Jackie E-mails 24

On 7 December 2010, only a couple of weeks after Chris has cut contact with her, Jackie renewed her correspondence with him. While several videos Chris made for Jackie after the renewal of their relationship were eventually leaked, no recording of the pair's communications have been revealed until 27 April 2013, when an email from Chris to Jackie dated 5 August 2011 (seen at the bottom of the page) was leaked on the CWCki forums. Further emails between the two spanning from December 2010 to July 2011 were leaked on 6 May 2013. Help in transcribing the correspondence will be much appreciated.

Note: Some of the names in these emails have been redacted in order to defend the innocent.

December 7, 2010 - 7:15pm Hey Chris! How's it going? Just wanted to check in. How is the outside socialization thing going? Have you met a lot of new people or gone new places since you stopped talking to me? Or are you still just sitting alone playing video games all day? The PSN counts as internet you know, so you're being a hypocrite if you're still enslaved to that thing. Jackie

December 7, 2010 - 7:36pm Hey, Jackie. Well, currently, I'm not making much progress in making new friends, but I have been going out more. I am still frozen and clammed up in mass public. And for your information, I said SOCIALIZING on the Internet was bad, NOT the whole Internet in general. Yet while I do sometimes play on PSHome, a social Gaming Network, I still am frozen in that public setting with my Avatar, and I mainly focus on the Single-Player exploring and play. How are things with you and Lars? Stay Safe and Well, Christian.

December 7, 2010 - 8:03pm Well, Lars and I are doing okay. He's still in addiction counseling right now - not that he's had any problems or relapses or such, but he's being proactive and just setting up a good support system for himself. We're both looking into the future, you know how it is. I guess I was confused when you said the internet was bad. What exactly about internet socialization is so bad? Is it just about the trolls you've met? Or is it because none of your relationships online have worked out thus far? You know, maybe you should try going on facebook. I know you used to do well talking to people there a long time ago. And plus, the thing about facebook is that trolling can't really work on facebook. Maybe join a group on there and chat up some new people, share your common interests. You could use an alter ego if you want, since I know you wouldn't want people searching for the name Christian Weston Chandler. Just a thought. Jackie

December 19, 2010 - 8:42pm Hey Chris! Long time no talk. What's been happening with you lately? I just wanted to see how things are going.

December 21, 2010 - 7:31pm Wow Chris, you must be on that PSN even more than you ever have been before if you can't even take the time to spend two minutes writing to me. I thought you wanted to work on building social skills?

December 21, 2010 - 7:47pm Wow, you must be busy these days. I hope offline socialization is working out for you. But hey, I found something while perusing the internet that you might be interested in. It's a dating site for people that are kind of shy like yourself and are sometimes socially awkward, so they're much more open and understanding to your sort of situation. Now I know what you'll say, you don't want to meet people online, but this site has an extremely stringent scanning process to weed out fake information - there's no possible way for a troll or faker to get membership. You'll have to give your real address and other such information in order to confirm yourself, and everyone else has to do the same. I recommend you try it out: https://www.wewaited.com/index.php Let me know how it goes! Jackie

December 22, 2010 - 9:46pm Thank you for the suggestiion. I have looked over the front page and bookmarked. I will keep it in mind and consider it well. I'm still in little luck in real life socializing, but I am getting out more. On the other hand, now the Trolls are stalking me through my PSN; they're claiming a "bug" is in my console, but the ONLY real bug was in my Friends List, with ANY of the latter being their "reporter". So I cleared it out. I know this, because they've added a "PSNTracker" template on their damn CWCki. For Christmas this year, I would really like EVERY last webpage of every website the Trolls have created against me; EVERY last HTML code, EVERY last image, EVERY last Link and Reference to them, Including the CWCki and Especially the whole damn Encyclopedia Dramatica... GONE, DELETED, WIPED OFF from the face of the Internet and the World FOREVER, never to be revived, recreated or reuploaded again ever. So then I won't be portrayed as a monster, because I am not a monster. I am a near-normal Straight Human Male like every other Straight Human Male on this planet. *sigh* You all have a Merry Christmas, and Stay Safe, Christian.

