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I continued on with as optimistic an attitude and faith in others as possible, as well as the faith in the better outcomes I have [[foreseen]] between numerous [[dreams]] and visions. It became tough to hold on to that faith at times, I have been tested time, time, time, and again. [''dramatic sigh''] And of course, that includes ''all'' of the theoretical exes. That includes the relation- the... ''friendship'' that I had with [[Megan Schroeder]]. And... just... the acquaintances... and friendships... that I at one point wanted to be romantic, but obviously that was not going to ever be the case. [''dramatic breath''] Just... yep. | I continued on with as optimistic an attitude and faith in others as possible, as well as the faith in the better outcomes I have [[foreseen]] between numerous [[dreams]] and visions. It became tough to hold on to that faith at times, I have been tested time, time, time, and again. [''dramatic sigh''] And of course, that includes ''all'' of the theoretical exes. That includes the relation- the... ''friendship'' that I had with [[Megan Schroeder]]. And... just... the acquaintances... and friendships... that I at one point wanted to be romantic, but obviously that was not going to ever be the case. [''dramatic breath''] Just... yep. | ||
The indirect comments, the bad arts, I should never ever take it personally. Had I never flipped at a- had I never taken any of them personally, had I never [[Google|Googled]] my name after getting that [[Nintendo Wii]]... Had... such things been different as early as [[2006]]. Things would be a lot different today... [''dramatic sigh''] | |||
With each time of abuse, and deception, and betrayal, I felt disappointment and I felt hatred towards those individuals who had done these things upon me, [[Borb|my family]], as well as those around me, and other people in general over the years. Suffice to say, this is very bad and very wrong. | |||
I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [''dramatic sigh''] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the screams and shouts go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get Classic Chris-Chan back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [''dramatic breath''] | |||
I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- been maturing. [''dramatic sigh''] That was, as you can tell, from as early as [[2011]] or [[2012|'12]]. And eventually, I finally stopped ''sharing'' and oversharing personal and life details and events. Why? ''Because that should have never been done in the first place''. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [''dramatic exhale, then sigh''] | |||
I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and shit from ''over'' the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the livestreams. [''dramatic sigh''] [[Chris and his ego|I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated]]. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived ''based'' on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [''dramatic sigh''] | |||
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Revision as of 09:10, 20 May 2025
Grounded Deep Response is a video published to Chris's YouTube channel on 19 May 2025. It is likely inspired from Saberspark's video titled "Response", as Chris has not only watched that video[1] and also praised it for the honesty within,[2] but Saberspark is also briefly mentioned in the video itself. Instead of addressing something serious, like allegations of sexual misconduct as Saberspark had done, Chris chooses to complain about receiving too much hate and sarcastic comments during his livestreams, making him consider quitting streaming unless he starts receiving TRUE and HONEST appreciation and praise. Chris also mentions betrayal and mistrust, but it's unclear whether he's strictly referring to his theoretical exes, or possibly the person who had secretly recorded their phone call just two days prior to the video's upload.
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| Grounded Deep Response | |
| Search for video | YouTube, archive |
| Stardate | 19 May 2025 |
| Performance Style |  Reason
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| Saga |  Revelations
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Transcript
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[stress sigh] Hey everybody. Jesus Christine Weston Chandler Sonichu Prime here once again... and I am being very serious. For the sake of transparency, I have disabled this green screen filter and I have some notes. Which essentially—to be honest—is pretty much my dialogue. Mm- But, I'm still gonna take my time, so I may be a bit slow, so there you go... [dramatic sigh]
Since I start on my- my online presence, and attempted at being more social and individual after having moved back to Ruckersville, [dramatic sigh] I felt like I had been met by a real mixed bag of individuals. [dramatic breath] Over the years, I have been mentally and emotionally abused, manipulated, deceived, pressured, and just simply... stressed. [dramatic sigh]
For the long time—still am—I have had an amount of optimism in the goodness of others on this Earth. I was naive for a long time, but over the decades I have learned over and over hard about such individuals and... [dramatic sigh] These details I should've been more aware of for the longer time. But, I have found myself, and I count the blessings I have now, and the good times I actually had in the past, that actually helped to develop me for the better, [dramatic sigh] on top of the bad. But... the mixture of the toxic individuals, just in general, made me feel upset and distraught.
I continued on with as optimistic an attitude and faith in others as possible, as well as the faith in the better outcomes I have foreseen between numerous dreams and visions. It became tough to hold on to that faith at times, I have been tested time, time, time, and again. [dramatic sigh] And of course, that includes all of the theoretical exes. That includes the relation- the... friendship that I had with Megan Schroeder. And... just... the acquaintances... and friendships... that I at one point wanted to be romantic, but obviously that was not going to ever be the case. [dramatic breath] Just... yep.
The indirect comments, the bad arts, I should never ever take it personally. Had I never flipped at a- had I never taken any of them personally, had I never Googled my name after getting that Nintendo Wii... Had... such things been different as early as 2006. Things would be a lot different today... [dramatic sigh]
With each time of abuse, and deception, and betrayal, I felt disappointment and I felt hatred towards those individuals who had done these things upon me, my family, as well as those around me, and other people in general over the years. Suffice to say, this is very bad and very wrong.
I still know and appreciate that forgiveness is indeed the better way, [dramatic sigh] because I would just be letting the villains win if I just let the hatred consume me, if I just let the screams and shouts go out all over the place. But that is not me at all. At is- It has been more clear from time to time... "Oh look, we're finally going to get Classic Chris-Chan back!", ha ha. Yes, no. We are never, ever, ever, ever doing that again. [dramatic breath]
I have been slowly but surely mentally, and emotionally, and spiritually- been maturing. [dramatic sigh] That was, as you can tell, from as early as 2011 or '12. And eventually, I finally stopped sharing and oversharing personal and life details and events. Why? Because that should have never been done in the first place. But under emotional dis- pressure, and my being naive, I had lacked that common sense. [dramatic exhale, then sigh]
I feel like there is just so much hatred and discomfort inside me towards those online. With that needless hatred-sh- and shit from over the pla- decades, that I just do not feel at ease doing the livestreams. [dramatic sigh] I feel like my development and maturity is just not appreciated. I feel the fact that I had found myself is not appreciated. And I feel like I continue to be perceived based on past versions of myself that I am no longer whatsoever. And I simply cannot feel good about it or laugh it off, and that is regardless of my prior lack of awareness of how I am perceived. [dramatic sigh]
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