Jackie E-mails 12

August 31, 2010 - 6:29pm The Drawing; I've just told you; that one with you and me in a Pool of water in the Hot Tub with Men and Women Jerking around us in a Circle IS the final version. You can barely see anyone jerking off IN COMFORT while they're in the water; it is better done, and drawn, OUT of the water. And it is Uncensored; I can't help it if sometimes men cover the Tip of their dicks with their own hands while masturbating. sigh* I'm just tired after a long day out. No pickle-breasted woman showed up during the whole Hour I was there; from 1:30 to 2:30. I've just e-mailed Tito to be more direct; send the agent with the Cash directly to my house; I wait for his response. I Meant what I had said in the Freedom from the addictions, AND the loneliness put into the Data that was in the PS3 before the Memory Wipeout. And I meant it when my actions in destroying the console were releasing that same past Me from my life. On the other hand, between Clyde and Tito asking for MORE evidence above SOLID evidence that I've destroyed that console in Moving Forward with my life, and Frustrating me in doing More and More Destruction after the release of the Past Me, and the sense of Moving Forward in the past destruction... I detest NOT being believed in for the God Blessed Honest Truth and Emotions I've been going through the past weekend. And now, with the chase I'm going through to get the Reward Money for You And Me in Our Future and paying off my debt to my father, the emotions that remain True, I Swear to God, as from the past weekend, it just frustrates me that I'm not getting the compensation that I have earned from Showing Them I Am and Have Moved Forward from the Addiction... sigh* My mind is befuddled. To answer your questions. 1. I was not lying to you; I can live without the console. The only influence that has made an impression of a change is the chase for the cash reward, making me seek the "Plan B" to make even an inkling of that reward for myself. 2. As I have told you, a lot of the data is recoverable (more or less), and I did not say getting a new one would make up for the old memories; I meant that getting the replacement will create NEW memories of the more positive Me that has come around since you returned to me. Another way I can put it; the Old data was lonely from not having someone to share it with; now I have you and our future to create the new memories with on there. I may or may not be making sense, but it is the honest truth from my heart. 3. No, I did not deliberately lie to my parents to get a new PS3 from them. I lied to them, because if they knew the PS3 was still functional Before I destroyed it, they would feel MORE devastated and distrustful of me. I would rather they think it was a Lost Cause before the destruction. Think of it this way, Hypothetically, let's say you had a dress that still looked great on you (maybe a Favorite Dress), but it was something from Last Decade and out of current fashion. Your friends tell you to burn the dress. Then you burn the dress from your friends' suggestion. You end up telling your parents of the event, but you lie about it by saying that the dress did not fit anymore; it was torn up in more ways than one and you could not fix it after trying vigorously again and again; you burn it for the views and opinions of your friends, leaving your parents thinking it was a Lost Cause anyway. 4. No, I have not been lying to my parents of Troll influence. I honestly feel that I have more control over myself than the trolls would. It is the ideas my mother and father have had in opinion of me after my Past mistakes of making the terrible videos of myself, the house tour, self-nudity, etc. from either blackmail, requests from my ex-girlfriends, etc. And with that, I was very distraught after the deaths of my past girlfriends; it would haunt me for Weeks to Months before I would move forward. This also includes after learning that the "Girlfriend" was actually a Troll the whole time, such as "Julie", but with those individuals, I recover more quickly, because Liars and Fakes don't get as much sympathy or sadness as the Real, Honest People who actually have died or left me. 5. I did not say that; Seeing you is more important to me than any video game, regardless of time or money spent on it. And I did not mean to imply that the PS3 was an "old friend" that I've "murdered"; when I said all that, I was speaking Metaphorically. Also, earlier today, out of frustration, and further moving forward from the addiction, I pawned off my Nintendo 64 AND all of the games and accessories. I would have also pawned off my Genesis/Sega CD/32X, but the color output was wonkey; the pawner passed on it and all of the software with it. Anyway, I got $40 for the N64 and its stuff. I'm thinking of going onto Craigslist with my Upgraded Genesis with the software bunch, or seeing if I can find someone who's hosting a yard sale in the Community Yard Sale to sell it all for me (no haggling; the price would be set for $80). I got to go eat something for dinner, but I'll TTYL. Stay Safe and Sweet, XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

