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	I've been meaning to explain my hiatus from the CWCki, which had lasted for almost two years, at some point since my return, but I never felt there was a proper time or place to do so until now. I've felt there was no better than after I showed [[User:PsychoNerd054/DMs with Spooky\|my interactions with Spooky Bones]], someone who I think has mentally drained me, that I could explain it since me leaving the CWCki is closely related to that.		I've been meaning to explain my hiatus from the CWCki, which had lasted for almost two years, at some point since my return, but I never felt there was a proper time or place to do so until now. I've felt there was no better time than after I showed [[User:PsychoNerd054/DMs with Spooky\|my interactions with Spooky Bones]], someone who I think has mentally drained me, that I could explain it since me leaving the CWCki is closely related to that.

	==Regarding Spooky Bones==		==Regarding Spooky Bones==

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T21:03:55Z

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I ~~got~~ some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the chaos and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.		That's not to say that I haven't gotten some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the chaos and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.

	I took a page out of Anaxis' book and decided to share some of my experiences. For everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		I took a page out of Anaxis' book and decided to share some of my experiences. For everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T18:35:31Z

The Lainchu Manifesto

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the ~~discourse~~ and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the chaos and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.

	I took a page out of Anaxis' book and decided to share some of my experiences. For everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		I took a page out of Anaxis' book and decided to share some of my experiences. For everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:56:52Z

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	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.

	~~Therefore, for~~ everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		I took a page out of Anaxis' book and decided to share some of my experiences. For everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

	==TL;DR==		==TL;DR==

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:51:08Z

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was a point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.

	Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:35:46Z

The Lainchu Manifesto

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight. I feel this is ultimately what inspired me to come back, as mending the damage seemed possible again.

	Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:34:57Z

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken. Then Anaxis went out of his way, busting his ass for two years, to write a huge essay to try and mend all of the damage that had been caused. Despite that, the Manifesto appears to be largely underappreciated, being deemed by many as a waste of time. Considering my role in the propogating of misinformation, and what I've been feeling afterwards, I saw something else entirely in Anaxis' work. I saw it as a basis for starting anew, and setting the record straight.

	Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:24:33Z

The Lainchu Manifesto

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs of sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on. The truth became so clouded, it seemed entirely impossible to fix what had been broken.

	Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.

PsychoNerd054: /* The Lainchu Manifesto */

2025-06-15T16:22:25Z

The Lainchu Manifesto

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	When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.		When I returned in February 2025, and first read Anaxis' Manifesto, I think some of those aforementioned feelings of inadequacy reemerged within me. It was like all the ways I've fucked up massively were made into some sort of large comprehensive document, acknowledging that I bought into simple, scandalous lies. I was even hesitant to give my opinion on it at first, knowing it was written by one of the people that Burn Book, a group that I gotten myself involved in, had targeted. I didn't feel comfortable giving my opinion on it unless I was certain that Anaxis was comfortable with me being present again. Considering all that's happened to Anaxis prior, being betrayed twice via leaked DMs, I was actually both thankful and surprised to see that he'd even tell me he looked forward to working with me, let alone speak to me at all. This is also considering that he expressed the possibility that he wouldn't have done either of those things if the DM leaks happened to him instead of Hurtful. Regardless, I still feel I arguably did worse to him than either [[Fiona Cooper\|Snoo]] or [[The WCT]] by allowing all of this to transpire in the first place, and putting the burden on him to write the Manifesto, a work that's received a ton of flak despite all the effort he's put into it to attempt to undo all of the damage I've caused, but to little avail.

	That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs sooner.		That's not to say that I got some degree of inspiration from the Manifesto, however. Like I said to Anaxis, I saw a lot of value in his Manifesto. As you can guess, there was as point where I felt the CWCki was beyond repair because of all of the discourse and confusion that occurred as a result of the narrative being manipulated by Spooky, something I felt largely at fault for for not noticing the signs sooner, and essentially facilitating their whole agenda early on.

	Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.		Therefore, for everyone's sake, I wanted to showcase my relations with Spooky and their group, and all of the problems that has caused for quite a lot of people. As stated, a part of me feels that I do not deserve a lot of the goodwill I've accumulated since then, and that at least some of the anger that was directed towards people like Hurtful, Anaxis, Skunt, Klop and others should have been directed towards me instead. A part of me even believes that I might have deserved to be betrayed by Spooky and get put on blast by them because of what I did to Hurtful by assuming the worst of him. I have let so many people down by doing so, and my only hope is that by sharing these chats, it'll finally tie some loose ends and all that happened during that period becomes more clear.