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On 17 [[February 2009]], after a long chat session on [[Mumble 8|Mumble]], Chris along with [[Julie]] called [[Clyde Cash]] to ask for help on the situation involving [[Sarah May]]'s suicide attempt on [[Skype]].

Over a decade later, two audio recordings of the call were leaked by [[Statustjej]] on 27 [[October 2025]], which they claimed to have uncovered from a file named "'''30 minutes of nothing at all'''.zip".

==Audio==
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| name           = Supporting Sarah May
|audio           = {{#ev:archiveorg|rec_bluespiketh_17_Feb_2009_20_08_47}}
| Stardate       = 17 February 2009
| Subject        = {{Tragedy|text}}, {{Crazy|text}}, {{Galpals|text}},{{Homos|text}},{{Sex|text}}, {{Autism|text}}
| Saga           = {{Julie|text}}
| previous       = 
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| other          = {{Leaked|text}}
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==Transcript==
===rec bluespiketh 17 Feb 2009 20 08 47.mp3===
[''Recording starts in the middle of conversation.'']

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> -heard something just went terribly wrong or somethin'.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah. Uh...

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> What- what happened?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Mmm... Well, yeah, there was like a talk- there was like conversation between, uh, [[Julie]] and [[Sarah May]], and [''[[sigh]]''] things got a little chaotic emotionally and... we fear that- n- she and I fear that Sarah May may kill herself.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> W-what happened exactly?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> [''sigh''] Couple times in the conversation when I was talking to Sarah, I w- I said Julie's name two or five times.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> My God, how can you make a mistake like that?

<font color="#CC00FF">'''Julie:'''</font> Chris, remember, he's trying to help us.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah. I- I- I glad- I don't know how I could make a mistake like that. Just happened. [''sigh''] [[Chris and remorse|But- and I realized I made the mistake, I apologized ''deeply'']], and...

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, you shouldn't- you're not- you're not gonna apologize to me, you should be apologizing to Sarah May!

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah. You're right, I should apologize to Sarah May.

<font color="#CC00FF">'''Julie:'''</font> I think we should have a moment of silence for the hopefully alive Sarah May.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I- I- I don't understand how you could make that mistake... Usually that kind of thing happens [[For Julie's Eyes Only|during sex]], but not during conversation. My God...

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Tell me about it.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Di- I mean... [''two consecutive sighs''] this... this is difficult to think about. I mean, can you contact her now?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, I'm- I'm going to send her an email.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Any quicker way? I mean, email would probably be too late.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Mm, well, let me see if she's on Skype... and if I could the thing-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Will she answer?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Uh, I dunno. I'm lookin'. Uh, she's- mmm... oh, sh- uh, sh- it says here she's not available... on Skype. Oh jeez. She changed her, uh, subtitle s- her, uh, saying that goes under her picture, saying "I just can't take it anymore. Julie, I'm sorry."

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> That's... probably not good. Ah, man. I don’t know- I don’t know what… if she’s dead, I don’t know what Sarah May’s family gonna do.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, I don’t know either.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I mean, the whole [[Ryan Cash]] thing, man, my brother… The reason we didn’t go after you was because it was partially his fault as well but… I don’t know, this time you caused a mistake and-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, I did make a mistake. I made a false, uh accusation in pro- I made a false- false statement in protest of the [[ED]] page. It was-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I know that. That’s the past. I’ve gotten over that, but-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> That’s good.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> [[Sarah McKenzie]], my future child. Don’t wanna bring that up. This is more important. Is there any other way you can contact her?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Hmm. I’m- I’m typing the m- I’m sending her the message on the Skype right now.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> If-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I do- It’s not like I have- I do not have her phone number.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I don’t know what her family’s gonna do to you. They could be just ruthless. I mean, [[Chris and the law|you’ve been in court before]], right? Do you have any defense for yourself?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Hmm. Umm, what do you mean? Like, an attorney?

