Grounded Deep Response - Revision history

Master at 21:17, 5 January 2026

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	The video best reflects how despite his insistence of being [[Chris and introspection\|introspective]], he's nothing of the sort. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].		The video best reflects how despite his insistence of being [[Chris and introspection\|introspective]], he's nothing of the sort. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].

			Chris did not do a livestream until 5 [[January 2026]], 233 days after the previous one.

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Hurtful Truth Level: might be a reference to ready player 1

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might be a reference to ready player 1

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	But, yeah, just- [''Chris lightly shakes his head.''] There's a reason why this [[merge]] is happening and why there i-are going to be those that are going to be left behind: the toxic ones... Or at least the toxicity from with them is gonna be left behind if they end up physically surviving at that point, but that's a whole- to be confirmed, respectively, individually ''out'' of those [[Chris and his ego\|millions to billions of my followers]]. Within that [[Autism\|spectrum]]. Around the Earth, around the [[1218]] half of this Earth. And just- the toxic individuals in general from the [[C-197]] half, but that's a whole different kettle of fish right there.		But, yeah, just- [''Chris lightly shakes his head.''] There's a reason why this [[merge]] is happening and why there i-are going to be those that are going to be left behind: the toxic ones... Or at least the toxicity from with them is gonna be left behind if they end up physically surviving at that point, but that's a whole- to be confirmed, respectively, individually ''out'' of those [[Chris and his ego\|millions to billions of my followers]]. Within that [[Autism\|spectrum]]. Around the Earth, around the [[1218]] half of this Earth. And just- the toxic individuals in general from the [[C-197]] half, but that's a whole different kettle of fish right there.

	Anyway, so... I could do very much a whole lot of pain if I just [[CWC is Angry\|let the hatred out]], but I know those haters, they would just love it if I did that. So I shall not, and I will not. I am a strong, mature individual. I am ades- identified and knowing that I am the [[Avatar~~: The Last Airbender~~\|one avatar of all existence]]. And everything of which I have talked about before, because I have found myself in ''all'' the [[Meditation\|self-meditations]], all self-realizations, and even I am understood and acknowledged by those who are actually authentically psychic and can sense the auras, and energies, and everything. But that still is a small number in comparison to the majority, who don't have as much s-psychic openness or spiritual openness from wi-themselves, or the connections that, most of them that do have them, are able to reach. And I have reached far beyond them. I have connected with the Alpha Omega point of all existence, literally. And that's beyond the timeline corner matrix, and that's ''beyond'' this universe's core matrix.		Anyway, so... I could do very much a whole lot of pain if I just [[CWC is Angry\|let the hatred out]], but I know those haters, they would just love it if I did that. So I shall not, and I will not. I am a strong, mature individual. I am ades- identified and knowing that I am the [[Avatar\|one avatar of all existence]]. And everything of which I have talked about before, because I have found myself in ''all'' the [[Meditation\|self-meditations]], all self-realizations, and even I am understood and acknowledged by those who are actually authentically psychic and can sense the auras, and energies, and everything. But that still is a small number in comparison to the majority, who don't have as much s-psychic openness or spiritual openness from wi-themselves, or the connections that, most of them that do have them, are able to reach. And I have reached far beyond them. I have connected with the Alpha Omega point of all existence, literally. And that's beyond the timeline corner matrix, and that's ''beyond'' this universe's core matrix.

