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	I Really can go for Months Without [[video games]], and I am going to prove it to you by devoting my money and my time to you. Granted I have missed the opportunity to start on that with the recent replacement, but it was funded by Store Credit at the Game Store, and my parents Loaned me the remaining half to make the replacement. I will be paying my mom and dad back in the next two months for that.		I Really can go for Months Without [[video games]], and I am going to prove it to you by devoting my money and my time to you. Granted I have missed the opportunity to start on that with the recent replacement, but it was funded by Store Credit at the Game Store, and my parents Loaned me the remaining half to make the replacement. I will be paying my mom and dad back in the next two months for that.

	And on [[Julie\|my past trip]] to Cleveland, Ohio, my mom and dad Called the Police On Me, and even metaphorically put a Bounty on my head. And more recently on the trip to [[~~MGS~~\|Otakon]], they both did not want me to go at all, and they threatened calling the police on me again if I went and sending me to Jail. And they threatened changing the locks to the house and not allowing me back in, leaving me with NO home and [[PS3\|necessities]]. I Really would have put together the funds to even hop a Bus to Tennessee to see you if I could, but I Fear my mother and father sending me to Jail if I even dared venture Outside of State, even IF I had told them about the trip and seeing you. I feel [[Basement Rosechus\|bound and chained]] by my mom and dad; they both, especially my father, act like wardens who have little trust on me. Financial Situations are not really the restriction that prevents me from traveling, it's like if I travel at all, since the trip to Cleveland, I would not be allowed back into my own home and left homeless and even worse. And with that, that is why my relationships HAVE to be Local, although I would still be able and most willing to go to your place in Virginia to meet you and such.		And on [[Julie\|my past trip]] to Cleveland, Ohio, my mom and dad Called the Police On Me, and even metaphorically put a Bounty on my head. And more recently on the trip to [[Metal Gear\|Otakon]], they both did not want me to go at all, and they threatened calling the police on me again if I went and sending me to Jail. And they threatened changing the locks to the house and not allowing me back in, leaving me with NO home and [[PS3\|necessities]]. I Really would have put together the funds to even hop a Bus to Tennessee to see you if I could, but I Fear my mother and father sending me to Jail if I even dared venture Outside of State, even IF I had told them about the trip and seeing you. I feel [[Basement Rosechus\|bound and chained]] by my mom and dad; they both, especially my father, act like wardens who have little trust on me. Financial Situations are not really the restriction that prevents me from traveling, it's like if I travel at all, since the trip to Cleveland, I would not be allowed back into my own home and left homeless and even worse. And with that, that is why my relationships HAVE to be Local, although I would still be able and most willing to go to your place in Virginia to meet you and such.

	I apologize for proposing the bet; although I would truly have gone through with it, it was wrong of me to even think of bringing it up at all.		I apologize for proposing the bet; although I would truly have gone through with it, it was wrong of me to even think of bringing it up at all.

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	But I needed to space myself to think about the details for myself and come up with a reasonable solution to the disagreements and such. I felt I was unable to resolve the disagreement quickly enough, and then I felt confused, leading me to say what I said in error.		But I needed to space myself to think about the details for myself and come up with a reasonable solution to the disagreements and such. I felt I was unable to resolve the disagreement quickly enough, and then I felt confused, leading me to say what I said in error.

	Jacklyn Romy, there is No One Else, and [[Chris and reality\|realistically]] there will never be anyone else who is as pretty as you who has the patience of a saint, who is willing to put up with most of my personal [[~~Anger~~\|quirks]], [[Obesity\|impulses]] and [[~~Dirty~~, ~~crapped briefs~~\|whatnot]]. And there are things I feel I am unable to immediately change.		Jacklyn Romy, there is No One Else, and [[Chris and reality\|realistically]] there will never be anyone else who is as pretty as you who has the patience of a saint, who is willing to put up with most of my personal [[Chris and anger\|quirks]], [[Obesity\|impulses]] and [[DIRTY, CRAPPED BRIEFS\|whatnot]]. And there are things I feel I am unable to immediately change.

