to them <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and introduce yourself <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: with stuff <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's what they're going to think <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so calling yourself dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: is not going to help <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: everybody knows that. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I know that. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: then WHY do YOU call yourself dumb <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if you already know that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: because my mind is blank, and I feel dumb right now. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: if you were introducing yourself to a girl right now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what would you say <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: first time <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they know nothing about you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: just first time <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'd probably freeze up, because that often happens to me, even in rehearsals at home, between my LEGO figurine and a woman LEGO figurine; I'd constantly freeze up. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Okay <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: pretend you wouldn't freeze up <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what would you say <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: "Hello" <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: then my mind would freeze up. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: "so what are you doing here" <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: where's here? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: pretend it's the library okay <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: ida know..."hanging around" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: "what do you do?" <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: "I draw comics" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: "interesting, what are they about" <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: "stories of my electric-hedgehogs, Sonichu and Rosechu; some stories about me." <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i can already tell <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that this is going nowhere <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you know anna right <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and that blog <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i don't remember the details <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but you talked to her about your sonichu and whatnot <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I Personally Know Anna McLerran <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes i know <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to be perfectly honest <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to a woman <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: looking for a man <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to be with for the rest of her life <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: someone who draws comics about childish things <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you see where i'm coming from <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: no, I don't <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: When a woman looks for maturity <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in a man <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: let's put it that way <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: maturity <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: ok <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: comics about electric hedgehogs whatever <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: based off children's video games <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you may not think they are for children <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but for a majority of the people in this world <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they are <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: they're not just for children. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I disagree. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You may disagree <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but for a majority of the people <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: who live <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in the united states <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: they are seen as children's video games <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and it's okay if you still play them <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but to draw comics involving made up electric hedgehog pokemon <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: what if I said that I draw sex pictures? would that make a difference? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: are you being...sarcastic <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: no, I'm being serious. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Think about it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: for a second <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: instead of cartoons, I draw sex pictures; would that make a difference of opinion? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: It would be disturbing <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: obviously. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: If you know that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why would you say that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: to the naked, unopen mind. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: exactly <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so why would you even bring up the point in the first place <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: to make a point; you say maturity; honest intercourse is mature. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is not mature <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well okay <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but it's now being taken in a completely different way <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: now it's disturbing <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: which is equally as bad <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: as being immature <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i have to go give my sister a ride, i'll be back in 15 minutes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i want you to think about what you've just said <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and tell me why you said those things <font color="#BDBDBD">cwcsonichu signed off at 1:16:40 PM. cwcsonichu signed on at 1:16:43 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: okay, what would you recommend that I say that would make me sound "mature"? Maturity is a joke; NOBODY REALLY GROWS UP. <font color="#BDBDBD">cwcsonichu signed off at 1:18:14 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: are you thinking? <font color="#BDBDBD">cwcsonichu signed on at 1:18:56 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: please respond <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: hello? <font color="#BDBDBD">cwcsonichu signed off at 1:23:28 PM. cwcsonichu signed on at 1:26:09 PM. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: Hey, Vivian. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'll stay here for a while longer. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: alright <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: oh, good, you're back. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yeah i said i had to drop my sister off somewhere <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: oh, okay. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: did you think about what I said last. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: let's put it this way <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what do you look for in a woman <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: would you want her to like childish things <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that's an optional feature. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay i got it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why would a 26 year old who doesn't attend that university be in a library <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: but in a nutshell, I'm looking for an 18-26-year old, Boyfriend-free, caring, smoke-free, non-alcholic white woman to make into a sweetheart from the ground-up <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it seems out of place <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: for most women <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i would say <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a lot I guess. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so why would you be in a library <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: tell me why <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I would be at Fashion Square instead, but the Manajerk, Scottpalazzo, there basically permanently banned me from there. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and Wal-Mart and Target were no-good. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well i'm not talking about those places <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well actually wait <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why were you banned <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what did you do <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's probably a better question <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and UVA's Alderman Library is a lot better than a singles bar. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how do you konw <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: know <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: they just didn't like me hanging around there; they're all a bunch of jerks. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: basic instinct. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: so, I wasn't spending money there; what should they care? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you're withholding information <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you must have done something <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to draw attention to yourself <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: specifically, I was NOT TOTALLY BANNED, but I can only be there with one of my parents. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: the situation with Hanna. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: as read in the comic; it was the anguished cry. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: so I was litteraly loud; big whoop; those jerks still hated my guts. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: well, that does draw attention <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: like a lot of men in this state. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and distract people who are trying to concetrate <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: on their job/buying stuff <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you don't do that kind of thing in public <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: which is why you got kicked out <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: YOU may think it was just a loud cry <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: well, it was called for; my heart was toyed with. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but OTHERS may think it was a distraction <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what would OTHER PEOPLE around the area think <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: probably that somebody got Seriously Hurt, which was WHAT DID HAPPEN. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: maybe seriously hurt physically <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I was the victim. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: the physicallity; my heart. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is not physically <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: losing an arm is physically <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: getting an emotional stab to the heart is physical. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to others <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: it just looks like someone yelling nooo <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: for no apparent reason <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: it was still called for. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no it wasn't <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: but forget about that. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you have to realize <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that your behavior <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: is not suitable for the public <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you have to change yourself <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: that was years ago that happened. