Jackie E-mails 24

On 7 December 2010, only a couple of weeks after Chris has cut contact with her, Jackie renewed her correspondence with him. While several videos Chris made for Jackie after the renewal of their relationship were eventually leaked, no recording of the pair's communications have been revealed until 27 April 2013, when an email from Chris to Jackie dated 5 August 2011 (seen at the bottom of the page) was leaked on the CWCki forums. Further emails between the two spanning from December 2010 to July 2011 were leaked on 6 May 2013. Help in transcribing the correspondence will be much appreciated.

December 7, 2010 - 7:15pm Title: RE: Take this to heart Hey Chris! How's it going? Just wanted to check in. How is the outside socialization thing going? Have you met a lot of new people or gone new places since you stopped talking to me? Or are you still just sitting alone playing video games all day? The PSN counts as internet you know, so you're being a hypocrite if you're still enslaved to that thing. Jackie

December 7, 2010 - 7:36pm Title: RE: Take this to heart Hey, Jackie. Well, currently, I'm not making much progress in making new friends, but I have been going out more. I am still frozen and clammed up in mass public. And for your information, I said SOCIALIZING on the Internet was bad, NOT the whole Internet in general. Yet while I do sometimes play on PSHome, a social Gaming Network, I still am frozen in that public setting with my Avatar, and I mainly focus on the Single-Player exploring and play. How are things with you and Lars? Stay Safe and Well, Christian.

December 7, 2010 - 8:03pm Title: :) Well, Lars and I are doing okay. He's still in addiction counseling right now - not that he's had any problems or relapses or such, but he's being proactive and just setting up a good support system for himself. We're both looking into the future, you know how it is. I guess I was confused when you said the internet was bad. What exactly about internet socialization is so bad? Is it just about the trolls you've met? Or is it because none of your relationships online have worked out thus far? You know, maybe you should try going on facebook. I know you used to do well talking to people there a long time ago. And plus, the thing about facebook is that trolling can't really work on facebook. Maybe join a group on there and chat up some new people, share your common interests. You could use an alter ego if you want, since I know you wouldn't want people searching for the name Christian Weston Chandler. Just a thought. Jackie

December 19, 2010 - 8:42pm Title: What's up? Hey Chris! Long time no talk. What's been happening with you lately? I just wanted to see how things are going.

December 21, 2010 - 7:31pm Title: ? Wow Chris, you must be on that PSN even more than you ever have been before if you can't even take the time to spend two minutes writing to me. I thought you wanted to work on building social skills?

December 21, 2010 - 7:47pm Title: Something that can help you Wow, you must be busy these days. I hope offline socialization is working out for you. But hey, I found something while perusing the internet that you might be interested in. It's a dating site for people that are kind of shy like yourself and are sometimes socially awkward, so they're much more open and understanding to your sort of situation. Now I know what you'll say, you don't want to meet people online, but this site has an extremely stringent scanning process to weed out fake information - there's no possible way for a troll or faker to get membership. You'll have to give your real address and other such information in order to confirm yourself, and everyone else has to do the same. I recommend you try it out: https://www.wewaited.com/index.php Let me know how it goes! Jackie

December 22, 2010 - 9:46pm Thank you for the suggestiion. I have looked over the front page and bookmarked. I will keep it in mind and consider it well. I'm still in little luck in real life socializing, but I am getting out more. On the other hand, now the Trolls are stalking me through my PSN; they're claiming a "bug" is in my console, but the ONLY real bug was in my Friends List, with ANY of the latter being their "reporter". So I cleared it out. I know this, because they've added a "PSNTracker" template on their damn CWCki. For Christmas this year, I would really like EVERY last webpage of every website the Trolls have created against me; EVERY last HTML code, EVERY last image, EVERY last Link and Reference to them, Including the CWCki and Especially the whole damn Encyclopedia Dramatica... GONE, DELETED, WIPED OFF from the face of the Internet and the World FOREVER, never to be revived, recreated or reuploaded again ever. So then I won't be portrayed as a monster, because I am not a monster. I am a near-normal Straight Human Male like every other Straight Human Male on this planet. *sigh* You all have a Merry Christmas, and Stay Safe, Christian.