	And... I do... just... feel. I still feel. I still get pressured from time to time. It takes a lot to break me, it takes a lot to make me [[Bent duck\|bend]] or [[I'LL BREAK YOU DEAD\|break]]. It's like all I could do is continue to have faith, and as you can tell, I have become more emotionally grounded and stable. As opposed to how I was, what, back in [[2007]] or [[2008\|'8]]? But hey- Oh, hey, "2007 called! They want their Chris-Chan memes baaack!" Because that's a fad, that's just long done and over with. And no matter how much you're going to do that, how much you're gonna want, no matter much of that you're gonna want, ''it's not coming back ever''. I could put on ''similar'' to the [[The Classic\|classic iconic shirt]] that I had, but you're never going to get me screaming or complaining like I did that became so memeworthy or anything personal of me, whether it be on the social media posts—''mainly'' on my [[Bluesky]] these days, if and when I post anything—and eventually, I'll be putting more onto the [[Cwclight]] [[CWC Blog (Cwclight)\|blogs]] as well. So there. So, it's a combination and everything continues to progress. And I have lots of good ideas in my mind, and lots of blessings that are manifesting and going to be, and that I have right here and now. And just- I pray that all of you watching this will actually just appreciate and give me authentic kindness and support and just no longer judge me by past things that I were before.		And... I do... just... feel. I still feel. I still get pressured from time to time. It takes a lot to break me, it takes a lot to make me [[Bent duck\|bend]] or [[I'LL BREAK YOU DEAD\|break]]. It's like all I could do is continue to have faith, and as you can tell, I have become more emotionally grounded and stable. As opposed to how I was, what, back in [[2007]] or [[2008\|'8]]? But hey- Oh, hey, "2007 called! They want their Chris-Chan memes baaack!" Because that's a fad, that's just long done and over with. And no matter how much you're going to do that, how much you're gonna want, no matter much of that you're gonna want, ''it's not coming back ever''. I could put on ''similar'' to the [[The Classic\|classic iconic shirt]] that I had, but you're never going to get me screaming or complaining like I did that became so memeworthy or anything personal of me, whether it be on the social media posts—''mainly'' on my [[Bluesky]] these days, if and when I post anything—and eventually, I'll be putting more onto the [[Cwclight]] [[CWC Blog (Cwclight)\|blogs]] as well. So there. So, it's a combination and everything continues to progress. And I have lots of good ideas in my mind, and lots of blessings that are manifesting and going to be, and that I have right here and now. And just- I pray that all of you watching this will actually just appreciate and give me authentic kindness and support and just no longer judge me by past things that I were before.

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	I mean, how would you feel, if you were constantly negged on and perceived as something childish when you know you are of a better emotional maturity or age? And that is just regardless of the physical age, as a lot of you can be aware. You can be 30 years old and have the mentality of let's say a 15-year-old. Because you're probably like, you know, an inner [[Homos\|closeted individual]] who just essentially clinging to... [[Monthly tugboat\|creature comforts]] and whatnot. But still, yes, it does remain important to hold on to being- having an inner child and a goodness so that you can have optimism and positivity for others. But that is such a thing, a [[My Little Pony\|rarity]], to be able to maintain on top of having to endure all these [[CWC is Sad\|depressions]], all these stresses, and the hatred that could be felt of other individuals [''dramatic sigh'']		I mean, how would you feel, if you were constantly negged on and perceived as something childish when you know you are of a better emotional maturity or age? And that is just regardless of the physical age, as a lot of you can be aware. You can be 30 years old and have the mentality of let's say a 15-year-old. Because you're probably like, you know, an inner [[Homos\|closeted individual]] who just essentially clinging to... [[Monthly tugboat\|creature comforts]] and whatnot. But still, yes, it does remain important to hold on to being- having an inner child and a goodness so that you can have optimism and positivity for others. But that is such a thing, a [[My Little Pony\|rarity]], to be able to maintain on top of having to endure all these [[CWC is Sad\|depressions]], all these stresses, and the hatred that could be felt of other individuals [''dramatic sigh'']

	But yeah, just... if you all really want me to continue to do livestreams, then THIS really needs to change. I would genuinely appreciate authentic ~~positive~~, as well as authentic appreciation and support in my mental and emotional maturity as an individual, and what I am going to do and meant to do in my continued lifetime and everything, and all that is good and righteous. I have felt pain and despair over, and over, and over again. And every photo or recording of me, and uploading or public sharing of that without my personal consent or better direct consultation, is felt like an act of great betrayal and mistrust. And you're not going to get any more deeper of a betrayal than... [[Honor roll\|Uh, hang on. My brai- the name is escaping me, give me a moment... Mm. Dang it. Sh- Anyway, I'll come- it'll come back to me in a mo-bit]].		But yeah, just... if you all really want me to continue to do livestreams, then THIS really needs to change. I would genuinely appreciate authentic positivity, as well as authentic appreciation and support in my mental and emotional maturity as an individual, and what I am going to do and meant to do in my continued lifetime and everything, and all that is good and righteous. I have felt pain and despair over, and over, and over again. And every photo or recording of me, and uploading or public sharing of that without my personal consent or better direct consultation, is felt like an act of great betrayal and mistrust. And you're not going to get any more deeper of a betrayal than... [[Honor roll\|Uh, hang on. My brai- the name is escaping me, give me a moment... Mm. Dang it. Sh- Anyway, I'll come- it'll come back to me in a mo-bit]].