	My mind goes blank at certain times, of which I am uncertain when, but I am certain it is when A) [[Emily Date Conversation Transcript\|I am listening to other people converse with each other in front of me.]] B) When people raise their voices loudly to me (or to someone else and I happen to be there during the event). To put this another way, my mind gets as blank and confused as the dude [[Wikipedia:Steve Carell\|Steve Carrel]] played in "[[Wikipedia:The 40-Year-Old Virgin\|The 40 Year Old Virgin]]". I feel my lack of self-confidence in real-life situations is a contribution to that mental blankness.		My mind goes blank at certain times, of which I am uncertain when, but I am certain it is when A) [[Emily Date Conversation Transcript\|I am listening to other people converse with each other in front of me.]] B) When people raise their voices loudly to me (or to someone else and I happen to be there during the event). To put this another way, my mind gets as blank and confused as the dude [[Wikipedia:Steve Carell\|Steve Carrel]] played in "[[Wikipedia:The 40-Year-Old Virgin\|The 40 Year Old Virgin]]". I feel my lack of self-confidence in real-life situations is a contribution to that mental blankness.

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	This page covers e-mails exchanged between Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2 September to 8 [[September 2010]]. Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of [[Count Graduon]] at his heels. He states that he was unable to draw what she requested because [[pickles\|penises]] make him queasy. He equates the loss of [[video games]] to being homeless. He comes close to implying that Jackie is a [[troll]], but he loves her HONEST and TRULY. Jackie mentions that Chris can return or sell his [[PS3]], but Chris adamantly refuses, as it is his only link to the outside world. He ignores her pleas that he improve himself and her accusations of hypocrisy. He expresses disillusionment about the relationship and wants to see her in person as soon as possible to resolve their problems. If only he could come up with the money....		This page covers e-mails exchanged between Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2 September to 8 [[September 2010]]. Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of [[Count Graduon]] at his heels. He states that he was unable to draw what she requested because [[pickles\|penises]] make him queasy. He equates the loss of [[video games]] to being homeless. He comes close to implying that Jackie is a [[troll]], but he loves her HONEST and TRULY. Jackie mentions that Chris can return or sell his [[PS3]], but Chris adamantly refuses, as it is his only link to the outside world. He ignores her pleas that he improve himself and her accusations of hypocrisy. He expresses disillusionment about the relationship and wants to see her in person as soon as possible to resolve their problems. If only he could come up with the money...

	{{EmailReply\|September 2, 2010 - 11:28pm		{{EmailReply\|September 2, 2010 - 11:28pm

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Trombonista at 01:03, 13 February 2011

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	Stay Safe and Sweet,<br>		Stay Safe and Sweet,<br>
	XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<br>		XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<br>
	Christian.}}		Christian.}}

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	Please let me redeem myself for you, Jackie.		Please let me redeem myself for you, Jackie.

	XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<br>		XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<br>
	Christian.		Christian.

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	This page covers emails exchanged by Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2-8 [[September 2010]].		This page covers emails exchanged by Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2-8 [[September 2010]].

	Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of Graduon ~~one~~ again at his heels. Makes excuses that penis are gay for seeing another male (confirming he mentally blocks males in hentai and porn). "I did not mean to lie to you; I am unable to foresee every final aspect of the future" i.e: Chris is just like everybody else, but he's special for it. Chris equates the loss of videogames to being homeless. Chris nearly implies that Jackie may be a troll. But he loves her HONEST and TRULY.		Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of Graduon once again at his heels. Makes excuses that penis are gay for seeing another male (confirming he mentally blocks males in hentai and porn). "I did not mean to lie to you; I am unable to foresee every final aspect of the future" i.e: Chris is just like everybody else, but he's special for it. Chris equates the loss of videogames to being homeless. Chris nearly implies that Jackie may be a troll. But he loves her HONEST and TRULY.

	Jackie mentions how Chris can return or sell the PS3, PROFIT. Chris says no; it's his only link to the outside world. Latest tugboat came in, Chris has $100 (unknown if Bob's 'Visa Gift Card' setup is still in play). Jackie make several points how Chris could legitimately potentially get china. Chris ignores i-god damnit...		Jackie mentions how Chris can return or sell the PS3, PROFIT. Chris says no; it's his only link to the outside world. Latest tugboat came in, Chris has $100 (unknown if Bob's 'Visa Gift Card' setup is still in play). Jackie make several points how Chris could legitimately potentially get china. Chris ignores i-god damnit...