February 25, 2011 - 7:15pm Hey Chris! Long time no talk, but I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday! Hope you had fun today. What have you been doing with yourself lately? I hope you found someone special to share your special day with. Any major developments going on? Well, just wanted to say hi. Hope to hear from you! Jackie

March 26, 2011 - 4:47pm Yes, it has been a long while since we last talked. At least since Feb. 25 when you sent me the birthday greeting. First off, the e-mails I am sending you are strictly confidential; do not share the content of anything I sent to you with anyone, including Lars. I have gone through an emotional 180, more or less, within the past month. In a nutshell, I have grown my hair out, and continuing to let it grow. I have learned the best term to describe me, Tomgirl.  :) Yes, I am a Tomgirl, and I am damn proud of it. I have embraced and appreciated my feminine side. I am still totally heterosexual. Otherwise, I would be a full-blown you-know-what. I also have had my ears pierced with amythest studs (my birthstone) recently. I have been more self-confident, and I have a sweet sashay walk, hair and wink flirts, and I am greeting women left and right. Hello.  ;) Also, here is another way to consider me, I am a Ken doll any Barbie CAN dress in her clothes, and I would feel most comfortable in them and to model them for her. Come shopping with me, sweetie.  ;) In addition to this update, I am sending you some fun photographs I took recently (Only Linnea has seen them so far, and I do not want anyone else to see them either; strictly confidential between the three of us). I am being sassy in these photos; enjoy for your considersation alone. Also, sadly, the local police have been on my back, because a Troll is pretending to be me, in simulated voice, AND in IP Address. I have unplugged my wifi router and cable modem for the time being; only plugging them in when I intend to go online at home. And my out-of-order PC Tower has been unplugged from power and internet. I am sending this pair of e-mails from a laptop at Best Buy at this moment. And at the moment, I am having trouble loading the AOL log-in page on my consoles, so that's a bust at the moment. Please relay your replies to me through Linnea, or hit me on my cell phone (if you still have my number). I have had you run through my mind now and then, Jackie; consider dashing back for some Tomgirl sweetness.  ;) Stay Safe with Love, Christian.

April 18, 2011 - 4:01pm Hey Chris! It's nice to hear from you. I hope you had a good birthday. Wow! It sounds like you've found a great niche for yourself with your new stylin' look and attitude. I'm happy for you! I know self-confidence has always been something you needed a little help with, I'm so glad that you've found something that gives you confidence and happiness. That's really what it's all about in life. If YOU know you're in charge, other people can't help but to notice that. Good for you! I hope you're not mad, but I was so turned on by those pictures, I just couldn't keep it to myself... I showed those pictures to a friend of mine to see what she thought. She was kind of turned on, too! Don't worry, she's very trustworthy and she wouldn't do anything bad, I told her it was important that she keep it completely secret. I hope you'll send me some more pictures... I liked the appetizer, but I'd really love a main course! XOXO Jackie

April 21, 2011 - 4:01pm Well, sweetest Jackie, I did feel a bit bothered hearing that my photos I shared with you in confidence was shared with someone else, but since I am not finding it on the Cwcki or whatever, I forgive you.  :-* <3 I am able to type e-mails from my Wii only here at the moment, but I am planning on getting an inexpensive internet laptop within the next few weeks (don't push me, sweetheart). I will send you a sampler of my photos later, or I'll ask Linnea to forward them to you. Spoiler Alert; there is Makeup involved.  ;) And I would appreciate you keeping the photos in strictest confidence between you, me, Linnea and your one friend ONLY; no one else, please. And if you want to see the whole me put altogether, you are gonna have to come over and meet me in C-Ville. Also, please inform me of what the current score is between you and Lars; I would feel more comfortable if he was not part of your current life while you and I are getting close.  ;) And if you want it, my manlihood down here is at your service upon scintilating request I gtg get my car from the shop, but I await your reply. Call me to schedule our meet. (434)-760-0848 Please leave a message with your digits, so I can recognize you on my caller ID better, and so I can call you back. Stay Safe with love (you never left my mind and my heart), Christian.