	Anyway, just- I'm very well aware of the toxic haters that only make up the minority of all of you. And as I have much optimism as possible for the majority of all of you who are neutral and/or good, I can only tell so much of an individual through the [[Internet]] on ''intuition alone'', and pressure on me is just simply not helpful at all. [''dramatic breath''] I should not have to feel this high level of hatred upon anyone! But I do of those few, and indirectly it just ends up spreading out to the majority, because I don't know who they were offline, those people of whom I s-really hated. And especially the immature [[weens]] that want to just tag on to those that did me wrong with things like "Oh, it's the cool trending thing to just mock and continue to torture Christ- [[Kick the autistic\|torture Christ Chan]] all over the place." [''Chris shakes his head disapprovingly, then takes a dramatic breath'']		Anyway, just- I'm very well aware of the toxic haters that only make up the minority of all of you. And as I have much optimism as possible for the majority of all of you who are neutral and/or good, I can only tell so much of an individual through the [[Internet]] on ''intuition alone'', and pressure on me is just simply not helpful at all. [''dramatic breath''] I should not have to feel this high level of hatred upon anyone! But I do of those few, and indirectly it just ends up spreading out to the majority, because I don't know who they were offline, those people of whom I s-really hated. And especially the immature [[weens]] that want to just tag on to those that did me wrong with things like "Oh, it's the cool trending thing to just mock and continue to torture Christ- [[Kick the autistic\|torture Christ Chan]] all over the place." [''Chris shakes his head disapprovingly, then takes a dramatic breath'']

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	I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [''dramatic sigh''] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the [[Chris and anger\|screams and shouts]] go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get [[Christian Weston Chandler#Classic Era\|Classic Chris-Chan]] back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [''dramatic breath'']		I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [''dramatic sigh''] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the [[Chris and anger\|screams and shouts]] go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get [[Christian Weston Chandler#Classic Era\|Classic Chris-Chan]] back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [''dramatic breath'']

	I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- [''flips over the Sonichu medallion''] been maturing. [''dramatic sigh''] That was, as you can tell, from as early as [[2011]] or [[2012\|'12]]. And eventually, I finally stopped ''sharing'' and [[Honest Content\|oversharing personal and life details and events]]. Why? ''Because that should have never been done in the first place''. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [''dramatic exhale, then sigh'']		I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- [''flips over the [[Sonichu medallion]]''] been maturing. [''dramatic sigh''] That was, as you can tell, from as early as [[2011]] or [[2012\|'12]]. And eventually, I finally stopped ''sharing'' and [[Honest Content\|oversharing personal and life details and events]]. Why? ''Because that should have never been done in the first place''. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [''dramatic exhale, then sigh'']

	I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and [[DIRTY, CRAPPED BRIEFS\|shit]] from ''over'' the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the [[livestreams]]. [''dramatic sigh''] I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived ''based'' on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [''dramatic sigh'']		I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and [[DIRTY, CRAPPED BRIEFS\|shit]] from ''over'' the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the [[livestreams]]. [''dramatic sigh''] I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived ''based'' on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [''dramatic sigh'']

JinkiesJanke: Links

2025-05-20T22:07:57Z

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PsychoNerd054 at 21:12, 20 May 2025

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	{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}		{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}
	[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]		[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]
	'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].		'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself.

			The video best reflects how despite his insistence of being [[Chris and introspection\|introspective]], he's nothing of the sort. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].

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Eamoo: invasion of privacy. No invasion of... just for content about me

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invasion of privacy. No invasion of... just for content about me

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	{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}		{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}
	[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]		[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]
	'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload.		'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].