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	Listen, Jacklyn, People are MORE Important to me than Video Games, regardless of me having the consoles in my possession or not.		Listen, Jacklyn, People are MORE Important to me than Video Games, regardless of me having the consoles in my possession or not.

	To answer your big question, I need the PS3, because A) Blu-Ray Player, and it upgrades DVDs to High-Definition view for HD-TVs. B) Music Player; it plays CDs AND MP3s for background music, like a mini-stereo system. C) Photos; it stores my Digital Photographs, my Comic Pages and more images for display in Slideshow or individual views. D) Internet; it Browses the Internet Wirelessly, it even can play videos from most websites including YouTube, so I don't have to leave my room to surf the web. E) It helps a [[College]]'s Research; together with this state college (its name escapes me), it uses its [[Wikipedia:Folding@home\|Folding @ Home]] Program to help the College(s) in their Protein Folding Research and Development; Look it up, Folding at Home. F) Social Output, between Playstation Home And Video-Chats, it's like going into a text-only chat room, but you actually Walk Up to people's Avatars and Converse with text, spoken words and hand gestures. Playstation 3 does a LOT more than just Games.		To answer your big question, I need the PS3, because A) Blu-Ray Player, and it upgrades DVDs to High-Definition view for HD-TVs. B) Music Player; it plays CDs AND MP3s for background music, like a mini-stereo system. C) Photos; it stores my Digital Photographs, my Comic Pages and more images for display in Slideshow or individual views. D) Internet; it Browses the Internet Wirelessly, it even can play videos from most websites including YouTube, so I don't have to leave my room to surf the web. E) It helps a [[College]]'s Research; together with this state college (its name escapes me), it uses its [[Wikipedia:Folding@home\|Folding @ Home]] Program to help the College(s) in their Protein Folding Research and Development; Look it up, Folding at Home. F) Social Output, between Playstation Home And Video-Chats, it's like going into a text-only chat room, but you actually Walk Up to people's Avatars and Converse with text, spoken words and hand gestures. Playstation 3 does a LOT more than just Games.

	But aside from all of that, it is Real Life that is more important to me than ANY Video Game, Period. And Having a [[Girlfriend]] is THAT Important to me as well.		But aside from all of that, it is Real Life that is more important to me than ANY Video Game, Period. And Having a [[Girlfriend]] is THAT Important to me as well.

	But from what I read from your last e-mail, I see what you're saying to me is "Chris, you are NOT Boyfriend Material; I am NOT going to Date you, and I would never go out with you; I'm not going to give you a chance to Prove Yourself to me In Person, because you'd likely mess up and prove me right; I'm putting you in the [[Friend Zone]], NEVER to let you be my ANYTHING Ever Again." And all that makes me feel really sad; I have been hurting a lot, and being put into the "Friend Zone" is like "Game Over" to me.		But from what I read from your last e-mail, I see what you're saying to me is "Chris, you are NOT Boyfriend Material; I am NOT going to Date you, and I would never go out with you; I'm not going to give you a chance to Prove Yourself to me In Person, because you'd likely mess up and prove me right; I'm putting you in the [[Friend Zone]], NEVER to let you be my ANYTHING Ever Again." And all that makes me feel really sad; I have been hurting a lot, and being put into the "Friend Zone" is like "Game Over" to me.

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	This page covers ~~emails~~ exchanged by Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2-8 [[September 2010]].		This page covers e-mails exchanged between Chris and [[Jackie]] from 2 September to 8 [[September 2010]]. Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of [[Count Graduon]] at his heels. He states that he was unable to draw what she requested because [[pickles\|penises]] make him queasy. He equates the loss of [[video games]] to being homeless. He comes close to implying that Jackie is a [[troll]], but he loves her HONEST and TRULY. Jackie mentions that Chris can return or sell his [[PS3]], but Chris adamantly refuses, as it is his only link to the outside world. He ignores her pleas that he improve himself and her accusations of hypocrisy. He expresses disillusionment about the relationship and wants to see her in person as soon as possible to resolve their problems. If only he could come up with the money....

	Chris makes another pity play, the spectre of Graduon ~~once again~~ at his heels. ~~Makes excuses~~ that ~~penis are gay for seeing another male (confirming~~ he ~~mentally blocks males in hentai and porn). "I did not mean to lie to you; I am~~ unable to ~~foresee every final aspect of the future" i.e: Chris is just like everybody else, but he's special for it~~. ~~Chris~~ equates the loss of ~~videogames~~ to being homeless. ~~Chris nearly implies~~ that Jackie ~~may be~~ a troll~~. But~~ he loves her HONEST and TRULY.