April 21, 2011 - 9:53pm Oh, about Lars... he went on kind of a bender a few weeks ago, I haven't heard from him since. I still care about him but the whole romance thing is kind of cooled off with him. I'm hoping he and I can remain friends, though. Anyway, I don't mean to make you worry, my friend is trustworthy and I won't share your pictures with anyone else. I look forward to seeing more of your photos! Speaking of, how is Linnea doing these days? But let's take it a little slow here, I'm not really ready to meet you yet. You know what, as much as I like having you as a friend, I would be willing to consider taking it further again, but I don't want to rush into it right away. Let's re-establish our relationship on solid footing and take it from there. And besides, I'm still a tad reeling from Lars and I cooling off, I just want to make sure I'm in the right place before I do a heavy relationship again. (You wouldn't want to be just a rebound, would you?) I'm not trying to play hard to get, sweetie... I just want to catch my breath before you take it away again. :) I want to see the new you, Chris. Just show me the goods. I'm sure I won't be disappointed. Besides, you want to give me incentive to come see you, right? <3<3<3 Jackie

April 21, 2011 - 10:50pm It is cool. I understand, and I absoloutly would like to take your breath away in full swing. On one hand, I empathize with you on the loss of that relationship and worry, and on the other hand it is good news for me to hear that you're breaking it off with him on the romance. Let's do it better this time; I feel it most beneficial for you to call me on my cell at least twice a week; perhaps at about 8:00 PM on Tuesdays and Fridays (negotiable). I feel it better to communicate directly in verbal conversations over e-mails. I want you and me to meet in person as soon as possible, at least mid-May; I allow you the few weeks to recover, and it can be delayed with good reason and discussion. It has been about half a year or so; a newer photo would be appreciated. I've kept all of the previous photos of you saved on a little-used memory card here all to myself alone. I took another look at them; you use a similar eye-shadow to what I use.  :) So, shared makeovers between you and I could be something else fun to look forward to.  :) I also feel uncertain of the nose and lip jewelary; in person, I would feel better if you leave them off only for like the first few times we meet, at least up until our first kiss (I am still a mouth-virgin in that sense), and it would give me something to compare later on if the lip jewelry would make it better. I will also share something else with you in confidence; for a while after I had learned my word was "tomgirl", my mother felt uncomfortable for a while after I shared that info with her (being almost 70 and old-fashioned-minded). She got used to the idea after a couple of weeks, then I started up with the makeup, which did make me more self-confident, pretty and happier. My mother felt ill at ease upon first instance. And later, she told me that she would not complain about my makeup and tomgirl ways. Today, she was a major, complaining bitch; she hurt me heavily emotionally with that back-stabbing indian-giver attitude. And she just came up here shouted out more and more commands and complaints. Obviously she has something else going on that is affecting this mood-swing, and she may go back to being nice soon. She still hurt me; I am damn happy being a Tomgirl, and she is not going to change that. She is also paranoid of me turning damn gay or becoming a transvestite. Neither of which is the case; I am very attracted to women, including your sweet self, Jackie. I am feeling that she won't let up until I finally bring home a girlfriend who loves me for me, and appreciates my tomgirl ways. And I do not know to many tomgirls around here in person to attempt to put her mind at ease. Stressful. I'll be okay, especially now that we're talking again, sweetheart.  :) Please call me very soon. I still have true feelings for you, Jacklyn, and it would mean a Lot to me if this time is THE time and you and I stay together for the remainder of our lives. But I digress. There's not that much rush; we have plenty of time. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 XOXOXOXO Christian. P.S. Dana is doing good, and I will send the photos from a library computer tomorrow.

April 22, 2011 - 7:35pm Hey Chris! I'm so sorry your mom is causing you grief right now. I guess the major change you're undergoing is a little bit of a shock for her, but she should still be supportive. What kinds of commands and complaints is she making to you? Do you have any idea what the thing going on in her life that is causing her to have a mood swing? Maybe you can help her with it. But it's good that you're standing your ground and refusing to stop being who you are and doing what makes you happy. Now, about Lars... Please don't tell me how much time I need to get over MY relationship. These things can't just be planned out so exactly, when you break up with someone you can't just say "I need X days to get over it and then I'll be perfectly okay". It's a process. I'm not saying May is out of the question, I just can't put the cart in front of the horse. So let's just keep talking for right now. Like you say, there's not a rush, we have plenty of time, right? Anyway, I'd love to talk to you on the phone, but my phone broke a couple months ago and I don't really have the cash to get a new one. There's a fancy new pair of chopsticks at the Asian store down at the mall I want to pick up and I'm saving my money for that. (Did I ever tell you that I like eating food with chopsticks? I just enjoy it better than using forks. Just a little quirk of mine, I guess.) So we might have to wait a while before I have a phone number to give you. Oh, and I'm gonna keep my piercings and makeup on the way I like too, by the way. Those things are part of what defines me, kind of like how being a tomgirl is what defines you. Isn't that part of why you like me? For what makes me me? I look forward to seeing those photos tomorrow! I'll try to dig up a more recent photo of myself and get it to you. XOXO Jackie P.S. You mentioned in your last email that you are getting a new laptop in a few weeks or something. What kind of laptop is it? I'm just curious. :)

