Jackie E-mails 28

More e-mails between Chris and Jackie.

Note: Some of the names in these emails have been redacted in order to defend the innocent.

June 3, 2011 10:35pm Hey Chris! Sorry I haven't written back sooner, hectic couple of days. I really like the purse! You have such an eclectic design milieux, I love seeing the stuff that you make. Don't worry about being cautious with this picture - I understand you being a bit wary, what with my email account being hacked and whatnot in the past. I saved a copy of the picture so I could keep it but deleted the email right after. Your cool designs are safe with me. ;) Anyway, thanks for your kind words regarding my mother's bad past. She has had a hard life, many trials and hardships have awaited her. She has a happy life now but it still pains her if these sore subjects are brought up so my family likes to just focus on the good times. Thanks for asking about Blueberry! Would you believe it, he flew over to my friend's house when he left? Right through her window! My friend had a hell of a time getting Blueberry into a corner where she could capture him and keep him safe, but eventually she did and called me, and I was able to go retrieve him. (My friend lives right down the street but still, I think it's damn lucky he wound up there.) Anyway, he's safe and sound, and I'm glad to have him back. So what else is going on with you? How are your parents? Are they still giving you any guff over your lifestyle? I feel like I'm aching to hear about what's been going on with you because I haven't been able to talk to you in a couple days. Jackie

June 4, 2011 10:10am I am happy to hear about Blueberry's safe return to your care.  :) Thank you for your compliment of my purse's front compiliation. The Squinkies are optional for hooking onto such a size ring with a bracelet hook followed by placing any Squinkie on the peg. I am looking into other craft ideas involving Squinkies (without damaging them, and without gluing them); as an avid collector, I feel better in allowing my craft using decorative collectables to be optionally removable. I mean, it is soo stylish and super cute, but conditions may wear on them between weather, and newspaper ink (I think). Mom and Dad still give me grief on being Tomgirlly sometimes, but not as much due to not wearing my skirts and high heels in front of them. I will still wager that if I have a pretty and smart woman like you by my side, and in mutual true love, appreciate me in fullest makeup and dress in front of them a number of times, they will more likely back off. Or otherwise Positive Verbal or Hand-Written Feedback on me and my feminine attire from women. The other night, I went out to Sheetz for my mother to get her two hot dogs for a dollar; some male sees me in one of my tanks and jeans; fucking asks me "Are you gay?" "No, I AM a Tomgirl", I replied. I felt pissed off to be asked that. I:( Especially after ALL of the shit I got from the Trolls and Cyber-Bullies with their Mislabeling me and shit. Hell, if anything, I would feel a LOT better being mistaken for a woman or even better and more accurate, a Lesbian.  :) Upon self-reflection, I feel that all things considered... Between not caring much for the Majority of the male population, coping and socializing more easily and being best attracted to women, me being a Tomgirl and being most comfortable in skirt, heels, sexy/cute top or full dress, long, curled hair and makeup... I would Best fit in at an All-Woman (Lesbian) Bar. :) Have you checked out the Tomboy/Tomgirl Forum yet? I wrote among my posts the story of me starting and feeling comfort in using the ladies' restroom. I prefer to squat over standing.  ;) In case I have not mentioned it before, my avatar on that forum is an image of Applejack from the new "Friendship is Magic" generation of My Little Pony. I would have gone with Rainbow Dash, but someone else on there has already chosen her for their avatar, and I did not want to come off as an avatar copycat. And with my sense of picking choice designs and fashion sense, I feel more like Rarity. I am very complex. I wish I could afford the prices to have my face, legs, arms and torso waxed in a nail salon or spa, so I wouldn't have to worry about shaving. Yes, I do go Brazillian too.  ;) On another topic, the pastor of my church will be moving in a few weeks, and I have drawn a cute drawing of her baptizing a cow (she really likes cows; she has a collection of cow figures; so cute). And I felt inspiration to write an elaborate, sweet poem on there as well. I will share the drawing and poem with you after the image-sharing check. I am also going to frame the original drawing (keeping a photocopy for myself) and attach a double set of Squinkies to the edge. I was hoping to find a cow Squinkie, but after checking online AND in the stores, a cow has not yet been designed. Otherwise, I would have like 4 or 6 cows on the frame. Also, with the drawing, I think it is one that even the people of India would appreciate; they worship the cow there.  :) That's all for now. I'll check in again later. Stay Safe with Care, Christian.

June 5, 2011 8:38pm Hey Chris! You're welcome about the purse! It's always nice to see you make use of your creative talents because you have such a deep well of ideas. And it's also practical to make sure that you don't let any of it become damaged or worn more than necessary. You should keep it up! I have taken quite a look at the tomgirl forum. It looks really cool! It looks like you've found some pretty intelligent and friendly folks there to make friends with. But I notice, you only have about 7 posts, and you haven't been back there in a few days. Are you losing interest? I don't think you should, these are people who share a lot in common with you and you should try to participate more and become friends with them. Especially because it looks like they do regular meet-ups, so you can hang out with some new friends in real life. I found a thread about it here: http://tomboytomgirls.44.forumer.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=27&sid=94131f2d5ebcf6bee8c1caf474493af3 So you should try to get to know these people some more, I think you'll be glad you did. Anyway, I look forward to seeing your cow drawings, please show me as soon as you feel comfortable. I'll talk to you more later! Jackie

June 6, 2011 11:00am Well, I have also been busy here and there with family times and dramas (also getting in on the freebies from the reopened PlayStation Store). I still feel uneasy in online socializing, I am skeptical with getting too close with people online, and I have to be cautious of any possible cyber-bullies. It is one thing to tell true stories while remaining under a cloak of anonimity and screen name; it is entirely something else in pouring one's heart out and risk being found out who he/she is in real life, followed by risk of being made fun, blackmail and all that shit. Not to mention my discomfort with trying to cope with other males. ...Pretty much, I am in constant observation-only mindset when it comes with the other Tomgirls to verify and further learn the ins and outs of being one myself. What else is going on with you, Jackie? And I still long for meeting you in person. I would most definitely feel more comfortable and likely to lift up all of my emotional walls upon meeting you in person and hanging out for a while. I do not mean to put pressure on you or anything like that; if anything I have been feeling most of the emotional pressure. I'll TTYL. Stay Safe with Care, Christian.

June 6, 2011 6:40pm Oh. Well if you don't want to do anything with them why did you want me to take a look at the forum? It looks legit to me but if you'd rather not make any friends, that's your choice. But Chris, you have to consider that I am not a tomgirl. I can be sympathetic and all, but I don't know what it's like to be a tomgirl, and I just can't give you all the support you need. But these people at this forum are just like you - they can offer the advice, emotional support, and strategies you need to make yourself the best tomgirl you can be. Don't be scared of what you can accomplish, Chris. I believe in you! Jackie

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