February 25, 2011 - 7:15pm Title: RE: Take this to heart Hey Chris! Long time no talk, but I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday! Hope you had fun today. What have you been doing with yourself lately? I hope you found someone special to share your special day with. Any major developments going on? Well, just wanted to say hi. Hope to hear from you! Jackie

March 26, 2011 - 4:47pm Title: Hey Jackie Yes, it has been a long while since we last talked. At least since Feb. 25 when you sent me the birthday greeting. First off, the e-mails I am sending you are strictly confidential; do not share the content of anything I sent to you with anyone, including Lars. I have gone through an emotional 180, more or less, within the past month. In a nutshell, I have grown my hair out, and continuing to let it grow. I have learned the best term to describe me, Tomgirl.  :) Yes, I am a Tomgirl, and I am damn proud of it. I have embraced and appreciated my feminine side. I am still totally heterosexual. Otherwise, I would be a full-blown you-know-what. I also have had my ears pierced with amythest studs (my birthstone) recently. I have been more self-confident, and I have a sweet sashay walk, hair and wink flirts, and I am greeting women left and right. Hello.  ;) Also, here is another way to consider me, I am a Ken doll any Barbie CAN dress in her clothes, and I would feel most comfortable in them and to model them for her. Come shopping with me, sweetie.  ;) In addition to this update, I am sending you some fun photographs I took recently (Only Linnea has seen them so far, and I do not want anyone else to see them either; strictly confidential between the three of us). I am being sassy in these photos; enjoy for your considersation alone. Also, sadly, the local police have been on my back, because a Troll is pretending to be me, in simulated voice, AND in IP Address. I have unplugged my wifi router and cable modem for the time being; only plugging them in when I intend to go online at home. And my out-of-order PC Tower has been unplugged from power and internet. I am sending this pair of e-mails from a laptop at Best Buy at this moment. And at the moment, I am having trouble loading the AOL log-in page on my consoles, so that's a bust at the moment. Please relay your replies to me through Linnea, or hit me on my cell phone (if you still have my number). I have had you run through my mind now and then, Jackie; consider dashing back for some Tomgirl sweetness.  ;) Stay Safe with Love, Christian.

April 18, 2011 - 4:01pm Title: RE: Hey Jackie Hey Chris! It's nice to hear from you. I hope you had a good birthday. Wow! It sounds like you've found a great niche for yourself with your new stylin' look and attitude. I'm happy for you! I know self-confidence has always been something you needed a little help with, I'm so glad that you've found something that gives you confidence and happiness. That's really what it's all about in life. If YOU know you're in charge, other people can't help but to notice that. Good for you! I hope you're not mad, but I was so turned on by those pictures, I just couldn't keep it to myself... I showed those pictures to a friend of mine to see what she thought. She was kind of turned on, too! Don't worry, she's very trustworthy and she wouldn't do anything bad, I told her it was important that she keep it completely secret. I hope you'll send me some more pictures... I liked the appetizer, but I'd really love a main course! XOXO Jackie

April 21, 2011 - 4:01pm Title: RE: Hey Jackie Well, sweetest Jackie, I did feel a bit bothered hearing that my photos I shared with you in confidence was shared with someone else, but since I am not finding it on the Cwcki or whatever, I forgive you.  :-* <3 I am able to type e-mails from my Wii only here at the moment, but I am planning on getting an inexpensive internet laptop within the next few weeks (don't push me, sweetheart). I will send you a sampler of my photos later, or I'll ask Linnea to forward them to you. Spoiler Alert; there is Makeup involved.  ;) And I would appreciate you keeping the photos in strictest confidence between you, me, Linnea and your one friend ONLY; no one else, please. And if you want to see the whole me put altogether, you are gonna have to come over and meet me in C-Ville. Also, please inform me of what the current score is between you and Lars; I would feel more comfortable if he was not part of your current life while you and I are getting close.  ;) And if you want it, my manlihood down here is at your service upon scintilating request I gtg get my car from the shop, but I await your reply. Call me to schedule our meet. (434)-760-0848 Please leave a message with your digits, so I can recognize you on my caller ID better, and so I can call you back. Stay Safe with love (you never left my mind and my heart), Christian.