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: still <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you don't seem to recognize why that was wrong <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: for you, maybe it was right, but you have to consider the other people <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I DID RECOGNIZE. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: they just didn't like me hanging around there; they're all a bunch of jerks. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You seem to blame them <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: not yourself <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: the other people didn't have their heart played with terribly. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i mean you weren't suspicious at all? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: people just don't go up to another preson and say I need a boyfriend <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's not how it works <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: REWIND; I, myself, NEED a Girlfriend. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: But you didn't think twice <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: about someone coming up to you out of the blue <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I was desperate then. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: as well. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and I still didn't know better. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I am a mess. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a mess of issues. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you need to see a professional <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i can't help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i've realized that now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you need to seek professional help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: ask your parents <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm sure they will help you with that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have seen a psyciatrist; no help. and my parents are old; still no help. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i mean they can most likely help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: find a professional <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i mean <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a professional what? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: therapist <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: someone <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: who helps people deal with their problems <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: therapist = Psyciatrist. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay sure <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: just look for one <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you have a new set of problems <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: maybe looking for one now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: will be the best choice <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because i honestly can't help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i've tried for 3 hours now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and it's like fighting a wall <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i can't beat the wall no matter how hard i try <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: eventually, you make a dent. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but with the help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: of someone else <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: look for a therapist, psyciatrist <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: whatever <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: just do it <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: trust me <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you may not think they help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but at least you tried looking for help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: finding a girlfriend is the least of your problems <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you have more issues to deal with <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes I did. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: before you can even begin to i don't know <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: just <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: a job maybe <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: school maybe <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: something <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: a therapist costs money; what I really need is a close gal-pal. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you seem to have plenty of money <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the government gives you mony <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: ey <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: money <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i can type i swear <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you seem to have plenty <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: use it for something more than just whatever you normally spend it on <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I am not Mr. Joe Millionaire. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: get some help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but you seem to have a lot of shit in your room <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: sell some of that <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have bills. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I'm not sellin' <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what is more important <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: those things <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: or mental help <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I don't want to. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: You have to let go chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: those things shouldn't mean such <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: a attachment <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: material goods <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: is not something that brings happiness <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i know this <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: you don't think I didn't know that either. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: then why won't you sell them <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I just don't want to. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and I don't need to. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that's not a good reason <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you apparently <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: don't have money <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so get some <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: get some help <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I don't need money to get help. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: what kind of help are you thinking of <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: and I don't need a professional. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Yes you do <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: Yes you do chris <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I have the people of my church. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you already got kicked out of one church <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i mean <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how are they going to help <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: my CURRENT church can help me a LOT better than any "professional" <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and how have they helped <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so far <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: because God and Jesus supports them as well. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and how will god and jesus help you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: they guide a lot of people. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: chris <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you think god is helping you right now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: sending all these trolls after you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: sending all these failed relatioinships after you <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: in a way, yes. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: ...really. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: he is helping me. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: have you read the bible? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: he seems to just be making your life worse. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: no. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: go read it, or join a church. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: why <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: so you can learn for yourself. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: the lessons behind God's will. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: do you think god will help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: eventually <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: yes <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: how do you think so <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: In what way <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I just do. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay then <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: come back to me in 3 years <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and tell me that alright. <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: why 3 years? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: because that is how long <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i believe you will realize <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that god is not going to help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: in that amount of time <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: you will be much worse off than you are now <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: that is what i believe <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: what are you, an athiest? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: daoist <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: what is that? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: my sect <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: okay. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: believes in principles <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I see. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: of detachment from material goods <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the way of being able to live life through non-action <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: which means that you should not do anything rash <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: unless you wish your life to be a living hell <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I see. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: the believe in that you should be an active person <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I am <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and help others <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I do <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and what is your problem with atheiests <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I don't know, but I do know that they are not believers of God and Jesus. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: so what? <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: let them respect whatever they choose to believe in <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: there are so many religions in this world <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: okay but let's not talk about that <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i'm here to try to help you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: and i want you <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: to seek some professional help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: god appears in abstract ways <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: but i want you to seek some concrete help <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: from another person <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: please <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: i beg of you man <font color="#0033FF">CWCSonichu: I will consider it. <font color="#0B3B0B">VIVItheG: please don't just consider it, please do it.