	Jackie mentions ~~how~~ Chris can return or sell ~~the~~ PS3, ~~PROFIT.~~ Chris ~~says no;~~ it's his only link to the outside world. ~~Latest tugboat came in, Chris has $100 (unknown if Bob's 'Visa Gift Card' setup is still in play). Jackie make several points how Chris could legitimately potentially get china. Chris~~ ignores ~~i-god damnit...~~

	~~Chris denies what he is, denounces what he is and everyone else like that, and explains~~ that he ~~is what he is,~~ and ~~he's special for being it. Jackie calls bullshit, points out Chris's~~ hypocrisy~~, especially with his 'hexbawks' comment~~. ~~Chris flees like he did~~ the ~~first time,~~ and ~~then~~ he ~~comes back, saying 'I love you and will do anything for you~~. P.~~S: Never gonna sell my PS3~~.~~' Chris thinks this is an argument many other couples have~~.

	{{EmailReply\|September 2, 2010 - 11:28pm		{{EmailReply\|September 2, 2010 - 11:28pm

	Jackie, I care about you a Lot, I really do. I do not ignore you, and your e-mails are Not difficult to me, although this one was [[stress]]~~ful~~ to me. The damn [[games]] are NOT the shine of my day; You Are the Shine of my Days. My words are not empty; I mean what I tell you. I feel upset too.		Jackie, I care about you a Lot, I really do. I do not ignore you, and your e-mails are Not difficult to me, although this one was [[stress\|stressful]] to me. The damn [[games]] are NOT the shine of my day; You Are the Shine of my Days. My words are not empty; I mean what I tell you. I feel upset too.

	I have read the whole message. Firstly, I will admit I was in error; there were Three Males in that drawing, I mistook the math of equal males versus females. I feel uncomfortable with drawing naked dudes, especially the [[Pickles\|Penises]]. I don't understand all of the whys, but my [[Homos\|homophobia]] is one of the reasons. Although, even with that, I feel little excuses on the issue. I do like to draw, it's that between the badmouthing of everyone on the [[internet]] on my drawing style, not being recognized in [[High School]] for that part of me, and my [[Love Quest\|pursuit of happiness]] in life with a woman to be my [[sweetheart]], I feel like my ability to draw is bad and less important than the important things in life, like finding true love and compassion. So I feel like my [[art]] style is a lost cause, and it makes me feel sad, like an [[Ego\|under-appreciated artist]].		I have read the whole message. Firstly, I will admit I was in error; there were Three Males in that drawing, I mistook the math of equal males versus females. I feel uncomfortable with drawing naked dudes, especially the [[Pickles\|Penises]]. I don't understand all of the whys, but my [[Homos\|homophobia]] is one of the reasons. Although, even with that, I feel little excuses on the issue. I do like to draw, it's that between the badmouthing of everyone on the [[internet]] on my drawing style, not being recognized in [[High School]] for that part of me, and my [[Love Quest\|pursuit of happiness]] in life with a woman to be my [[sweetheart]], I feel like my ability to draw is bad and less important than the important things in life, like finding true love and compassion. So I feel like my [[art]] style is a lost cause, and it makes me feel sad, like an [[Ego\|under-appreciated artist]].
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	3. I don't know for sure how God feels about me lying to my parents to protect their feelings. But for lying to you, [[Chris and religion\|I know he is angry with me]].<br>		3. I don't know for sure how God feels about me lying to my parents to protect their feelings. But for lying to you, [[Chris and religion\|I know he is angry with me]].<br>
	4. I think he feels sad about my addiction problem. But I Was and Still Am willing to treat it. I feel I can not do it alone; I need someone like you Close to me and In Person, because indirectly over the phone or over the internet is close, but not close enough.<br>		4. I think he feels sad about my addiction problem. But I Was and Still Am willing to treat it. I feel I can not do it alone; I need someone like you Close to me and In Person, because indirectly over the phone or over the internet is close, but not close enough.<br>
	5. I WAS willing to come to you, but as I have explained in the earlier paragraph, ~~[[Chris and reality\|~~My Family would have me in Jail]] and/or Lock me Out of my House leaving me Homeless if I traveled outside of state.<br>		5. I WAS willing to come to you, but as I have explained in the earlier paragraph, My Family would have me in Jail and/or Lock me Out of my House leaving me Homeless if I traveled outside of state.<br>
	6. I am very willing to go until the first day of [[2011]] without video games, but I have to make positive that there is place for me outside of my ~~[[Sonichu~~ Home ~~Club\|Home]]~~ before I make the commitment.		6. I am very willing to go until the first day of [[2011]] without video games, but I have to make positive that there is place for me outside of my Home before I make the commitment.