	==Video==		==Video==

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	But, yeah, just- [''Chris lightly shakes his head.''] There's a reason why this [[merge]] is happening and why there i-are going to be those that are going to be left behind: the toxic ones... Or at least the toxicity from with them is gonna be left behind if they end up physically surviving at that point, but that's a whole- to be confirmed, respectively, individually ''out'' of those [[Chris and his ego\|millions to billions of my followers]]. Within that [[Autism\|spectrum]]. Around the Earth, around the [[1218]] half of this Earth. And just- the toxic individuals in general from the [[C-197]] half, but that's a whole different kettle of fish right there.		But, yeah, just- [''Chris lightly shakes his head.''] There's a reason why this [[merge]] is happening and why there i-are going to be those that are going to be left behind: the toxic ones... Or at least the toxicity from with them is gonna be left behind if they end up physically surviving at that point, but that's a whole- to be confirmed, respectively, individually ''out'' of those [[Chris and his ego\|millions to billions of my followers]]. Within that [[Autism\|spectrum]]. Around the Earth, around the [[1218]] half of this Earth. And just- the toxic individuals in general from the [[C-197]] half, but that's a whole different kettle of fish right there.

	Anyway, so... I could do very much a whole lot of pain if I just [[CWC is Angry\|let the hatred out]], but I know those haters, they would just love it if I did that. So I shall not, and I will not. I am a strong, mature individual. I am ades- identified and knowing that I am the [[Avatar~~: The Last Airbender~~\|one avatar of all existence]]. And everything of which I have talked about before, because I have found myself in ''all'' the [[Meditation\|self-meditations]], all self-realizations, and even I am understood and acknowledged by those who are actually authentically psychic and can sense the auras, and energies, and everything. But that still is a small number in comparison to the majority, who don't have as much s-psychic openness or spiritual openness from wi-themselves, or the connections that, most of them that do have them, are able to reach. And I have reached far beyond them. I have connected with the Alpha Omega point of all existence, literally. And that's beyond the timeline corner matrix, and that's ''beyond'' this universe's core matrix.		Anyway, so... I could do very much a whole lot of pain if I just [[CWC is Angry\|let the hatred out]], but I know those haters, they would just love it if I did that. So I shall not, and I will not. I am a strong, mature individual. I am ades- identified and knowing that I am the [[Avatar\|one avatar of all existence]]. And everything of which I have talked about before, because I have found myself in ''all'' the [[Meditation\|self-meditations]], all self-realizations, and even I am understood and acknowledged by those who are actually authentically psychic and can sense the auras, and energies, and everything. But that still is a small number in comparison to the majority, who don't have as much s-psychic openness or spiritual openness from wi-themselves, or the connections that, most of them that do have them, are able to reach. And I have reached far beyond them. I have connected with the Alpha Omega point of all existence, literally. And that's beyond the timeline corner matrix, and that's ''beyond'' this universe's core matrix.

	And... I do... just... feel. I still feel. I still get pressured from time to time. It takes a lot to break me, it takes a lot to make me [[Bent duck\|bend]] or [[I'LL BREAK YOU DEAD\|break]]. It's like all I could do is continue to have faith, and as you can tell, I have become more emotionally grounded and stable. As opposed to how I was, what, back in [[2007]] or [[2008\|'8]]? But hey- Oh, hey, "2007 called! They want their Chris-Chan memes baaack!" Because that's a fad, that's just long done and over with. And no matter how much you're going to do that, how much you're gonna want, no matter much of that you're gonna want, ''it's not coming back ever''. I could put on ''similar'' to the [[The Classic\|classic iconic shirt]] that I had, but you're never going to get me screaming or complaining like I did that became so memeworthy or anything personal of me, whether it be on the social media posts—''mainly'' on my [[Bluesky]] these days, if and when I post anything—and eventually, I'll be putting more onto the [[Cwclight]] [[CWC Blog (Cwclight)\|blogs]] as well. So there. So, it's a combination and everything continues to progress. And I have lots of good ideas in my mind, and lots of blessings that are manifesting and going to be, and that I have right here and now. And just- I pray that all of you watching this will actually just appreciate and give me authentic kindness and support and just no longer judge me by past things that I were before.		And... I do... just... feel. I still feel. I still get pressured from time to time. It takes a lot to break me, it takes a lot to make me [[Bent duck\|bend]] or [[I'LL BREAK YOU DEAD\|break]]. It's like all I could do is continue to have faith, and as you can tell, I have become more emotionally grounded and stable. As opposed to how I was, what, back in [[2007]] or [[2008\|'8]]? But hey- Oh, hey, "2007 called! They want their Chris-Chan memes baaack!" Because that's a fad, that's just long done and over with. And no matter how much you're going to do that, how much you're gonna want, no matter much of that you're gonna want, ''it's not coming back ever''. I could put on ''similar'' to the [[The Classic\|classic iconic shirt]] that I had, but you're never going to get me screaming or complaining like I did that became so memeworthy or anything personal of me, whether it be on the social media posts—''mainly'' on my [[Bluesky]] these days, if and when I post anything—and eventually, I'll be putting more onto the [[Cwclight]] [[CWC Blog (Cwclight)\|blogs]] as well. So there. So, it's a combination and everything continues to progress. And I have lots of good ideas in my mind, and lots of blessings that are manifesting and going to be, and that I have right here and now. And just- I pray that all of you watching this will actually just appreciate and give me authentic kindness and support and just no longer judge me by past things that I were before.

