Supporting Sarah May

On 17 February 2009, after a long chat session on Mumble, Chris along with Julie called Clyde Cash to ask for help on the situation involving Sarah May's suicide attempt on Skype.

Over a decade later, two audio recordings of the call were leaked by Statustjej on 27 October 2025, which they claimed to have uncovered from a file named "30 minutes of nothing at all.zip". Unfortunately, the second recording's audio goes out of sync towards the end.

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Supporting Sarah May
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Stardate	17 February 2009
Subject Matter	Tragedy Tragedy, Crazy Crazy, Galpals Gal Pals,Homos Homos,Sex Sex, Autism Autism
Saga	Julie Julie
Other	Leaked Leaked

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[Recording starts in the middle of conversation.]

Clyde: -heard something just went terribly wrong or somethin'.

Chris: Yeah. Uh...

Clyde: What- what happened?

Chris: Mmm... Well, yeah, there was like a talk- there was like conversation between, uh, Julie and Sarah May, and [sigh] things got a little chaotic emotionally and... we fear that- n- she and I fear that Sarah May may kill herself.

Clyde: W-what happened exactly?

Chris: [sigh] Couple times in the conversation when I was talking to Sarah, I w- I said Julie's name two or five times.

Clyde: My God, how can you make a mistake like that?

Julie: Chris, remember, he's trying to help us.

Chris: Yeah. I- I- I glad- I don't know how I could make a mistake like that. Just happened. [sigh] But- and I realized I made the mistake, I apologized deeply, and...

Clyde: Well, you shouldn't- you're not- you're not gonna apologize to me, you should be apologizing to Sarah May!

Chris: Yeah. You're right, I should apologize to Sarah May.

Julie: I think we should have a moment of silence for the hopefully alive Sarah May.

Chris: Yeah.

Clyde: I- I- I don't understand how you could make that mistake... Usually that kind of thing happens during sex, but not during conversation. My God...

Chris: Tell me about it.

Clyde: Di- I mean... [two consecutive sighs] this... this is difficult to think about. I mean, can you contact her now?

Chris: Yeah, I'm- I'm going to send her an email.

Clyde: Any quicker way? I mean, email would probably be too late.

Chris: Mm, well, let me see if she's on Skype... and if I could the thing-

Clyde: Will she answer?

Chris: Uh, I dunno. I'm lookin'. Uh, she's- mmm... oh, sh- uh, sh- it says here she's not available... on Skype. Oh jeez. She changed her, uh, subtitle s- her, uh, saying that goes under her picture, saying "I just can't take it anymore. Julie, I'm sorry."

Clyde: That's... probably not good. Ah, man. I don’t know- I don’t know what… if she’s dead, I don’t know what Sarah May’s family gonna do.

Chris: Yeah, I don’t know either.

Clyde: I mean, the whole Ryan Cash thing, man, my brother… The reason we didn’t go after you was because it was partially his fault as well but… I don’t know, this time you caused a mistake and-

Chris: Yeah, I did make a mistake. I made a false, uh accusation in pro- I made a false- false statement in protest of the ED page. It was-

Clyde: I know that. That’s the past. I’ve gotten over that, but-

Chris: That’s good.

Clyde: Sarah McKenzie, my future child. Don’t wanna bring that up. This is more important. Is there any other way you can contact her?

Chris: Hmm. I’m- I’m typing the m- I’m sending her the message on the Skype right now.

Clyde: If-

Chris: I do- It’s not like I have- I do not have her phone number.

Clyde: I don’t know what her family’s gonna do to you. They could be just ruthless. I mean, you’ve been in court before, right? Do you have any defense for yourself?

Chris: Hmm. Umm, what do you mean? Like, an attorney?

Clyde: Sure. I mean, if you’re gonna go to court over this- Making a mistake like that, it’s manslaughter. Accidental cause.

Chris: Umm. I don’t really have a lawyer of my own at this point, but I’m sure I can find one. If- If the- If- If anything arises from this.

Clyde: You know where?

Chris: I’m sorry, “I know where?”

Clyde: Do you know where to find one?

Chris: Yeah, there’s lawyers in Charlottes- There’s attorneys in Charlottesville.

Clyde: Well, hopefully you get a good one. You don’t wanna get a bad one for sure.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: It’s different to win and lose a case, man. Wouldn't wanna see you go to prison.