April 23, 2011 3:42am I meant no offense with your piercings, and you are soo right on continuing to be you. And I like your makeup style.  :) Also, I apologize for making a schedule for relief time; it does take a lengthy amount of time. I meant mid-May to be for when you and I can meet up; again, we can discuss the meet date. That is neat you have a thing for eating with chopsticks; I am capable of eating with chopsticks too; I have had good practice in the past with the grub I ate at the korean church in Chesterfield Co. my family and I went to. I relate with your desire for fancy and pretty things. Although IMHO, I would consider which is more of a "Want" or a "Need". Do you need or want those chopsticks? Wouldn't that cell phone replacement be more beneficial to you? Only food for thought. I have actually shared how I felt with mom recently, and she listened. She also let off a few monkies off her back; speghetti dinner that was refused by dad and me the night of our final move back to Ruckersville. I couldn't help it if I did not feel like spaghetti that night; she gave up cooking for us after that for one. I deeply apologized for that. And recently, my dad had colon cancer surgery; the recovery, helping him and putting up with his constant complaints, arguement-starters and such has put further wear and tear on her. On another topic, I've double-checked the Wikipedia search for "tomgirl"; I was redirected to "effeminacy". I had reffered to it as nothing upon first finding weeks ago. I read a little bit of it an hour ago; most of which was, while reasonable from the author's viewpoint, offensive to me and I felt I just could not put up with. There WAS a "Tomgirl" page, and in its first publish time, it was simple and true, spelling corrections were needed; "opposite of tomboy"; "males who enjoy feminine things", and "Tomgirls are straight". After I get that laptop, I am going to undo the redirection, and add MORE words of tomgirl wisdom into it. The laptop is an inexpensive one from CVS, designed for internet browsing, and upgradable I am sure with a greater capacity internal HDD (Hard disk drive). It is only $99, and it will be good for what I'll need it for, even before upgrading. I've asked Tiffany to forward you the confidential tomgirlly photos. Please let me know ASAP when you are able to call me. Stay Safe and sweet, Christian.

April 23, 2011 10:04pm So that sucks about your mom. When was the speghetti dinner? Do you mean way back when your family moved to Ruckersville, years ago? That seems like an odd thing for her to bring up if it was so long ago. Your dad had colon cancer though??? You should really be more understanding of his being in a bad mood. That is a HUGE strain on a family. I'm sure your mother is strained to the breaking point from seeing the man she loves go through this life-threatening dilemma; I mean, you guys are lucky he survived at all. Chalk that up to God's grace, I guess. You should be more understanding to your parents' needs. Well, as far as the chopsticks, I actually busted a pair of mine a couple weeks ago. It was a really ornate pair, I had it for years and I carried it with me every time I went out to eat. But I left them on the roof of my car after leaving a restaurant and my dad accidentally drove over them and turned them into splinters. I was crestfallen, but I decided I would replace them as soon as possible. I look forward to having a nice pair of chopsticks again. I mean, I'd love to have a phone so I could talk to you, and you are definitely more important, but all things considered, until confirmation of details I'll continue to wait til we get our relationship back on its feet. Anyway, I had more to say, sorry I have to cut this email short but I have to get up early tomorrow morning for my usual family Easter lunch, we do like an all-day family party thing and I need my sleep beforehand. I'll write more later! Jackie

