Jackie E-mails 19

October 22, 2010 - 10:32pm Hey Chris. I don't have much time to talk right now, I'll write more tomorrow. But I just wanted to say now that I have the final video planned for October 31 already, don't worry about that, but if also you want to do a Ghostbusters video for October 31 as extra credit, that's fine too. Maybe that can be part of your make-up work for being so late with your videos, actually. Yeah, that'd be perfect! And what about the comic pages? You already had the inspiration for them, you just needed to get it down on paper. We talked weeks ago and you said you would start working on it right away. Maybe if you didn't sit for hours pressing the power button on your broken computer despite me giving you a better solution, you could have spent the time drawing the pages like you promised Alec Benson Leary you would. It's one thing to have a lack of inspiration for a few days, but come on, you made him that promise to him way back in March. After eight months of doing nothing, that "no inspiration" excuse is getting old. Anyway, I'll write more tomorrow. Hope you and I can have another chat soon, hopefully on your new computer!! XO XO XO XO Jackie

October 23, 2010 - 7:21pm Hey Chris! Hey, I was thinking how the list of ideas I most recently sent you will be completed tonight, and I thought of the video I'd like you to do for tomorrow night. I want you record yourself standing on a scale (you must have one somewhere, right?) and point the camera down at the scale so I can see how much you weigh. Then, I want you to put all your hardcopy video games (from all systems) on the scale so I can see how much they weigh. Make sure you point the camera at the scale's reading clearly so I can make it out. Any idea on when you'll be able to upload these? You were going to sell a bulk of your games today so you could buy the new PC, right? XOXO Jackie

October 23, 2010 - 7:27pm I've been busy today. I recorded the video for today, I helped my mother do some cleaning around the house, and I too 7 PS3, 2 PSP, 4 Gamecube and 1 Wii game with over 15 DVDs to Plan 9; they gave me 48.75 in cash for it all; I accepted the cash, and deposited the bills into the bank afterwards. I would have e-mailed sooner, but I was sent out again on an errand of a pizza slice from Vinny's and a fill-up of petrol for my car. Other than that, I am still safe and well. I pray for your good health and safety as well. Still little luck on the reboot of the PC. At least my family will back me up on the new tower. I'll check in again later. Stay safe and sweet. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

October 23, 2010 - 11:00pm I was thinking about you, and it came to me; I hope you are not feeling neglected because of the time it's taking to get a new PC and such. Listen, YOU are Very Important to me; YOU mean more to me than anything non-living or aquaintial. You are NOT being neglected, You are being Loved and Cared about. And after we meet, I can and will show you how much you mean to me better than through e-mails and with asmuch or more than the energy I put into each of the videos I have made for you. I Love You Truly and a Lot.

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October 24, 2010 - 10:13pm I understand your feelings and concerns, and I am so sorry to hear the feelings of neglect. I'm going to drive to the Alderman and upload the videos tomorrow, and I'll sing the Full House theme for you beforehand. I weighed myself today; I'm currently 216 lbs. I have had less things to sell now, compared to when the replacement was made in September, so it is that much harder for me to make up for the new PC. Give me some credit; I have made 50 yesterday. I really want to be there with you to make you feel better, to console you, caress your cherry hair, tickle your facial cheeks, make you smile again and feel loved for as I will be able to when we meet. I do not want you to have to worry and fret about anything between us, because I am super damned serious when I tell you that you are most important to me, no doubt about it. After tomorrow, I will record all of the remaining costumed videos for you, for from Tuesday to Sunday, and upload them all on another trip to the Alderman about Wednesday. BTW, since I'll be uploading them all, the video of my day will not be edited together; I'll have to upload the videos that make up the whole in parts. I'll check in again later. Lots of Love for you only. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

October 25, 2010 - 3:40pm Hey Chris! Not much time to talk, but I just wanted to say two things quickly. First of all, thank you very much for making sure I'm going to have my videos. I'm glad that you see how much that means to me. We can talk more about the other parts as well when I have more time, too. I really look forward to seeing the new videos tonight! Secondly, you'll be doing the Full House video today, and after that I didn't give you any more specific instructions, correct? Don't plan any more costume or any other videos for tomorrow or the rest of the week. I've got some special ideas for the remainder of October that I want you to do. Like I said, no time to really go into detail right now, but I'll write more later tonight and tell you about them! XO XO XO XO Jackie

October 25, 2010 4:21pm That's fine, but I still plan on rockin' to Ghostbusters for Halloween (the 31st). And I would appreciate it if I did not have to go out for the remaining videos; I have been all over the town; I almost got lost on the detour on Rio Rd-Park St.; and I would like to save my gas for the Wednesday trip back here to the library. I have done a lot for you, Jackie, and I shall continue to do more for you after we meet as well. My mother slipped and hurt her knee on the day I recorded the day out video last Saturday, so that stress has weighed me down a bit then. I had to tend to her healing by rushing her an ice pack and paper towels. I'll check in again later; the videos should all be uploaded, all the way up to the Full House song. Tell me what in-home things I can do for you for the videos from tomorrow to Saturday, and I will get them all done tomorrow. I'll check in again later. Stay Safe and Sweet, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

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October 26, 2010 - 4:20pm I'll do all of that for you, but with such tall orders, It'll be Saturday when I'll drive to the library again and upload them all. BTW, have ypu figured out when you will be ableto meet me at the previously planned location; The starbucks by the China King Buffet, across from Fashion Square; we'll meet there in the parking lot, then I will show you a good time from there. I'll check in again later. Stay Safe and Sweet, Christian.