Chris: Well, thank you. Thank you, Clyde

Clyde: Look, it’s been a long time since your mom’s been back home. Just started driving again. Driving- Driving- Driving, and I’ve given a lot of thought into, you know, my cousin’s been trying to help you for a while and I realize you need a lot more help than- I don’t know. You really need to seek more help.

Chris: I do not disagree with you. I do not disagree.

Clyde: I mean, you got that Rocky person.

Chris: Yeah, she’s a pastoral counselor at my church.

Clyde: Well, that’s more religious.

Chris: It’s like I confide in her as if she was a psychiatrist.

Clyde: How about another one? You gotta find, like, a-

Chris: She has a degree in that sort- In that field.

Clyde: But is she treating you with that degree? She’s been doing from- with religious stance, not from a psychological-

Chris: Yeah, she has.

Clyde: Do you know that for sure?

Chris: I know that because we have our meetings weekly.

Clyde: A psychiatrist would meet with you probably more often. I’ve only been to a psychiatrist once - maybe twice, I can’t remember - but it was a daily thing for about two weeks and then it was all done. You should probably find something like that: just a quick, intense session for a lot of things. Whatever’s on your mind.

Chris: Yeah, well, that’s- Rocky covers that field.

Clyde: But, like this is over her entire-

Chris: And plus- And plus, I can call her on my cellphone and talk about what’s on my mind as well.

Clyde: [sigh] Right after I told you about Sarah Mackenzie’s death, Julie told me that you went off to have sex with her or something.

Chris: [sigh]

Clyde: Why would you do that?

Chris: Okay, Clyde. I know it seems- I know it looks bad, but, you see, I heard about the fires in Australia the previous- the Sunday before from The Washington Post, so therefore- so the- I ha-

Clyde: Yeah, I know that.

Chris: So I got the tears and those emotions more less, uh, taken care of on that Sunday, and by the time you told me in the Mumble chat and, uh, you know… There was time between that and then uh- and then- And then befo- later when Julie and I, uh, talked at that time between you told me and that… I basically, uh, recovered since I got the majority of those sad emotions out of the way that Sunday previously.

Clyde: That seems like an awfully awful timing for that.

Chris: Yeah, I-

Clyde: And Julie’s been talking about these cyber sex things: that you shouldn't do it anymore, at least before marriage or something like that, but… She explained a ton. But the times you did do it, she said you seemed to have trouble, you know, “getting there”, you know what I mean?

Chris: I have trouble coming up with a good sugge- Good scenario.

Clyde: No, no, no, I mean, reaching, you know… Goddamnit.

Chris: I have reached an orgasm with Julie.

Clyde: “Reach an orgasm.” Man… But, it takes- She said it takes you a long time.

Chris: Well, because she’s not here in person. I tried usi-

Clyde: I mean, you got your imagination, man.

Chris: Well, sometimes my imagination doesn’t work as well as it could.

Clyde: Well, there’s things about the mind. Like you said, you had, like, random homosexual thoughts or something like that. Like, you had random thoughts. It’s possible to get rid of those, you know that, right?

Chris: Uh, yeah, to push them aside and try to get back to the issue at hand, yes.

Clyde: No, there’s an actual way to get rid of those kind thoughts. I mean, I've been driving people for a living. We often talk about these things. I got two cases like yours. I mean, like, what kinda thoughts do you have that interfere?

Chris: Like, it can be considered anything that’s different from the main topic, I guess, you know.

Clyde: Well, could you be specific because you know I’m able to help. I’ve helped a few people with this because I’ve actually, you know, had sex.

Chris: Alright, alright, alright.

Clyde: So I could help with this, and my first few times, as I told you, were bad. But I can help you with this so your first time after marriage is good.

Chris: Alright, so sometimes, randomly an image of a penis will pop up in my head and that just- and that just turns me- and that just turns me off.

Clyde: Well, is it yours? Is it someone else’s? Because if it’s yours, it’s fine, you know, thinking about yourself.

Chris: Well, you see, I don’t remember exactly. It could’ve been mine. It could've been one I've seen in the pornography. But it’s kinda hard to tell, because, you know, it’s like a camera flash.

Clyde: I see. Anything else?

Chris: And also, the, uh-

Clyde: That doesn’t seem- I mean, sometimes I think about that. It doesn’t affect me.

Chris: But also the audio accusations that I’ve heard from people from among my- from among my disloyal fanbase. And also, uh, the ED page, and even reading the words in the- Even reading the words, that uh, hmm, say- Read the words: “My name” is gay. Christian. The sentence is like-

Clyde: I don’t understand.