April 24, 2011 - 3:49pm Believe me, I am more than well aware of my parents' needs, as well as the sheer stress from the excessive drama. Before I forget, I wanted to be sure to address the question I missed in your last e-mail. My mom said things like "do not wear eyeshadow", "you look like a prostitute", "lipstick makes you look like a hooker", "you're turning into a gay", "what are you piercing next?", "what's next, you wearing a skirt and high heels" and shit like that. I mean, her concerns are understandable, but she is soo paranoid, overprotective and crazy. I will always be straight, no matter what; it is in my prebirth programmming. Otherwise, I would not be feeling like throwing up most times I see another dude's penis. XP BLECH!!! The spaghetti topic is soo yesterdecade, but apparently she remembers it as well as having a very close relative pass away. Obviously I can empathize with that; I still have my chip on the shoulder from Michael Snyder banning me from the Game & Hobby Place and being soo still unforgiving and closed-minded of accepting my apology. I even wish heavily for the Place to be blown up and burn to the ground while there was nobody inside. It is understandable of confirming the details before getting the phone. I really would like this relationship to work, and soo better than in the past. Until when you get a cell phone, I will continue to e-mail you daily at best (granted I may miss a day sometimes). There was a good Easter service at my church today, and there was also a baptism of a baby girl today; I took some photos with my DS that I will print out for the family ASAP. I also finally found and got a vial of Nail Art polish (silver) today, and I painted "TOM" on my right hand's middle three nails, "GIRL" on my left's index to pinkie, and a star, flower and heart on the other three. Put my two hands together, they spell "*Tomgirl". I will send you a photo after I get the laptop. More info on the laptop, it is a Sylvana brand with Wi-Fi capabilities, 3 USB ports, Windows CE and such. More details on it can be found on the box at your local CVS ($99.99), or if you can find it online, that works too.  :) Also, I am planning on getting a tattoo and a belly button ring next month. I haven't decided on the B.B. ring yet, but the tattoo is going onto my lower back; I'll send a photo later, but roughly it is a combination of the (pink) mars and (blue) venus symbols, a pair of (violet) wings on either side, a white star behind it, and "Tomgirl 4Ever" underneath it all. What else has been good with you since September? Are you still a Mary Baldwyn journalist? How about them "Crash Test Dummies"? And anything else that comes into your mind; I want to hear/read all about it. You and me, Jacklyn, let's make up for lost time and keep goin' strong. TTYL. Stay Safe with Love, Christian.

April 25, 2011 - 5:40pm Yes, I know that you're straight, you really don't need to convince me. Although I'm still not sure why you have these visceral vomiting reactions to seeing another penis, normal straight people don't have that, but whatever. I thought you were over the Game Place? I mean, we talked for months about you getting over it because it is long in the past It really seems like a serious issue that you retain these violent, hateful thoughts for years and years like that. And considering that we talked for hours and hours about the incidents at the Game Place but you were unwilling to accept that your behavior was in any way wrong, I'm willing to bet that Michael Snyder didn't think your apology was sincere (How can you apologize properly for something when you believe you haven't done anything wrong?) Have you ever considered pursuing some sort of psychotherapy/counseling? You know to be honest, that's one of the reasons I didn't really want to start calling you yet, because I wanted to see if you had become willing to pursue self-improvement in the months since we last talked. I mean, you still have all your video games that you play all day, but that's not good enough, you also need to be able to go play Pokemon cards with children at the Game Place? In my humble opinion, you need therapeutic help with your anger problems much more than you need to play Pokemon cards or video games, and just like you said I would consider which is more of a "want" or a "need". (Besides, didn't you tell me that the reason you screamed out loud and got yourself banned was because all the children making noise and ruckus stressed you into screaming in the first place? Why do you want to go back to a situation that caused you so much stress?) And as an aside, I think it's pretty selfish that you would want the Game Place to burn down and for no one else to enjoy it just because you can't. But here's an idea for you: You know how they say that when you are really angry at a person, you should write a letter to that person telling them how you feel but not send it? Well, I would suggest this: How about you draw a picture of you burning the Game Place down? Put all your hatred and rage into that picture, make it really visceral and detailed. And don't send it to Mike Snyder or anyone else, just send it to me. Or Dana too. I think it would be very therapeutic for you to do, and also a lot more productive than just thinking about it. Tell you what, get that drawing to me by Wednesday night. I can't wait to see it! Well anyway, it's your choice if you want to get over your problems and impress me or not, I won't force you. But I'm glad that we're opening a dialogue again. Hey, try not to feel too bad about what your mother is saying. It sucks that she's not being very supportive of your changes, but you know that you have people like me and Dana who recognize that you're doing what you need to be happy. And yes I did get the photos! They look so amazing!! I love the confidence and poise that you display in those photos, that tells me you're doing the right thing. Do you have a date for when you're getting the tattoo yet? I really look forward to seeing the pictures of that! Also, have you considered maybe getting some heels to wear? They make you taller... and you know how us girls like tall men ;) XOXO Jackie

