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PsychoNerd054: /* I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane */

2025-05-27T22:09:59Z

I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane

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	I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.		I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.

	I know he's an [[Chris and race\|absolute]] [[Homos\|bi]][[Hermaphrodite\|go]][[~~Aspergers~~\|ted]] [[Slow-in-the-minds\|idiot]]. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.		I know he's an [[Chris and race\|absolute]] [[Homos\|bi]][[Hermaphrodite\|go]][[Asperger syndrome\|ted]] [[Slow-in-the-minds\|idiot]]. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.

	Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.		Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.
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	The people I truly let know are people who also have some sort of fleeting feeling for Chris himself, but prefer to keep it behind closed doors for the most part. They tease me about it like any other crush, but I feel comfortable knowing that it is simply between them and I.		The people I truly let know are people who also have some sort of fleeting feeling for Chris himself, but prefer to keep it behind closed doors for the most part. They tease me about it like any other crush, but I feel comfortable knowing that it is simply between them and I.

	I fear being too much of an open book. I know the whole "you're valid, like who you like" type thing people love to preach online, but that won't get you anywhere if the person you like is a mentally challenged spoiled stuck-up lazy manbaby who feeds into his [[Ego\|delusions of grandeur]] and [[Self-inflicted taint wound\|slices his genitals open to "free a vagina,"]] and "[[Dimensional Merge\|merges with the cartoon OCs]]."		I fear being too much of an [[Honest Content\|open book]]. I know the whole "you're valid, like who you like" type thing people love to preach online, but that won't get you anywhere if the person you like is a [[Autism\|mentally challenged]] spoiled stuck-up [[Chris and work\|lazy]] manbaby who feeds into his [[Ego\|delusions of grandeur]] and [[Self-inflicted taint wound\|slices his genitals open to "free a vagina,"]] and "[[Dimensional Merge\|merges with the cartoon OCs]]."

	If too many people know that I am the girl who is into Chris-Chan in that way, they'll see me as akin to him; for the crazy obsessive freak that I am.		If too many people know that I am the girl who is into Chris-Chan in that way, they'll see me as akin to him; for the crazy obsessive freak that I am.

PsychoNerd054: /* I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane */

2025-05-27T22:07:22Z

I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane

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	I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.		I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.

	I know he's an ~~absolute~~ [[Chris and race\|bi]][[~~Homos~~\|go]][[Aspergers\|ted]] [[Slow-in-the-minds\|idiot]]. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.		I know he's an [[Chris and race\|absolute]] [[Homos\|bi]][[Hermaphrodite\|go]][[Aspergers\|ted]] [[Slow-in-the-minds\|idiot]]. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.

	Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.		Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.

PsychoNerd054: /* I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane */

2025-05-27T22:06:28Z

I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane

PsychoNerd054: Snoo was actually who I based the "Anti-Devotee" A-log type off of. I'll give my opinions on her doing this later (possibly in my essay).

2025-05-27T21:09:03Z

Snoo was actually who I based the "Anti-Devotee" A-log type off of. I'll give my opinions on her doing this later (possibly in my essay).

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	My first lolcow was [https://encyclopediadramatica.online/Pamperchu Pamperchu], a guy who microwaved his used diapers. My morbid curiousity led me to seek information on more lolcows, as well as to help me understand my own strange psychology.		My first lolcow was [https://encyclopediadramatica.online/Pamperchu Pamperchu], a guy who microwaved his used diapers. My morbid curiousity led me to seek information on more lolcows, as well as to help me understand my own strange psychology.

	I am officially diagnosed with [[high-functioning autism]], and have sought comfort in knowing that despite my differences, I am still better off in society than these people because they teach me how not to act online.		I am officially diagnosed with [[high-functioning autism]], and have sought comfort in knowing that despite my differences, [[A-logs#Anti-Devotees\|I am still better off in society than these people because they teach me how not to act online]].

	As a fan of the YouTuber [https://www.youtube.com/@DeadwingDork/featured Deadwing Dork], I heard Chris-Chan's name appear through various streams of his. Like with anyone else who has heard of Chris Weston Chandler, curiousity led me to a point of no return.		As a fan of the YouTuber [https://www.youtube.com/@DeadwingDork/featured Deadwing Dork], I heard Chris-Chan's name appear through various streams of his. Like with anyone else who has heard of Chris Weston Chandler, curiousity led me to a point of no return.

