If I had local friends to actually hang out with, and they had invited me to a Halloween party, I would likely go as a zombie.
I would go as a zombie, this year at least, because I have been feeling like a zombie often lately. A) I often feel lost in thought from going off track in thought. And I often feel lost in life as well. el The bad people, gravely and greatly counting the fucking Trolls/Cyber-Bullies, as well as the tyrannical Michael Snyder for destroying my life from his set up in having me arrested, spend a horrifying night in jail, going through trial after trial after trial of crappy court dates, only to be totally drained from losing to him. Which brings up C) I often have been feeling tired more quickly from each outing full of errands I run for my mother every day, although some of them do include time for myself. Having to reside in the same room with her becomes tedious and can become frustrating to me, but she is still the sweetest, most caring, compassionate, understanding mother I have grown up knowing with fondest memories. D) I have actually felt the total blank-minded mental state that can be derived from having just woken up and still feeling really drowsy, as well as post mental shut down after an extended amount of stress has surged through my mind. E) Zombies actually totally creep, gross, freak and scare me. Which is why I take pleasure in shooting them in the head or chopping them up into bits in video games before they can drain my avatar/main character.
I find and see the Trolls/Cyber-Bullies are equal to the zombies mentally; All of them totally lacking of a better purpose in life, trying to find a measly destiny by bullying, terrifying, raping, abusing, blackmailing, etc, etc, etc; the list goes on and on, the living daylights out of people who were, or are still, strong in confidence and self-esteem, or emotionally or mentally otherwise. What pathetic pus-filled, immature, bratty morons they are. What is this world coming to with shifty people like them occupying it? Another valid point; they lack total empathy for other people, or otherwise no one would have made that very first post of me on that crap website over five years ago. I really loathe them all. And I hate Snyder with a passion for destroying my life the way he did.
But I digress.
And even should the trolls somehow get to screencap this post in the future sometime, I pray they take a good, long, deep look into themselves individually as the terrible people they really are and understand trying to project their own faults onto me and the other people they have haunted.
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