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	I mean, how would you feel, if you were constantly negged on and perceived as something childish when you know you are of a better emotional maturity or age? And that is just regardless of the physical age, as a lot of you can be aware. You can be 30 years old and have the mentality of let's say a 15-year-old. Because you're probably like, you know, an inner [[Homos\|closeted individual]] who just essentially clinging to... [[Monthly tugboat\|creature comforts]] and whatnot. But still, yes, it does remain important to hold on to being- having an inner child and a goodness so that you can have optimism and positivity for others. But that is such a thing, a [[My Little Pony\|rarity]], to be able to maintain on top of having to endure all these [[CWC is Sad\|depressions]], all these stresses, and the hatred that could be felt of other individuals [''dramatic sigh'']		I mean, how would you feel, if you were constantly negged on and perceived as something childish when you know you are of a better emotional maturity or age? And that is just regardless of the physical age, as a lot of you can be aware. You can be 30 years old and have the mentality of let's say a 15-year-old. Because you're probably like, you know, an inner [[Homos\|closeted individual]] who just essentially clinging to... [[Monthly tugboat\|creature comforts]] and whatnot. But still, yes, it does remain important to hold on to being- having an inner child and a goodness so that you can have optimism and positivity for others. But that is such a thing, a [[My Little Pony\|rarity]], to be able to maintain on top of having to endure all these [[CWC is Sad\|depressions]], all these stresses, and the hatred that could be felt of other individuals [''dramatic sigh'']

	But yeah, just... if you all really want me to continue to do livestreams, then THIS really needs to change. I would genuinely appreciate authentic ~~positive~~, as well as authentic appreciation and support in my mental and emotional maturity as an individual, and what I am going to do and meant to do in my continued lifetime and everything, and all that is good and righteous. I have felt pain and despair over, and over, and over again. And every photo or recording of me, and uploading or public sharing of that without my personal consent or better direct consultation, is felt like an act of great betrayal and mistrust. And you're not going to get any more deeper of a betrayal than... [[Honor roll\|Uh, hang on. My brai- the name is escaping me, give me a moment... Mm. Dang it. Sh- Anyway, I'll come- it'll come back to me in a mo-bit]].		But yeah, just... if you all really want me to continue to do livestreams, then THIS really needs to change. I would genuinely appreciate authentic positivity, as well as authentic appreciation and support in my mental and emotional maturity as an individual, and what I am going to do and meant to do in my continued lifetime and everything, and all that is good and righteous. I have felt pain and despair over, and over, and over again. And every photo or recording of me, and uploading or public sharing of that without my personal consent or better direct consultation, is felt like an act of great betrayal and mistrust. And you're not going to get any more deeper of a betrayal than... [[Honor roll\|Uh, hang on. My brai- the name is escaping me, give me a moment... Mm. Dang it. Sh- Anyway, I'll come- it'll come back to me in a mo-bit]].