April 26, 2011 - 8:40pm I am happy to hear your praise for my Tomgirlish ways.  :) Yes, I have thought of getting a pair of heels; I will be doing that soon enough too; also a denim skirt. It will be about mid-next-week when I get the tattoo. On the Place topic, yes I still have the chip on my shoulder, but Rocky continues to hear me out there; I'm good. And on another hand, I've "been there, done that" on the fire-starting drawing of the Place. The other day, I drove by there, took a photo of the store front with my DS, and later drew TNT boxes and flames on the photo digitally. But I did not send it to Dana; I sent it over the PSN under one of my secondary accounts to a confirmed troll, then deleted the original message from my end and all traces of the jpeg photo from my PS3, DS and the SD memory card. This was like over a week ago, and since I have not seen it on the CWCki's recent uploaded photo log, it is obvious to me that nothing will come out of that anyway. Upon retrospect, sending it to a troll was wrong, and if I had thought of sending it to Dana instead, I would have. *inserts foot into mouth* A fun story on another topic, I have recently imagined myself dressed in my feminine outfit and makeup in a bar full of lesbians (I got the silly idea that I would likely fit in at a lesbian bar). LOL I found a successful woman in the bar, we talked; she was fascinated with my stories; I liked her too; we went back to her place; I warned her that I was actually a male; she was surprised, yet curious and willing to try me; we did it. And here's a fun, kinky part, we did it in lesbian's position (the scissor-thing) with my dick in her vag. Again, this was only pretend in my head. If this turns you on, good. It was fun for me anyway.  :) I've been busy this week; my father was put back into the hospital under his doctor's orders for examination of his heart and such. He'll be back out by or before Friday. My mom and I have been visiting him each day for 3 or 4 hours. Mom kisses and hugs him before we leave; it is sweet. On the similar topic, apparently one of my Manchester High Class of 2000 classmates is working at Martha Jefferson. I have not met her yet, but I left a note with my number on it for a meet and greet arrangement. Talkin' about the old days and whatnot. Plus I may be able to track one or two of my closer classmates with her help. If not, I'll still have a classmate for a friend within my current life. Also recently, I have been experimenting with body hair removal systems. I tried waxing; I had diffculty, only a little pain; I could use some help on getting the hang of it. Then I tried the "As Seen on TV" Smooth Away; it worked some, but not so much; got a rash on my leg from the effort. I would not recommend the product. And lastly, which removed the latter, a hair remover shower cream (Nair brand "Shower Power Max", to be specific). It worked great, but I either used a bit much or left some on longer; this was last night. I had worse pain on the rashed leg, and new rashy spots on the other, on the right side of my belly near the button, and on BOTH of my nipples. The pain was excruciating; I was lucky to find comfort and fall asleep with a few dreams. The areas still hurt some, and I will heal, with sexier legs to look forward to. It's a blessing neither of my arms were pained from the experiment. The pain was equivilant to harsh sunburn. I would have been more comfortable with Waxing in comparison. On the classic 1-10 scale; waxing was a 2; the S.P.Max was an 8.5 (going on 9 with the extended searing pain). At least my arms, legs, torso and pubic are sin hair and real smoooth.  :) I'll check in again later. Stay Safe with Love, Christian.

April 26, 2011 - 10:47pm Well, maybe you should ask Rocky to actually help you get over those unchristian thoughts of revenge, but I am very happy that you're already one step ahead of me about getting it out of your system. Who exactly did you send that altered photo to? And I don't think I understand, why did you want it on the cwcki? Kind of too bad, if you wanted it to find its way there you could have asked me for help getting the trolls to bite it up. Well, tell you what: Do the picture again for me. Make it even better this time! I can't wait to see it. Draw the Game Place burning to the ground with you dancing on its rubble, happy to have justice done. Or photoshop it like you did the first time, either one works. Do you think tomorrow is soon enough to get it completed? Probably won't take you more than an hour or two. Get it to me tomorrow! :D That's an odd fantasy that you bring up about the lesbian thing. Actually, it's really funny that you mention it: The other night I had a dream that was basically the exact same thing! Well, actually it was that you picked me up in a bar (We didn't previously know each other in the dream), and then you took me home and we started to make out and we were going to have sex. But then in the dream, I was secretly a man! And when I told you so, at first you were shocked, but open-minded, and we had hot passionate mansex. We did lots of erotic frottage in that dream. Isn't that funny that we had the exact same dream? I guess erotic minds think alike ;) And hey, that's really great about your old classmate! Why don't you call her and try to set up lunch or something? It would really be great for you to catch up with her and maybe find some other of your old friends through her. Let me know what she says! Jackie