	I do care about you, Jackie, and I really want to see you and be with you. But even though I can [[Monthly tugboat\|raise the money]] quickly to Travel, I can not afford to lose my Home in the process.		I do care about you, Jackie, and I really want to see you and be with you. But even though I can [[Monthly tugboat\|raise the money]] quickly to Travel, I can not afford to lose my Home in the process.
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	Listen, Jacklyn, People are MORE Important to me than Video Games, regardless of me having the consoles in my possession or not.		Listen, Jacklyn, People are MORE Important to me than Video Games, regardless of me having the consoles in my possession or not.

	To answer your big question, I need the PS3, because A) Blu-Ray Player, and it upgrades DVDs to High-Definition view for HD-TVs. B) Music Player; it plays CDs AND MP3s for background music, like a mini-stereo system. C) Photos; it stores my Digital Photographs, my Comic Pages and more images for display in Slideshow or individual views. D) Internet; it Browses the Internet Wirelessly, it even can play videos from most websites including YouTube, so I don't have to leave my room to surf the web. E) It helps a [[College]]'s Research; together with this state college (its name escapes me), it uses its [[Wikipedia:Folding@home\|Folding @ Home]] Program to help the College(s) in their Protein Folding Research and Development; Look it up, Folding at Home. F) Social Output, between Playstation Home And Video-Chats, it's like going into a text-only chat room, but you actually Walk Up to people's Avatars and Converse with text, spoken words and hand gestures. Playstation 3 does a LOT more than just Games.		To answer your big question, I need the PS3, because A) Blu-Ray Player, and it upgrades DVDs to High-Definition view for HD-TVs. B) Music Player; it plays CDs AND MP3s for background music, like a mini-stereo system. C) Photos; it stores my Digital Photographs, my Comic Pages and more images for display in Slideshow or individual views. D) Internet; it Browses the Internet Wirelessly, it even can play videos from most websites including YouTube, so I don't have to leave my room to surf the web. E) It helps a College's Research; together with this state college (its name escapes me), it uses its [[Wikipedia:Folding@home\|Folding @ Home]] Program to help the College(s) in their Protein Folding Research and Development; Look it up, Folding at Home. F) Social Output, between Playstation Home And Video-Chats, it's like going into a text-only chat room, but you actually Walk Up to people's Avatars and Converse with text, spoken words and hand gestures. Playstation 3 does a LOT more than just Games.

	But aside from all of that, it is Real Life that is more important to me than ANY Video Game, Period. And Having a [[Girlfriend]] is THAT Important to me as well.		But aside from all of that, it is Real Life that is more important to me than ANY Video Game, Period. And Having a [[Girlfriend]] is THAT Important to me as well.
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	You think I spend all day playing video games? I do not; [[DayOut\|I actually go OUT]] and [[A Hike\|walk about]] and enjoy the [[McDonald's\|sunshine]] and [[Burger King\|life]]. The only reason it is hard for me to socialize is because of my Social Anxiety that is my Fucking [[Autism]]. I can Socialize when I set my mind to it and I have [[Chris's Big Night Out\|People Helping Me Socialize]], Including people who are Caring and Kind enough to [[Hanna\|Approach Me First and Greet Me]].		You think I spend all day playing video games? I do not; [[DayOut\|I actually go OUT]] and [[A Hike\|walk about]] and enjoy the [[McDonald's\|sunshine]] and [[Burger King\|life]]. The only reason it is hard for me to socialize is because of my Social Anxiety that is my Fucking [[Autism]]. I can Socialize when I set my mind to it and I have [[Chris's Big Night Out\|People Helping Me Socialize]], Including people who are Caring and Kind enough to [[Hanna\|Approach Me First and Greet Me]].