	Anyway, just- I'm very well aware of the toxic haters that only make up the minority of all of you. And as I have much optimism as possible for the majority of all of you who are neutral and/or good, I can only tell so much of an individual through the [[Internet]] on ''intuition alone'', and pressure on me is just simply not helpful at all. [''dramatic breath''] I should not have to feel this high level of hatred upon anyone! But I do of those few, and indirectly it just ends up spreading out to the majority, because I don't know who they were offline, those people of whom I s-really hated. And especially the immature [[weens]] that want to just tag on to those that did me wrong with things like "Oh, it's the cool trending thing to just mock and continue to torture Christ- [[Kick the autistic\|torture Christ Chan]] all over the place." [''Chris shakes his head disapprovingly, then takes a dramatic breath'']		Anyway, just- I'm very well aware of the toxic haters that only make up the minority of all of you. And as I have much optimism as possible for the majority of all of you who are neutral and/or good, I can only tell so much of an individual through the [[Internet]] on ''intuition alone'', and pressure on me is just simply not helpful at all. [''dramatic breath''] I should not have to feel this high level of hatred upon anyone! But I do of those few, and indirectly it just ends up spreading out to the majority, because I don't know who they were offline, those people of whom I s-really hated. And especially the immature [[weens]] that want to just tag on to those that did me wrong with things like "Oh, it's the cool trending thing to just mock and continue to torture Christ- [[Kick the autistic\|torture Christ Chan]] all over the place." [''Chris shakes his head disapprovingly, then takes a dramatic breath'']

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	I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [''dramatic sigh''] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the [[Chris and anger\|screams and shouts]] go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get [[Christian Weston Chandler#Classic Era\|Classic Chris-Chan]] back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [''dramatic breath'']		I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [''dramatic sigh''] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the [[Chris and anger\|screams and shouts]] go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get [[Christian Weston Chandler#Classic Era\|Classic Chris-Chan]] back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [''dramatic breath'']

	I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- [''flips over the Sonichu medallion''] been maturing. [''dramatic sigh''] That was, as you can tell, from as early as [[2011]] or [[2012\|'12]]. And eventually, I finally stopped ''sharing'' and [[Honest Content\|oversharing personal and life details and events]]. Why? ''Because that should have never been done in the first place''. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [''dramatic exhale, then sigh'']		I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- [''flips over the [[Sonichu medallion]]''] been maturing. [''dramatic sigh''] That was, as you can tell, from as early as [[2011]] or [[2012\|'12]]. And eventually, I finally stopped ''sharing'' and [[Honest Content\|oversharing personal and life details and events]]. Why? ''Because that should have never been done in the first place''. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [''dramatic exhale, then sigh'']

	I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and [[DIRTY, CRAPPED BRIEFS\|shit]] from ''over'' the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the [[livestreams]]. [''dramatic sigh''] I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived ''based'' on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [''dramatic sigh'']		I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and [[DIRTY, CRAPPED BRIEFS\|shit]] from ''over'' the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the [[livestreams]]. [''dramatic sigh''] I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived ''based'' on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [''dramatic sigh'']

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	{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}		{{quote\|But when I watched [[Saberspark]]'s response, I feel like, um, there's some honesty and truth in his voice. Definitely not- He's definitely emotional, obviously, because he's having to go through all this, uh, [[stress]] and trouble. I just like- you know, similar way I've gone through, from the likes of such fake- the fakers and all that from the online community over the years. Mm. But anyway, [[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations\|I put into more detail in- on my thoughts and insights in-that on my Bluesky]]...\|Chris, subtly giving away his intentions behind making this video.<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref>}}
	[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]		[[File:Sad Chris May 2025.jpg\|thumb\|350px\|Chris holding back tears because his followers prefer watching his livestreams instead of his [[Light Powered Cwclight Reviews\|Transformers toy reviews]].]]
	'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].		'''Grounded Deep Response''' is a video published to Chris's [[YouTube]] channel on 19 [[May 2025]]. It is likely inspired from [[Saberspark]]'s video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video<ref>[[May 2025 social media posts#Saberspark's response to sexual assault allegations]]</ref> and also praised it for the [[Honest\|honesty]] within,<ref>[[Jesus Christ Chan - Sonic 2006 Speed Playthrough Part 3]]</ref> but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself.

			The video best reflects how despite his insistence of being [[Chris and introspection\|introspective]], he's nothing of the sort. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of [[Affair with Mother\|sexual misconduct]] as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his [[Trolls\|theoretical exes]], or possibly the [[Walt\|person who had secretly recorded their phone call]] just two days prior to the video's upload. He also criticizes "invasion of privacy ... just for content about me," possibly a reference to all the random people taking pictures of him and [[Flutter]].

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