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September 1, 2010 - 11:47am Well I've just took a look out back; Nothing has changed with the doghouse, and no holes were made and no ground uprooted. That dude is just blowing smoke. I did give you a bunch of men; Four of them, Plus ONE who Came then left. It was an alternating sequence; man, woman, man, woman, etc. Firstly, I appreciate your understanding and response to my answers to your questions. But for #5, I may have misworded it, but I literally did try to raise the money for Otakon that week; I sold a bunch of DVDs and CDs to Plan9; I ended up with a total of $40. I was still in the phase of learning to get along without the background of games and older consoles collecting dust and selling them later. And I made the money from the N64 for my saving; I still have it. And later, I learned that GameStop was still accepting Game Boy Advance and GameCube titles, so I later rushed out with a hefty handful of them, including my secondary Pok'emon games I realized I did not require; Sapphire, LeafGreen and Pearl, and my Nintendogs game along with the GBA and GameCube titles selected to move on from. I made $100 Store Credit. And with that credit, my family and I did sit down and discuss a loan for the remaining 200 towards the replacement PS3. They loaned it to me with the term of 100 a month for the next two months. But the point is, I earned a Huge Chunk of Respect from both my mom and dad from the effort. I understand that counters and coincides with my past truth of getting along without it for a month. But I'll make you a deal, Jackie. Starting on the day you and I meet, I promise to go a whole month without using any of my game consoles, including Handhelds, with you as my eye-witness. If I win, nothing will change, and we will continue towards our happy future together. But if I lose, I will give you $50 cash, and we will still continue towards our happy future together. Either way, we both win. I have to do some light-re-situating, but I will have the shadow interview video recorded this week. I'm not surprised that between Tito AND Clyde, they would Not come through at all with the reward. I'll forward you new e-mails I've received recently. Tito is making up a Fictional meeting between him and me happening, when IT DID NOT. Their Agent recorded me sitting there waiting and posted it onto YouTube with a damn rumor attached to it. Now they want me to Beg. I've played their Goose-Chase for long enough, and I do not want anything of this anymore. They are NOT going to give me the "reward" regardless of what I do at all. They're all bastards. I'll also have "Junior" speak ill of Tito and Clyde after what I've told him what happened. I'll even blow the lid on the recent "Bone Excavating" too. sigh* You are more important to me than any video game; I WOULD move mountains to get to you, but I have my financial situation that puts me on a fixed where affording to Immediately travel is not doable, even WITHOUT buying Anything New throughout the month. I have to eat and get gas for my car too. But Locally, I am still able to go out, afford to treat you to good things on our dates, and put all of my heart and soul into it and into you. Do not ever doubt my solid emotions for you, Jacklyn. I Want You by my side As Soon As Possible and Forever after that more than any material thing in the whole world. I gtg eat lunch, but I'll TTYL. Stay Safe and Sweet, Sweetheart, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

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September 2, 2010 - 11:06am Chris, where have you been? I didn't hear from you at all yesterday, is everything alright? I'm starting to get a little worried. Jackie

September 2, 2010 - 3:35pm I'm sorry for not replying yesterday. In the morning, I had to hang with my mother while she went in for her liver checkup (I think that's what it was about), and she gave a bit of blood shortly before as well. We had some breakfast (she ate later), and met my father at the usual gas station where he buys his weekly lottery tickets. I invest $4 weekly between Win For Life and Mega Millions; two plays each. And in the afternoon, I hung with my father for lunch. And redownloaded all of the update data for my PS3 disc games (Eye of Judgment was the longest to update, so I watched Disc 8 of the "Daria" DVD set; it included the final two episodes and both movies during that update. I felt sleepiest during the 7:00 PM hour while Motorsorm was updating, and I was given the option to restart my PS3, so I shut it down for the night and crashed. Today so far, I went with my father for morning coffee, and just got back from sharing a baked potato with him at Wendys and walking around Food Lion for a bit. I finished the Disc Game Updates, now I'm working on the Download Games and Add-Ons; I had redownloaded all of the LBP and MNR DLC, Premium and Dynamic Themes and Avatars First Items right after booting up the new PS3 and reformatting the 500GB HDD. Aside from that, in response to your concerns about Patti, and they go greatly appreciated. Thank you. :) But I did not just glance over the area, I went over it extensively; I saw NO difference from past times at all. So, you have no need to worry. And I've read the Forum topic more; they're just blowing smoke, making up crap. Besides which, for your information and Confidential, Patti was buried in the cardboard box the vet put her in, encased with a re-enforced Solid Wooden Crate my father and I put together with screws and nails, and was buried with the two Towels we had to use the day she died to clean her with. And with all that, A) they would NOT be able to "polish" the bones, because the flesh and fur would still be plentiful on the body. B) The bones would NOT be covered in Dirt and Soil, because of the body being in a cardboard box, encased in a Nailed and Screwed Wooden Crate with No Holes. And C) there are a LOT of Trees and Branches surrounding the Doghouse and Cement Blocks that rest over her buried, enclosed, secured body, so there is Very Little Chance of ANYONE getting to the doghouse and moving it. Plus, there are some Poison Ivy in that area. So, ANY photos they would have taken would have Flesh and Fur on those Bones, and the Crate, Nails, Screws and Box the body was in. Their photograph is of some other damn sack of bones from some other dirt site. Plus they do not mention Anything of the Crate and the Trees, OR even the Gazebo. I still yearn for you by my side, Jacklyn. Is there any update on When you'll be returning to Virginia, so we can schedule the Date? I want you here Badly. You give me the shine in my days that make them better with your sweetness and understandings. You are SOO Cool, Sweetheart. Please let me know in your reply. Stay Safe and Sweet, XOXOXOXO <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Christian.

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September 2, 2010 - 3:57pm Chris, I just sent you a very long email, but honestly I have a feeling you'll just ignore it because it takes too many minutes to read, so I'm sending you this short one to make sure you understand me: Read the entirety of that long email, think about it, and respond to EVERY ONE of my questions and concerns. I don't care if it takes you two hours to do this, you do it. Or I'm through with you. Jackie