April 28, 2011 - 7:09pm The burn-down is not a big deal; I sent it to PSN user, tricomri; obviously he didn't log in for a while. So, for the better, nothing bad will come from it. I do not need to do it over again; it is behind me. In response to your dream, I thank you for sharing. At first after reading it, I felt a little disgust, but I have had my own thing where I would have you wear a strap-on, so in that view, it is not so farfetched. I gtg; TTYL. Stay Safe with Love, Christian.

April 28, 2011 - 7:25pm Well, you're still fantasizing about the Game Place being burned down, and it's extremely apparent that you still hate Michael Snyder, so obviously it's not behind you. Besides, it's not only about you, it's about me too. If you did it for some random guy on your friends list, you can do it for your girl, right? I asked you to do it for me. So do it for me! Have the Game Place on fire, and Michael Snyder on his knees crying over losing his life's worth, and then you and Sonichu dancing around the wreckage laughing and pouring gasoline on the building (to show Sonichu helped you). And also, you should show yourself lecturing Mike Snyder, explaining exactly what he did wrong and why he deserved what happened to him. And put your full effort into it - color it this time, don't be lazy and skimp like you did on those issue 10 trial redux pages I asked for. I was hoping to see it by today. Get it to me by Saturday. Anyway, I still don't understand exactly why you wanted the drawing to go on the cwcki. I thought you didn't want new details and stuff to go on there? So why would you want this picture there? And how do you know this tricomri guy is even a troll? I've never heard his name before. Well, gtg; I look forward to the picture. Saturday! Jackie

April 30, 2011 - 1:34pm Chris, is everything okay? I haven't heard from you in a couple days. Is your dad doing okay? Jackie

April 30, 2011 - 9:52pm My father is fine. I sent you a message about Thursday. I went to watch "Grease" at the Paramount Friday with the Young Adult Group. I:|( I just found ALL of ny tomgirl photos on the CWCki. I am feeling shock, crestfallen; uncertainty. That's all I am going to say for now until I get my laptop. Stay Safe, Christian.

May 1, 2011 - 12:38am What??? How did they get out??? I'm really sorry that happened Chris. Was it because the PSN got hacked? I heard that the hackers made away with a whole bunch of peoples' personal data, like credit card information, login info, and such. They say this is one of the biggest ever leaks of personal information. I've been reading about it here: http://www.guardian.co.uk/technology/gamesblog/2011/apr/29/psn-hack-industry-reactions I understand you're feeling down from that, so don't worry if you don't feel like talking much right now. But I'm here to listen if you want to talk. Jackie

May 2, 2011 - 5:30pm Hey, Chris? What's going on? I know you're sad about the PSN being down but really, I don't get why you're just ignoring me. I guess if you aren't interested in reconnecting, that's your prerogative. Hope some other girl is actually able to capture your interest. Jackie

May 2, 2011 - 11:06pm For your information, Jacklyn, my life does not revolve around video games and the friggin' Network, although I do keep up-to-date on the restoration progress on the Blog, so I am well-aware. NO! I am feeling more ticked with the Trolls right now, and with due respect, you. I have deleted ALL of the messages and photos I have shared in Better confidence with Dana after sending them off. It IS my fault however on authorizing the sharing my recent photos with you. Considering your History of sharing the stories, AND photos and art, of you and me since our first break up with the Trolls. And since then in our off-and-on relationship(?), I have seen "Leaked" e-mails from between you and me on the Cwcki and their damn websites against me. It's either them having direct access with YOUR computers, or you lying to me and possibly keeping a secret that you have become ONE OF THEM. I even remember your past excuse of Lars leaking our stuff to them as well. That and "your friend" will NOT fly with me. I feel disappointment and lack of trust with you. I am sorry, and I empathize with how sad you probably feel from reading this, because I do not like to hurt my friends, but this is the truth. You WANT me to Earn Your Trust; well You have to Earn My Trust, WITH Interest. I will not be sharing photographs and confidential information with you again until you have earned it. I would very much like a Successful, Lasting Relationship with a woman as pretty, sweet, trusting and kind as you Used to be. Obviously when there is little to no trust between you and me mutually, I'm afraid it is hard for me to see a future in the relationship between us, and that makes me feel really sad. *sigh* Jacklyn, Prove me wrong in my theories; Earn My Trust. Think long and deep about that. Stay Safe. Love, Christian.