Chris: The sentence is like, uh, “them call me gay”, and that bothers me.

Clyde: Well, that’s a different issue, I mean… If you’re turned off by that: I mean, people who, like, think about other men during sex, that’s different. This is something else. I mean, why would that affect you that much. You know it’s not true, right?

Chris: Yeah, because they were theorizing wrong, and for the while I was trying to clear up my name and prove to them that I wasn’t- that I wasn’t gay. I was straight.

Clyde: What do you think makes people think that you’re gay? What do you think you’re doing?

Chris: Possibly some of the images I’m drawing in my comics could be misinterpreted to make them seem gay or something like that. And, plus, also, there was the loose talk of me getting the dildo, of which, by the way, I got for f- as a free bonus gift with purchase of a female love doll from AdamAndEve.com. And another free gift that came later… Uh, a set of anal beads, which I never used that either. So it’s between the loose talk of those free gifts and them making- and them making- making up theories that are false and wrong.

Clyde: But that shouldn’t affect you during sex, is the thing.

Chris: Yeah, hmm. But, still, not just during sex but also, you know, even when I'm not having sex or even just any other- Any other time of the day, and it’s just- And it just bothers me.

Clyde: See, that just- That’s different. Talking like a gay person, if you always keep thinking about those things.

Chris: I don’t always think about them.

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Chris: Okay so, we are all back together again on this conversation.

Clyde: Yeah, have you managed to contact uhh Sarah May?

Chris: [sigh] No she hadn't replied. I'm still worried about her there.

Clyde: [sigh] There's some things that Julie is worried about. She's still a bit shaken up from the whole Sarah May thing so, she-

Chris: I'm still shake- I'm still shaken up about it too.

Clyde: Yeah, she's still worried about a future with you again. I may have to... what kind of job are you looking for? I heard you were looking for a job.

Chris: Oh yeah, [clears throat] excuse me, yeah I have been looking for like you know whatever good job is in Charlottesville uhhh I found some that I may that I- will be- um will be cons- that I am considering calling them up- calling them up about.

Clyde: Uh have you got a resume prepared?

Chris: [sigh] I do not know how to prepare a resume.

Clyde: Well there's a bunch of guides on the internet, pretty straight forward, you know, basic stuff. It's not that hard.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: Just remember that [unclear], just remember that they'll be looking over it for about like 30 seconds so you got to make it concise and stuff, only the most important things go on that.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: That's all the advise I got for you there.

Chris: Alright.

Clyde: I mean what kind of specific jobs are you looking for?

Chris: Mmmm lets see um... uuhhm yeah something like you know possibly architecture since I got my CADD degree and-

Clyde: Well what have you looked at specifically, like what position?

Chris: Mmm well I don't know what, I don't know, I don't know of any specific positions but you know something architecture or maybe something that work that allow me to work around computers.

Clyde: Well, make a list and get back to me on that okay, I just want to see what kind of positions you are applying for.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: Uuhm let's see what else... There's something else I want to say, job what was it? [knocking sounds] Oh man... Are you willing to move out of the house? Or are you going to have the house that you live in right now?

Chris: Well hopefully I'd like to ye- yeah... uhhh y-

Clyde: Well do you know your parents-

Chris: Yeah my parents are-

Clyde: Well have your pare-

Chris: my parents are leaving me the house, yes.

Clyde: Are you sure they left it in their will?

Chris: Yeah, they told me. Yeah, they told me... themselves.

Clyde: Alright... do you know if there's any- they own the house right, there's no like mortgage or anything?

Chris: Well, they did have mor- Yeah there is mortgage issues and they are paying that off.

Clyde: Right now?

Chris: Yeah, but they're-

Clyde: You know how much there's left?

Chris: Uuhh... no I do not. And if I and if I and if my parents were talking to you right now and you ask them that they'd probably say "I'd hardly think that's any of your business".

Clyde: Well it's important because will they'd be able to pay it off in their lifetime before they give the house to you? Other than- because otherwise your going to have to have the money.

Chris: Yeah I'm- yeah well I'm starting to pay it off, but I'll double check with them on that issue... You know see how far they got on that.

Clyde: Cause if you lose the house that's not good.

Chris: Yeah.

Clyde: I mean, let's just say you lost the house, but you got a bunch of money from it anyway. Do you know any like apartments you go to?

Chris: Uhh no I have to shop around for an apartment.

Clyde: Well what do you mean by shop around for an apartment?