October 27, 2010 - 5:17pm Hey Chris! Just checking in, haven't heard from you in a while. How are the videos coming? You said you'd just go upload them all on Saturday, but is there some reason you can't make several trips, like one each day? I mean, it's just to the library and back. What else are you really doing? I feel like I cannot cherish each video when you just dump them all on me at once. Jackie

October 27, 2010 - 9:57pm The Alderman Library is over 25 miles from my house; I don't go out that much, and for when I do get the plans to go out, I would like to have the gas available to me, especially since the gas prices are up now. As for the computer, yes it was a 640 GB monitor-free computer for 500 I have in mind, and I do a lot more than internt surfing and whatnot dilly; I rip TV shows and movies sometimes with a DVD Decrypter and convert the .VOD file into a .mp4 file for viewings on the PC and the console. I scan, edit and create the drawings and such. I write and edit MSWord and Spreadsheet documents. I download from iTunes, Rhapsody and Napster sometimes, and keep the majority of my music and video files on the Pc's HDD. The one in the consideably dead PC has a 150 GB capacity and less than 2 GB free space now. I would need more storage space, obviously. And the computer has to be Brand New; I have checked around, and ONLY the Crappy off-brand PCs are less than 350. I want a computer that will not fail me so quickly, and this choice HP computer I have picked out is what I feel would be the best choice replacement. Anyway, I got 3 of the videos done now; I will have them all for upload Saturday, and you'll be watching them then. You will be pleased. I'll check in again later. Stay safe and sweet, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

October 28, 2010 - 8:30am Hi, Chris. You told ME that you were over your silly anger at Alec in the long, long, longwinded chat that we had a few weeks ago. And you also told me in no uncertain terms that you would do these videos exactly as I ask. So I suppose that was a lie, wasn't it? SIGH... Look Chris, I've put up with a lot of shit from you. When you asked if I was feeling neglected, I poured my heart out to you about how your addiction to that stupid toy PS3 is killing me. You responded back by ignoring most of what I said, then asking me to give you even LESS hard requirements for your remaining videos. You don't give me my videos on time. You don't do what it takes to get a new computer so you can do so. You couldn't even be bothered to drive to the damn library for over two weeks until I BEGGED you to do SOMETHING to get me my videos. Let me put it simply for you. You WILL do the parade pages, and you WILL do the rest of my videos exactly as I instructed. And you WILL write to Alec and ask him to talk to you so you can get all this bullshit anger out of your head once and for all. I will be writing to Alec to tell him to expect an email from you, and ask him to let me know if you follow through or not. You WILL do all these things, or I will NOT be coming to meet you. Because I'm really tired of listening to a guy tell me he loves me more than anything at the same time as he refuses to get rid of a damn video game console for me and tries to avoid and weasel out of what little work I ask of him. Don't write back telling me you love me and that you'll find "another" way to make me happy. Do what I asked you to do. THEN I'll know whether you love me or not. Jackie

October 28, 2010 - 11:57am I've put up with a lot from you too, and I have done what I was able to do within my limitations and whatnot. I feel like I am unappreciated after reading your last e-mail. I have e-mailed Alec and told him about the parade thing, and yes I do still have my mental hang-ups against him for the past reasons and others that remain only in the back of my mind beyond my knowledge, so I can't even put those reasons into words. I am not expected to make videos exactly to the letter; I am NOT a Daily Video type of person. I really did not want to make and upload any more videos for the Trolls to get more information about me from, and in due respect to my mother and father's requests and wishes to not drag them or myself down the drain on this the freakin' internet. I can not even get them involved in my videos I have been doing and will do for you, or even tell them about the communications between you and me. We all in this household have received threatening and mocking phone calls from the trolls, that we've become a bunch of frickin' screeners. If I told them about you at this time, they would assume you to be either a Troll, or THE Hooker the Trolls said they planned to send out to take my virginity and other crap against me there. They would not think that if you and I met in person in real life beforehand. I, myself, still and have been believing you and loving you and caring about you and just being devoted to you. I can't even do the Spaghetti video, because my mother has put a bunch of crap around and on the stove, and I would not know where to begin in relocating any of it. On a consolation, I am going to make a before and after video of me with my Oily, Stringy hair (as previously quoted by the trolls), which comes up only after a few days without a shower. And recently, I have been unable to take a shower, because my mother has a bunch of dirty laundry crowding the bathtub, and she has been too dragged down from her medications to muster her own energy to take care of it, and I myself do not know what to do with that. She plans on taking care of it today. Anyway, Before being the stringy, oily hair, and After will be after I take a shower, and my hair has had time to dry after being washed with AXE shampoo/conditioner with Anti-Dandruff formula. Yes, I have a spot of psoriasis. And it makes a huge difference in my hair's condition after being washed from being grimy. Also, I feel that if you really and truly loved me in return, you would meet me and date me and all that good stuff regardless of what I put up for videos. I have put up with your tough love and aggression in our past "discussions" (which would be misconstrued as Arguments by other people), and I have been and still Devoted and Loving and Caring for you regardless. And I have told you time and time again that You, as a person with Feelings, Care and Devotion to return to me, I care a LOT more about you than some high scores from any video game on any damn console. I dare say, it is your turn now. If you break up our relationship over some crappy videos and whatnot, then it will only show that I have misjudged you. You think about that a while. I still Love and Care about you a Lot, Jacklyn Romy. Stay Safe, Christian.