PsychoNerd054 at 02:53, 20 May 2025

2025-05-20T02:53:56Z

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	I honestly don't know what the fuck would've happened with me this school year had Chris Chan not been in my life.		I honestly don't know what the fuck would've happened with me this school year had Chris Chan not been in my life.

	He gave me solace through laughter, introspection on my own psychology, and motivation to live through life knowing that no matter how disorganized my current life is, I am still better at managing it than Chris Chan will ever be.		He gave me solace through [[Laughs Under Lucricities\|laughter]], [[introspection]] on my own psychology, and motivation to live through life knowing that no matter how disorganized my current life is, I am still better at managing it than Chris Chan will ever be.

	Seriously, thank you, Chris. You made me zap to the extreme.}}		Seriously, thank you, Chris. You made me zap to the extreme.}}

PsychoNerd054: /* Thank you, Chris */

2025-05-04T02:44:48Z

Thank you, Chris

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	I couldn't completely grasp subjects through online learning, so my grades are currently still a C- at best. Work kept piling and piling up over the computer, and with sports on top of that, it was too much to handle for me.		I couldn't completely grasp subjects through online learning, so my grades are currently still a C- at best. Work kept piling and piling up over the computer, and with sports on top of that, it was too much to handle for me.

	I had to half-ass assignments to push them through the due date and I crashed into slumber more than I'd ever want to admit, missing weeks of sports practices, damaging my how I felt about my body image.		I had to half-ass assignments to push them through the due date and I [[Chris and stress\|crashed into slumber]] more than I'd ever want to admit, missing weeks of sports practices, damaging my how I felt about my body image.

	I was dysfunctional, but I had the solace of knowing;		I was dysfunctional, but I had the solace of knowing;

PsychoNerd054: This works better as a note

2025-05-03T19:21:00Z

This works better as a note

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	School was my entire livelihood. I craved that structure, and the affirmations that I was bettering myself, physically and mentally, by just following orders from the coaches and teachers.		School was my entire livelihood. I craved that structure, and the affirmations that I was bettering myself, physically and mentally, by just following orders from the coaches and teachers.

	Then [[COVID-19]] hit, and I lost my streak. No more straight A's u/IanBwandonAndOwOson<ref>Fiona's Reddit Account at the time</ref> for the rest of junior year.		Then [[COVID-19]] hit, and I lost my streak. No more straight A's u/IanBwandonAndOwOson<ref group = note>Fiona's Reddit Account at the time</ref> for the rest of junior year.

	DISCOVERY:		DISCOVERY:
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	He looked alot like a few of my exes, which probably could've been part of the appeal.}}		He looked alot like a few of my exes, which probably could've been part of the appeal.}}

			{{Notes}}
	{{References}}		{{References}}
	{{EverfreeSaga}}		{{EverfreeSaga}}

PsychoNerd054 at 01:43, 21 March 2025

2025-03-21T01:43:55Z

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	{{References}}		{{References}}
	{{~~IncestSaga~~}}		{{EverfreeSaga}}

Hurtful Truth Level at 20:31, 9 March 2024

2024-03-09T20:31:20Z

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	This page documents notable posts made by ~~the~~ [[~~The Suitress~~]] across various platforms, mostly [[Reddit]].		This page documents notable posts made by [[Fiona]] across various platforms, mostly [[Reddit]].

	==Thank you, Chris==		==Thank you, Chris==
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	School was my entire livelihood. I craved that structure, and the affirmations that I was bettering myself, physically and mentally, by just following orders from the coaches and teachers.		School was my entire livelihood. I craved that structure, and the affirmations that I was bettering myself, physically and mentally, by just following orders from the coaches and teachers.

	Then [[COVID-19]] hit, and I lost my streak. No more straight A's u/IanBwandonAndOwOson<ref>~~The Suitress~~'s Reddit Account at the time</ref> for the rest of junior year.		Then [[COVID-19]] hit, and I lost my streak. No more straight A's u/IanBwandonAndOwOson<ref>Fiona's Reddit Account at the time</ref> for the rest of junior year.