Chris: Like you know buy the one with the least expensive rent. But one- but you know not- not like its going- not like it could be condemned. Like you know, livable.

Clyde: So when do you plan on getting married?

Chris: Uhhhh. I c- I don't have a specific date on when I would get married. But you know.

Clyde: Well, that's spe-[unclear] but you know. Like when? Two years from now? Five years from now?

Chris: Uhhh you know that's the que- you know that's the question I hate the most. Where do you see yourself five years from now? Because I never have an answer to that question... But it would be-

Clyde: Well, they are going to ask you that in job interviews a lot, I know that.

Chris: Yeah, hmmm but-

Clyde: I mean where where do you see yourself in five years?

Chris: I don't know, I don't know.

Clyde: Let's say uhh job wise, where do you see yourself?

Chris: Uhh in the- in the uh in that set amount of time or?

Clyde: Well, sure whatever.

Chris: Yeah, I don't know.

Clyde: You have to come up with some better answers when you go to the job interview man. They are going to, they are going to nail you hard on that.

Chris: Yeah, that's true. I, I agree with you there. Mm.

Clyde: You got a long ways to go before you know you actually, you know prepare to start a job.

Chris: Yeah. But you know, but yeah getting married I guess that would be in a few years. Yeah.

Clyde: So how much money do you have saved up now? Uhh plus the debt, h-how much? In debt [unclear]

Chris: Uhh plus the debt? Hmm.

Clyde: Yeah.

Chris: I'm not sure what you mean by plus the debt.

Clyde: Well I mean like, let's say I have 50 thousand in the bank, but I've got a thousand dollars in debt. That means I have 49 thousand.

Chris: Hmm. Oh, okay let me think about that. Umm. Mmmm. Okay well, I don't rather not say because you know, you've asked me the question before and you did have the you gave me kind of voice tone. So its like you know I wan- [voice cuts out]

Clyde: Look I'm trying to, trying to if my voice sounds a bit different there's no problem, you know.

Chris: Yes, yes, I just wanted to make sure that you won't, you won't be reverting to that.

Clyde: Have I done that this whole time? No, no, no?

Chris: Okay umm, okay currently I have uh ten dollars in the saving account.

Clyde: Uh what's the most you've ever had in savings?

Chris: Two-three hundred.

Clyde: Alright. Do you can manage funds up to uh ten thousand, twenty thousand?

Chris: Yeah. I believe so. [Bob can be barely heard in the background]

Clyde: Alright. Uh I got a plan for you this this just a base right now. I just want you to uh write a resume. And uh give me a list of like, or give Julie the list. I'm just here to help. Give Julie the list of like let's say ten positions of jobs you, you are willing to apply for and apply for them of course.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: Uhh I say do that within the next

Chris: Alright.

Clyde: three or four days, you know. And if you do manage to land a job, good for you. Start working and get some money saved up.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: I want to know about the progress, I'll check in back with you in a few days, alright?

Chris: Okay, but also just so you know uhh, uh just so you know Clyde uhh I have talked to my father about uh you know the risks between you know getting a job and social security. And he said that uh well I make, what I get in social security now is basically more, more or so than uh what people who work make because you know they may get they may get like I don't know eigh-. So I get like eight hundred a month, they might get like sixteen hundred a month. But then they got to, but than either pay, by than out of their paycheck, they have to- they have to set aside some for social secur- for their social and other funds and taxes, that sort of thing. But then I would round that down to about eight hundred or less, about what I- about what I get a month.

Clyde: The thing is, they also got benefits. Benefits is a lot.

Chris: [unclear] But also uh ye- yeah.

Clyde: And retirement, you got to think about retirement because you don't get retirement in social security.

Chris: And also uh consider this, to make like eight hundred a month, you would have to work like, you would have to get like ten dollars an hour out of a forty hour week. Yeah that's, yeah. He's on the calculator this second.

Clyde: Are you sure about that?

Chris: He's very good at math, my father.

Clyde: [sigh] Well it really depends on what kind of job you get. There's some that pay like, per every, uh its like per hour and there's by uhm I wonder what you would call them. You said you did Cutco or something, you get money every time you sold some cutlery right?

Chris: Yeah, and also my- also my-

Clyde: Like that, its either like that but per hour. Depend- you really got to also look at the benefits they do. They might give really good benefits.