August 5, 2011 It was rough on me today; worse on my parents. To begin, after taking dad to his doc appointment, followed by fueling up the Mitsubishi, Mom hand he went to Riley's Diner in Ruckersville. I checked in with them via cellie as they made their way to the diner. Mom requested of me to put a gallon of gas in the red canister for the lawn tractor. I took a bag full of used cans with me also to dispose of them in a nearby dumpster behind Food Lion (there is no recycling facility or disposal area for cans around here yet). I was going to take my car, but it would not start. So I called and informed mom about that, and that I would take the recently checked van instead. She also asked me to drive by Goodwill to swap the van for the Mitsu. I would have taken either the Honda or BMW, but I still lack manual transmission knowledge. The van started. After getting onto the road, I noticed the "check engine" being lit; at the moment I disregarded it. But after dropping off the cans in the dumpster, I started to press on, but after moving forward slightly, it stalled on me. And I could not restart it. I called mom to come to me then. Beforehand, she had a bought with the bitchy server/owner of Riley's, Riley herself. Mom had a quarter of a chicken sandwich from McD; she brought it in with her. She had also got her tea at Riley's before this bout. Mom pulls out the quarter sandwich; Riley is all, "you can't eat food from another place here". There's no sign stating that anywhere there. So, mom ignored her and ate the q-sand in front of her. Riley asked her to leave. Mom wanted her tea too, and she had a big reusable plastic cup in the Mitsu. So she takes the cup of tea out to the car and fills Her cup with the tea. She then returned the restaurant's cup to the table dad was still sitting at. Riley bitched some more at mom about taking their cheap plastic glass outside. So, to come back for dad later, she leaves for the nearby Goodwill. Here is where I came in with the last call, as well as the following where I requested help stranded by the dumpster. So mom comes with the Mitsu to the van; the jumper cables were in the back of my car, the escort, at home. So, she stayed at the van while I A) picked up dad at Riley's, B) stop to get lunch for me at the nearby Taco Bell/KFC; M.Deal 1: chick burrito, med drink and chips, C) return dad home and pick up the jumpers and D) return to mom and the van. The van was still fighting with the mucky, old gasoline; mom and dad got earlier today a bottle of gas cleaner. So after returning to her, she poured in the cleaner, attached the jumpers, and got the van started. After putting away the jumpers, I followed her in the van with me in the Mitsu up to the nearby Sheetz. After her parking the van by pump 7, I parked the Mitsu in a nearby space. I checked in with her, then went into Sheetz to wash my hands to allow me to eat the chick burrito. I sat in the van after she fueled it halfway, and fueled the canister; she had to poo bad. After she returned, I had finished the burrito; she got in and tried to start the van; no turnover. So I pulled the Mitsu up to the van to try rejumping; no good. Mom called dad; he suggested punchin' the pedal while starting up; no good. I stayed by her side during thebwait and restart trials, keeping her company and talkin'; it helped her feel better. Eventually, she reluctantly called for a tow, which arrived about 10 to 20 min. later, to tow the van to Chuck's, just less than half a mile north of Sheetz. The jumpers and can of gas were placed in the Mitsu. We followed the truck and van, left a pair of van keys with Chuck. He'll have another go at it soon. Then tired, mom and I finally came back home about quarter after 7. Killed my day. I was planning on getting the songwork completed, but after what happened... I am sorry, but I will have to complete them tomorrow and upload them on Saturday. Life happens. *sigh* I know very well it's happening to both you and I. I still think of you lovingly and dearly.  :) I'll e-mail you again tomorrow. Stay Safe and Sweet. LOLove, <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Kaka Apple Chrissy.

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