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Sure. I mean, if you’re gonna go to court over this- Making a mistake like that, it’s manslaughter. Accidental cause.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Umm. I don’t really have a lawyer of my own at this point, but I’m sure I can find one. If- If the- If- If anything arises from this.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> You know where?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I’m sorry, “I know where?”

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Do you know where to find one?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, there’s lawyers in Charlottes- There’s attorneys in Charlottesville.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, hopefully you get a good one. You don’t wanna get a bad one for sure.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> It’s different to win and lose a case, man. Wouldn't wanna see you go to prison.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Well, thank you. Thank you, Clyde

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Look, it’s been a long time since your mom’s been back home. Just started driving again. Driving- Driving- Driving, and I’ve given a lot of thought into, you know, [[Vivian|my cousin]]’s been trying to help you for a while and I realize you need a lot more help than- I don’t know. You really need to seek more help.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I do not disagree with you. I do not disagree.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I mean, you got that [[Rocky]] person.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, she’s a pastoral counselor at my church.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, that’s more religious.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> It’s like I confide in her as if she was a psychiatrist.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> How about another one? You gotta find, like, a-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> She has a degree in that sort- In that field.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> But is she treating you with that degree? She’s been doing from- with religious stance, not from a psychological-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, she has.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Do you know that for sure?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I know that because we have our meetings weekly.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> A psychiatrist would meet with you probably more often. I’ve only been to a psychiatrist once - maybe twice, I can’t remember - but it was a daily thing for about two weeks and then it was all done. You should probably find something like that: just a quick, intense session for a lot of things. Whatever’s on your mind.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, well, that’s- Rocky covers that field.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> But, like this is over her entire-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> And plus- And plus, I can call her on my cellphone and talk about what’s on my mind as well.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> [''sigh''] Right after I told you about Sarah Mackenzie’s death, Julie told me that you went off to have sex with her or something.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> [''sigh'']

