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I will tell all of you of my burdens and sins now.
A lot of which have already been overshared in decades past, so there may be some repeats.
I was guilty of the sin of lust for a long time. Yes, I am a pervert, though I have found I am more vanilla than into things like bondage and stuff.
I was also guilty of theft. When I was young, I stole a dinosaur LCD game from a Radio Shack. I was encouraged to return the following day and pay the $7 for it.
I have overlooked a lot of the friendships I had over the years, yet I still Think of those people fondly at times.
My sweetheart search in the earlier days was more on bodily impulse and typical sex wants, on top of literal destiny and the dreams of my future daughter. I had sinned bad with Megan Schroeder in that, which was one of, if not my very first NSFW drawing.
I should have never ever depicted anything NSFW in my books, regardless of influence by some people online with their memes, drawings and s***, as well as the various manipulations from the theoretical exes.
On those theoretical exes, I had little understanding of what it meant to be in a relationship, or even none at all outside of watching TV and the friendships I had before. Plus being is located inside a house, or townhouse, for decades under a pair of elderly parents...
...who fought so much, that I had to play peacemaker and care give them even when I was a child. It got very frustrating upon me, Especially all of the freaking fighting and yelling!!! I got Soo stressed, I ended up on SSRIs, which would have never been a thing, as I needed to learn to cope...
...with it. But it is still no excuse for what I had to go through with the family drama and divisions between both Robert and Barbara and their respective relative, which frustrated me even more!!!
I've wanted to yell back at Mister C for Years, then I finally did in High School over his stupid random thought of verbal "sparring" over freaking frog's teeth! Gah!!!
And PVCC and the Sweetheart Search, let's talk about that more, shall we?
I have been with feelings of invisibility, but recently has been made apparent with how big my aura and energy field are. Do you think I was having fun feeling overlooked, regardless of it being good of me to go around...
...that f****** attraction sign that made it look like I was soliciting for sex, which is fair, BUT I was looking for Friendships First before the sex or romance, and I thought that was made clear with "from the ground up", so I feel like I had some common sense there.
I was racist, but not totally. My father was some racist. And I have watched "All in the Family", "Sanford and Son" and, of course, "Boondocks" with "Don't trust them ni*****, over there". I felt distraught when I realized that my environment was making me come off as racist, and I have tried to...
...make amends for that. Not to mention the black face I was cooerced into doing.
Transitioning to the homophobic saga; I was Soo against Men, in general, because they were taking all of the women, from my view. And then I could have considered lesbians, but in my mindset at that time, I did not.
So, I hated on gays, because I had hated on men, in general. I have realized this and become more relaxed on it after coming out as a bisexual transforman, myself. But, apparently I'm still confused, as I have been told, but I still maintain my identity, even if I still choose the restroom of my...
...gender identity over gender neutral restrooms. Could that be considered perverted? No, because I never had any such thoughts whatsoever.
I Transitioned, authentically, without any desire to find romance anywhere from doing that. I did that in my own identity and self.
I don't even have all of the LGBTQIA+ flags memorized, nor do I know all of the terminology, despite me attending some meetings over the time and meeting others in the communities.
If I have another sin to confess to, it's my hatred. My hatred of Haters and Fakers and Darkest Sinners worldwide.
And with valid reasons of you all taking advantage of me due to my autism and mentality. And I genuinely KNOW about the metaphysical and beyond and everything. I am not bragging on that at all. I have been everywhere in my meditations and astral projections.
Transition to another sin I'll also confess to, my narcissism. Fine. My environment and family put some of that into my mentality, plus from having to deal with selfish pricks online over the years. Sure, I can be into myself a bunch of times.
But when it comes to the metaphysical, I am honest...
I have been literally possessed by angels and Gods and Goddesses. And if that freaking heavily regretful "Unclit" was any indication, I have also been influenced by a few demons. But that comes from stress and duress, so I ask for some empathy.
...about that. I have been possessed before by angels and even Gods. And I did literally Body-Swap with Magi-Chan Sonichu Prime, Sonichu Prime, and a certain someone who will not be mentioned, because I am not at liberty to do so, because that would be doxxing
And one last thing I will mention of in recent years: I Lied when I was asked about not being in certain places where I was bigfoot photographed. I am not at liberty to talk about those experiences or individuals online. So, Of Course I Lied with that. And I have LOTS to talk about, eventually,...
...if not never about all of that.
So, yeah. That is pretty much all of my burdens and sins. Every single one. With all of that said, I bid all of you a good and safe day with #LightPower and Blessings while I clear my chakras and realign with the cosmos, earth, sun and moon.Be safe and well.⚡️💙⚡️
I forgive the person who called the guards at #HarmonyCon. And I accept that due to my reputation, I am not welcomed by a number of individuals or groups.
Still, I am on my redemption arc, and I wish for kindness and support in that.
If I can be welcomed again, that would be nice, but I do not expect it so.⚡️💙⚡️
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