	DISCOVERY:		DISCOVERY:
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	===Comments===		===Comments===

	{{quoteboxred\|So you're ~~[The Suitress]~~? Or am I getting that wrong?}}		{{quoteboxred\|So you're fiona? Or am I getting that wrong?}}

	{{quoteboxmagenta\|Yes I am.}}		{{quoteboxmagenta\|Yes I am.}}
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	{{quoteboxred\|Wait so, you legit had a crush on him or were you just trolling?}}		{{quoteboxred\|Wait so, you legit had a crush on him or were you just trolling?}}

	{{quoteboxmagenta\|My [[~~Suitress~~ Posts#I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane\|vigyaa.io]] is still up, right?		{{quoteboxmagenta\|My [[Fiona Posts#I have a full-blown crush on CWC and I feel absolutely insane\|vigyaa.io]] is still up, right?

	Yeah it was a legit crush. An unorthodox one, I know, but it was legit.}}		Yeah it was a legit crush. An unorthodox one, I know, but it was legit.}}

Cereally: /* Follow-up posts */

2023-10-07T05:41:26Z

Follow-up posts

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	Love how aloof he looks there. And the camera seems interested in his crotch for some reason...}}		Love how aloof he looks there. And the camera seems interested in his crotch for some reason...}}

	~~'''~~After the [[Incest Call\|incest leaks]]:~~'''~~		After the [[Incest Call\|incest leaks]]:

	{{quoteboxmagenta\|This legit sucks now. I regret everything about ever writing this. I never knew Chris was going to turn out this way back then.		{{quoteboxmagenta\|This legit sucks now. I regret everything about ever writing this. I never knew Chris was going to turn out this way back then.

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	{{quoteboxmagenta\|Oh boy...this will be a long one.		{{quoteboxmagenta\|Oh boy...this will be a long one.

	I feel absolutely no shame or guilt writing this right now, since I have had these feelings for a year now. Yes. A fucking year.		I feel absolutely no [[Chris and remorse\|shame or guilt]] writing this right now, since I have had these feelings for a year now. Yes. A fucking year.

	I do feel like a crazy girl though, for having these feelings, so here goes nothing, I'm spilling the beans:		I do feel like a crazy girl though, for having these feelings, so here goes nothing, I'm spilling the beans:

	I have a crush on Chris-Chan. Yes, THAT Chris-Chan. The meme, the manchild, the fat fuck that created a webcomic with kindergarten-level illustrations about a hedgehog OC.		I have a crush on Chris-Chan. Yes, THAT Chris-Chan. The meme, the manchild, the fat fuck that created a [[Sonichu (comic)\|webcomic]] with [[Chris and art\|kindergarten-level illustrations]] about a [[Sonichu (character)\|hedgehog OC]].

	I'm using he/him pronouns for our hero here, if anyone cares, for consistency and personal preference. If you think otherwise, I respect that, too.		I'm using [[Transgender\|he/him pronouns]] for our hero here, if anyone cares, for consistency and personal preference. If you think otherwise, I respect that, too.

	So anyway, this is how it began:		So anyway, this is how it began:
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	I am officially diagnosed with [[high-functioning autism]], and have sought comfort in knowing that despite my differences, [[A-logs#Anti-Devotees\|I am still better off in society than these people because they teach me how not to act online]].		I am officially diagnosed with [[high-functioning autism]], and have sought comfort in knowing that despite my differences, [[A-logs#Anti-Devotees\|I am still better off in society than these people because they teach me how not to act online]].

	As a fan of the YouTuber [https://www.youtube.com/@DeadwingDork/featured Deadwing Dork], I heard Chris-Chan's name appear through various streams of his. Like with anyone else who has heard of Chris Weston Chandler, curiousity led me to a point of no return.		As a fan of the YouTuber [https://www.youtube.com/@DeadwingDork/featured Deadwing Dork], I heard Chris-Chan's name appear through various streams of his. Like with anyone else who has heard of Chris Weston Chandler, curiousity [sic] led me to a point of no return.