Chris: Okay, yeah and also my father also said that uh that uh people are. The people who are hiring would automatically be afraid to hire me if they found out about my autism, it's like I would probably need like a social worker or the or like a supervisor who will want to work with me. Otherwise [stutters] otherwise [stutters] otherwise the, the

Clyde: Well you wouldn't do that would you?

Chris: person who will hire me would be like "hey I don't know about this guy, let's just fire him." That's just basically what happened to me when I worked at Wendy's a few years ago. Mmm. Yeah, did not go too well.

Clyde: Did you have a social worker then?

Chris: Yeah, Rocky told me about that I can find one at Region Ten, a social worker.

Clyde: Well, you should probably find one, that could probably help.

Chris: Okay. Alright.

Clyde: See, there you go. There you go. There's one last thing I wanted to say about uhhh

Chris: Take your time.

Clyde: Slipped my mind... What were we talking about a few minutes ago? Getting a job, resume. Right. Uhh, when's the last uh diagnosis for your autism, the last time you got that?

Chris: Oh yeah, that was like somewhere around when I turned 21, about uhhh five-six years ago.

Clyde: And that, that said high functioning autism right?

Chris: Yeah.

Clyde: And that's now outdated so you probably should get another one. So you can show it to a potential, potential employers.

Chris: Okay. Okay. Alright.

Clyde: Let me know about that.

Chris: Alright.

Clyde: So basically I want you to do this in the next few days. You want to give Julie a list of jobs, resume, and a diagnosis.

Chris: Alright, also yeah also I don't know about in the next few days because you see, my Aunt Corrina is dying. She's going to be- she's bre- she's bre- she's probably had breathed her last breath while she was slee- while she was asleep while she was in the hospital. She was yeah.

Clyde: Ahhh.

Chris: Yeah. And you know she was very- she and I- she was close to me. She was like uh like one of my top two favorite aunts, tied in the number one position.

Clyde: Alright.

Chris: But in an- But in any case, yeah she yeah she she smoked, she had uh bad um she her her left uh her between her left lung and her liver and her brain, they all had damage.

Clyde: Wow, that's terrible.

Chris: Yeah tell me about it.

Clyde: Alright, I understand if you can't do it in the next few days. Just get back to me within like I want to say beginning of the month. How about that?

Chris: Hmm. How about you know within the month of March. Yeah, and also I don't know if you know this, but my birthday is next Tuesday.

Clyde: Well, happy early birthday then.

Chris: Okay thank you, I'll be 27 this year.

Clyde: Alright. Fantastic. I got to be heading out right now.

Chris: Okay.

Clyde: We'll check back in maybe after your birthday or something. Alright?

Chris: Okay. Clyde uh like if you read my e-mail, if you call my parents again just introduce yourself and talk calmly to them and explain explain explain your business and all that, I'll send an e-mail. Alright thank you Clyde, take care.

Clyde: Alright, I will. Okay.

Notes

Julie Saga
The Players Organizations: The Miscreants People: Chris • BlueSpike (Julie • Max) • Clyde Cash • Sarah May • Bryan Bash • BILLY MAYS • Bob Chandler • Aunt Corrina Inanimate Objects: Kimmi
The Games Platforms: IRC • Mumble • PSN • Skype Places: Molvanîa • Ohio Mumble Chats: (1 • 2 • 3 • 3.5 • 4 • 5 • 6 • 7 • 8 • 9 • 9.5 • 10 • 11 • 12) BlueSpike PSN Chats: (1 • 2 • 3 • 3.5 • 3.7 • 4) BlueSpike Skype Logs: (1 • 2 • 3 • 4 • 5 • 6 • 7 • 8 • 9 • 10 • 11 • 12 • 13) Art: Silvana Masturbation • Rosechu with a strap-on
Julie's Introduction:	Sarah May:	Chris vs. Clyde:	Sex Leaks:	The Miscreants:	The Reveal:	The Aftermath:
Letter from Julie Ode to Julie	Sarah May Skype Logs Barb almost goes off Supporting Sarah May Sarah's Attempted Suicide	Chris Comes Out of the Closet Chris Destroys His Vibrator Promise to Clean Room	Sex Discussion For Julie's Eyes Only CWC Cums for a Cat Bob Walks In Bob Walks In Aftermath	The Miscreants' Introduction Continuation of Introduction Julie is kidnapped Ohio trip	Julie Reveals Herself: The Prequel Julie Reveals Herself	Chris Dispels Some Rumors BlueSpike Gets the Boot Clyde Murders BlueSpike
Coinciding Sagas Clyde Cash • PandaHalo • PS3 Hacking

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