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Why would you do that?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay, Clyde. I know it seems- I know it looks bad, but, you see, I heard about the fires in Australia the previous- the Sunday before from The Washington Post, so therefore- so the- I ha-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Yeah, I know that.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> So I got the tears and those emotions more less, uh, taken care of on that Sunday, and by the time you told me in the Mumble chat and, uh, you know… There was time between that and then uh- and then- And then befo- later when Julie and I, uh, talked at that time between you told me and that… I basically, uh, recovered since I got the majority of those sad emotions out of the way that Sunday previously.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> That seems like an awfully awful timing for that.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, I-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> And Julie’s been talking about these cyber sex things: that you shouldn't do it anymore, at least before marriage or something like that, but… She explained a ton. But the times you did do it, she said you seemed to have trouble, you know, [[Mass debating|“getting there”]], you know what I mean?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I have trouble coming up with a good sugge- Good scenario.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> No, no, no, I mean, reaching, you know… Goddamnit.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I have reached an [[Cum|orgasm]] with Julie.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> “Reach an orgasm.” Man… But, it takes- She said it takes you a long time.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Well, because she’s not here in person. I tried usi-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I mean, you got your imagination, man.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Well, sometimes my imagination doesn’t work as well as it could.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, there’s things about the mind. Like you said, you had, like, random [[homosexual]] thoughts or something like that. Like, you had random thoughts. It’s possible to get rid of those, you know that, right?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Uh, yeah, to push them aside and try to get back to the issue at hand, yes.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> No, there’s an actual way to get rid of those kind thoughts. I mean, I've been driving people for a living. We often talk about these things. I got two cases like yours. I mean, like, what kinda thoughts do you have that interfere? 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Like, it can be considered anything that’s different from the main topic, I guess, you know.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, could you be specific because you know I’m able to help. I’ve helped a few people with this because I’ve actually, you know, had sex.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Alright, alright, alright.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> So I could help with this, and my first few times, as I told you, were bad. But I can help you with this so your first time after marriage is good.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Alright, so sometimes, randomly an image of a penis will pop up in my head and that just- and that just turns me- and that just turns me off.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, is it [[Duck|yours]]? Is it [[Pickle|someone else’s]]? Because if it’s yours, it’s fine, you know, thinking about yourself.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Well, you see, I don’t remember exactly. It could’ve been mine. It could've been one I've seen in the [[pornography]]. But it’s kinda hard to tell, because, you know, it’s like a camera flash.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I see. Anything else?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> And also, the, uh-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> That doesn’t seem- I mean, sometimes I think about that. It doesn’t affect me.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> But also the audio accusations that I’ve heard from people from among my- from among my disloyal fanbase. And also, uh, the ED page, and even reading the words in the- Even reading the words, that uh, hmm, say- Read the words: “My name” is gay. Christian. The sentence is like-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I don’t understand.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> The sentence is like, uh, “them call me gay”, and that bothers me.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, that’s a different issue, I mean… If you’re turned off by that: I mean, people who, like, think about other men during sex, that’s different. This is something else. I mean, why would that affect you that much. You know it’s not true, right?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, because they were theorizing wrong, and for the while I was trying to clear up my name and prove to them that I wasn’t- that I wasn’t gay. I was straight.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> What do you think makes people think that you’re gay? What do you think you’re doing?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Possibly some of the images I’m drawing in my comics could be misinterpreted to make them seem gay or something like that. And, plus, also, there was the loose talk of me getting the [[dildo]], of which, by the way, I got for f- as a free bonus gift with purchase of a female love doll from AdamAndEve.com. And another free gift that came later… Uh, a set of anal beads, which I never used that either.{{refn|group="footnote"|Chris did use the anal beads.}} So it’s between the loose talk of those free gifts and them making- and them making- making up theories that are false and wrong.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> But that shouldn’t affect you during sex, is the thing.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Yeah, hmm. But, still, not just during sex but also, you know, even when I'm not having sex or even just any other- Any other time of the day, and it’s just- And it just bothers me.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> See, that just- That’s different. Talking like a gay person, if you always keep thinking about those things.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I don’t always think about them.

===rec bluespiketh 17 Feb 2009 20 48 26.mp3===
{{Transcript}}

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay so, we are all back together again on this conversation.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Yeah, have you managed to contact uhh Sarah May? 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> [''sigh''] No she hadn't replied. I'm still worried about her there. 

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> [''sigh''] There's some girls that Julie is worried about. She's still a bit shaken up from the whole Sarah May thing so, she-

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> I'm still shake- I'm still shaken up about it too.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Yeah, she's still worried about a future with you again. I may have to... what kind of job are you looking for? I heard you were looking for a job. 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Oh yeah, [''clears throat''] excuse me, yeah I have been looking for like you know whatever good job is in [[Charlottesville]] uhhh I found some that I may that I- will be- um will be cons- that I am considering calling them up- calling them up about.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Uh have you got a resume prepared? 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> [''sigh''] I do not know how to prepare a resume.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well there's a bunch of guides on the internet, pretty straight forward, you know, basic stuff. It's not that hard. 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Just remember that [''unclear''], just remember that they'll be looking over it for about like 30 seconds so you got to make it concise and stuff, only the most important things go on that.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> That's all the advise I got for you there.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Alright.

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> I mean what kind of specific jobs are you looking for?

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Mmmm lets see um... uuhhm yeah something like you know possibly architecture since I got my [[CADD]] degree and-

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well what have you looked at specifically, like what position? 

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Mmm well I don't know what, I don't know, I don't know of any specific positions but you know something architecture or maybe something that work that allow me to work around computers. 

<font color="#4DBD33">'''Clyde:'''</font> Well, make a list and get back to me on that okay, I just want to see what kind of positions you are applying for.

<font color="#0033FF">'''Chris:'''</font> Okay.

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