	I became a serious Christorian back in [[July 2020\|July of 2020]], when I took interest in watching [[Chris Chan: A Comprehensive History\|Geno's docuseries]] with my good friend and browsing the [[CWCki]]. Like Chris, I am also autistic, so I grew fascinated in how someone can use their autism as an excuse and fuck up so badly in life. A month later, I'd keep clicking video after video, article after article on this unique specimen. I got butterflies in my stomach doing so.		I became a serious Christorian back in [[July 2020\|July of 2020]], when I took interest in watching [[Chris Chan: A Comprehensive History\|Geno's docuseries]] with my good friend and browsing the [[CWCki]]. Like Chris, I am also autistic, so I grew fascinated in how someone can use their autism as an excuse and fuck up so badly in life. A month later, I'd keep clicking video after video, article after article on this unique specimen. I got butterflies in my stomach doing so.
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	First of all, I like [[Obesity\|fat guys]]. That's a given. I've ALWAYS had a thing for that, and it makes a good contrast for a petite woman like me.		First of all, I like [[Obesity\|fat guys]]. That's a given. I've ALWAYS had a thing for that, and it makes a good contrast for a petite woman like me.

	Secondly, I always loved his dopey little face. (I'm incredibly embarrassed writing this, but I told myself no regrets.) He's got those (ever so slightly) [[Heterochromia\|blue-green puppy eyes]] that give that blank boyish stare. I like that "creepy stare." It still shocks me when he widens his eyes, and that factor might be why I'm so obsessed with them.		Secondly, I always loved his dopey little face. (I'm incredibly embarrassed writing this, but I told myself no regrets.) He's got those (ever so slightly) [[Heterochromia\|blue-green puppy eyes]] that give that blank boyish stare. I like that "[[creepy stare]]." It still shocks me when he widens his eyes, and that factor might be why I'm so obsessed with them.

	He's got that bulbous chin that I've always found to be a defining feature of his face. And his big "old man" ears, too. God I hate myself for writing this.		He's got that bulbous chin that I've always found to be a defining feature of his face. And his big "old man" ears, too. God I hate myself for writing this.
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	Maybe it is partly because of my experiences with other guys on the spectrum that I feel this way.		Maybe it is partly because of my experiences with other guys on the spectrum that I feel this way.

	It's mainly Classic Chris that I am attracted to, but sometimes [[tomgirl]] Chris has that spark, too. Just slightly harder to find with how poorly he's aged.		It's mainly [[Christian Weston Chandler#Classic Era\|Classic Chris]] that I am attracted to, but sometimes [[tomgirl]] Chris has that spark, too. Just slightly harder to find with how poorly he's aged.

	He's this weird amalgamation of an overgrown man and a little boy that I just want to take care of in some strange way.		He's this weird amalgamation of an overgrown man and a little boy that I just want to take care of in some strange way.
	I kinda want to be his "mommy."		I kinda want to be his "[[Barbara Chandler\|mommy]]."

	I keep "favorite" images of Chris that I can't help but look at over and over again with fangirlish yearning and desperation.		I keep "favorite" images of Chris that I can't help but look at over and over again with fangirlish yearning and desperation.
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	I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.		I know that my attraction is abnormal. I also know that it is harmless, since we are both adults and that I don't think about harming him in any way. It's a benign weird I feel conflicted on, but don't entirely wish to change. Other than my weird attractions, I'm a normal, successful human being in public.

	I know he's an absolute [[Chris and race\|bi]][[Homos\|go]][[Aspergers\|ted]] idiot. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.		I know he's an absolute [[Chris and race\|bi]][[Homos\|go]][[Aspergers\|ted]] [[Slow-in-the-minds\|idiot]]. But he's one I want to protect and take care of in a weird way. I empathize with him when he blabs on and on about his special interests, knowing that I used to be an obsessive [[Pokemon]] fangirl as a kid, similar to how he is with Sonic(hu). I see him as human, albeit a highly broken one.

	Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.		Fast forward to to [[June 2021]]. My best friend found out I like Chris-Chan. A few other online friends have suspected something about me for some time, and I couldn't keep lying to myself or them anymore.