	They say "More Good Relationships Start from meeting over the Internet"; that ONLY works when the Couple ACTUALLY MEET EACH OTHER IN REAL LIFE PERSON. Otherwise, I totally disagree with that notion 100%. Both people are GLUED in front of their Computers, [[Xbox\|HEXBoxes]], etc talking to these people they have NOT MET in Person At All. Including ALL of the Trolls that have been pestering me including [[Clyde]] and [[Tito]]. So I'm not alone when it comes to being in front of a Digital Monitor for an extended period of time, but at least I can talk to people when I do so. AND I get out every day for sunshine, exercise, and HOPEFULLY meet new people by Their Greeting. Sadly THAT notion is nearly extinct, because everyone is glued to their own ~~[[Chris and His Ego\|~~self-absorbed]], or otherwise, chores, duties, etc. soo much that they don't even give any person outside of themselves a passing glance or whatever.		They say "More Good Relationships Start from meeting over the Internet"; that ONLY works when the Couple ACTUALLY MEET EACH OTHER IN REAL LIFE PERSON. Otherwise, I totally disagree with that notion 100%. Both people are GLUED in front of their Computers, [[Xbox\|HEXBoxes]], etc talking to these people they have NOT MET in Person At All. Including ALL of the Trolls that have been pestering me including [[Clyde]] and [[Tito]]. So I'm not alone when it comes to being in front of a Digital Monitor for an extended period of time, but at least I can talk to people when I do so. AND I get out every day for sunshine, exercise, and HOPEFULLY meet new people by Their Greeting. Sadly THAT notion is nearly extinct, because everyone is glued to their own self-absorbed, or otherwise, chores, duties, etc. soo much that they don't even give any person outside of themselves a passing glance or whatever.

	I feel there is too much tension and distrust between you and me. As much as I want to believe there is something between us to make this relationship work, I have to look at the details realistically.		I feel there is too much tension and distrust between you and me. As much as I want to believe there is something between us to make this relationship work, I have to look at the details realistically.
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	My mind goes blank at certain times, of which I am uncertain when, but I am certain it is when A) [[Emily Date Conversation Transcript\|I am listening to other people converse with each other in front of me.]] B) When people raise their voices loudly to me (or to someone else and I happen to be there during the event). To put this another way, my mind gets as blank and confused as the dude [[Wikipedia:Steve Carell\|Steve Carrel]] played in "[[Wikipedia:The 40-Year-Old Virgin\|The 40 Year Old Virgin]]". I feel my lack of self-confidence in real-life situations is a contribution to that mental blankness.		My mind goes blank at certain times, of which I am uncertain when, but I am certain it is when A) [[Emily Date Conversation Transcript\|I am listening to other people converse with each other in front of me.]] B) When people raise their voices loudly to me (or to someone else and I happen to be there during the event). To put this another way, my mind gets as blank and confused as the dude [[Wikipedia:Steve Carell\|Steve Carrel]] played in "[[Wikipedia:The 40-Year-Old Virgin\|The 40 Year Old Virgin]]". I feel my lack of self-confidence in real-life situations is a contribution to that mental blankness.

	Anyway, as for the recent disagreement, I would like to offer a compromise. Without the loan, I made $130 in a few days. I am willing to make the $130 again, in Cash, and come to see you at my own expense. This way, I feel I can earn a bit of self-respect for making money for my Sweetheart over material replacements. And I understand your feelings of the material replacement... I'm catching myself right here, with a potential self-set-up towards more trouble, so I'm stopping myself there.		Anyway, as for the recent disagreement, I would like to offer a [[Chris and negotiation\|compromise]]. Without the loan, I made $130 in a few days. I am willing to make the $130 again, in Cash, and come to see you at my own expense. This way, I feel I can earn a bit of self-respect for making money for my Sweetheart over material replacements. And I understand your feelings of the material replacement... I'm catching myself right here, with a potential self-set-up towards more trouble, so I'm stopping myself there.

	I Love and Care about you more than anything, because you are the best woman who has come into my life, and I do not want to ever lose you over a petty disagreement other couples can have as well.		I Love and Care about you more than anything, because you are the best woman who has come into my life, and I do not want to ever lose you over a petty disagreement other couples can have as well.