April 21, 2011 - 9:53pm Title: RE: Hey Jackie Oh, about Lars... he went on kind of a bender a few weeks ago, I haven't heard from him since. I still care about him but the whole romance thing is kind of cooled off with him. I'm hoping he and I can remain friends, though. Anyway, I don't mean to make you worry, my friend is trustworthy and I won't share your pictures with anyone else. I look forward to seeing more of your photos! Speaking of, how is Linnea doing these days? But let's take it a little slow here, I'm not really ready to meet you yet. You know what, as much as I like having you as a friend, I would be willing to consider taking it further again, but I don't want to rush into it right away. Let's re-establish our relationship on solid footing and take it from there. And besides, I'm still a tad reeling from Lars and I cooling off, I just want to make sure I'm in the right place before I do a heavy relationship again. (You wouldn't want to be just a rebound, would you?) I'm not trying to play hard to get, sweetie... I just want to catch my breath before you take it away again. :) I want to see the new you, Chris. Just show me the goods. I'm sure I won't be disappointed. Besides, you want to give me incentive to come see you, right? <3<3<3 Jackie

April 21, 2011 Title: RE: Hey Jackie It is cool. I understand, and I absoloutly would like to take your breath away in full swing. On one hand, I empathize with you on the loss of that relationship and worry, and on the other hand it is good news for me to hear that you're breaking it off with him on the romance. Let's do it better this time; I feel it most beneficial for you to call me on my cell at least twice a week; perhaps at about 8:00 PM on Tuesdays and Fridays (negotiable). I feel it better to communicate directly in verbal conversations over e-mails. I want you and me to meet in person as soon as possible, at least mid-May; I allow you the few weeks to recover, and it can be delayed with good reason and discussion. It has been about half a year or so; a newer photo would be appreciated. I've kept all of the previous photos of you saved on a little-used memory card here all to myself alone. I took another look at them; you use a similar eye-shadow to what I use.  :) So, shared makeovers between you and I could be something else fun to look forward to.  :) I also feel uncertain of the nose and lip jewelary; in person, I would feel better if you leave them off only for like the first few times we meet, at least up until our first kiss (I am still a mouth-virgin in that sense), and it would give me something to compare later on if the lip jewelry would make it better. I will also share something else with you in confidence; for a while after I had learned my word was "tomgirl", my mother felt uncomfortable for a while after I shared that info with her (being almost 70 and old-fashioned-minded). She got used to the idea after a couple of weeks, then I started up with the makeup, which did make me more self-confident, pretty and happier. My mother felt ill at ease upon first instance. And later, she told me that she would not complain about my makeup and tomgirl ways. Today, she was a major, complaining bitch; she hurt me heavily emotionally with that back-stabbing indian-giver attitude. And she just came up here shouted out more and more commands and complaints. Obviously she has something else going on that is affecting this mood-swing, and she may go back to being nice soon. She still hurt me; I am damn happy being a Tomgirl, and she is not going to change that. She is also paranoid of me turning damn gay or becoming a transvestite. Neither of which is the case; I am very attracted to women, including your sweet self, Jackie. I am feeling that she won't let up until I finally bring home a girlfriend who loves me for me, and appreciates my tomgirl ways. And I do not know to many tomgirls around here in person to attempt to put her mind at ease. Stressful. I'll be okay, especially now that we're talking again, sweetheart.  :) Please call me very soon. I still have true feelings for you, Jacklyn, and it would mean a Lot to me if this time is THE time and you and I stay together for the remainder of our lives. But I digress. There's not that much rush; we have plenty of time. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 XOXOXOXO Christian. P.S. Dana is doing good, and I will send the photos from a library computer tomorrow.

August 5, 2011 It was rough on me today; worse on my parents. To begin, after taking dad to his doc appointment, followed by fueling up the Mitsubishi, Mom hand he went to Riley's Diner in Ruckersville. I checked in with them via cellie as they made their way to the diner. Mom requested of me to put a gallon of gas in the red canister for the lawn tractor. I took a bag full of used cans with me also to dispose of them in a nearby dumpster behind Food Lion (there is no recycling facility or disposal area for cans around here yet). I was going to take my car, but it would not start. So I called and informed mom about that, and that I would take the recently checked van instead. She also asked me to drive by Goodwill to swap the van for the Mitsu. I would have taken either the Honda or BMW, but I still lack manual transmission knowledge. The van started. After getting onto the road, I noticed the "check engine" being lit; at the moment I disregarded it. But after dropping off the cans in the dumpster, I started to press on, but after moving forward slightly, it stalled on me. And I could not restart it. I called mom to come to me then. Beforehand, she had a bought with the bitchy server/owner of Riley's, Riley herself. Mom had a quarter of a chicken sandwich from McD; she brought it in with her. She had also got her tea at Riley's before this bout. Mom pulls out the quarter sandwich; Riley is all, "you can't eat food from another place here". There's no sign stating that anywhere there. So, mom ignored her and ate the q-sand in front of her. Riley asked her to leave. Mom wanted her tea too, and she had a big reusable plastic cup in the Mitsu. So she takes the cup of tea out to the car and fills Her cup with the tea. She then returned the restaurant's cup to the table dad was still sitting at. Riley bitched some more at mom about taking their cheap plastic glass outside. So, to come back for dad later, she leaves for the nearby Goodwill. Here is where I came in with the last call, as well as the following where I requested help stranded by the dumpster. So mom comes with the Mitsu to the van; the jumper cables were in the back of my car, the escort, at home. So, she stayed at the van while I A) picked up dad at Riley's, B) stop to get lunch for me at the nearby Taco Bell/KFC; M.Deal 1: chick burrito, med drink and chips, C) return dad home and pick up the jumpers and D) return to mom and the van. The van was still fighting with the mucky, old gasoline; mom and dad got earlier today a bottle of gas cleaner. So after returning to her, she poured in the cleaner, attached the jumpers, and got the van started. After putting away the jumpers, I followed her in the van with me in the Mitsu up to the nearby Sheetz. After her parking the van by pump 7, I parked the Mitsu in a nearby space. I checked in with her, then went into Sheetz to wash my hands to allow me to eat the chick burrito. I sat in the van after she fueled it halfway, and fueled the canister; she had to poo bad. After she returned, I had finished the burrito; she got in and tried to start the van; no turnover. So I pulled the Mitsu up to the van to try rejumping; no good. Mom called dad; he suggested punchin' the pedal while starting up; no good. I stayed by her side during thebwait and restart trials, keeping her company and talkin'; it helped her feel better. Eventually, she reluctantly called for a tow, which arrived about 10 to 20 min. later, to tow the van to Chuck's, just less than half a mile north of Sheetz. The jumpers and can of gas were placed in the Mitsu. We followed the truck and van, left a pair of van keys with Chuck. He'll have another go at it soon. Then tired, mom and I finally came back home about quarter after 7. Killed my day. I was planning on getting the songwork completed, but after what happened... I am sorry, but I will have to complete them tomorrow and upload them on Saturday. Life happens. *sigh* I know very well it's happening to both you and I. I still think of you lovingly and dearly.  :) I'll e-mail you again tomorrow. Stay Safe and Sweet. LOLove, <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Kaka Apple Chrissy.

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